Finally...

Finally, hari yang ditunggu2 datang jugak.tepat jam 1130 saya siapkan my very2 last exam paper as a student.then, i'm no longer student.hahaha.2 thn tadika + 6 thn primary school + 5 thn secondary school + 41/2 thn universiti=cukuplah.dah tak larat dah.otak pun dah nak meletup.

Usually bila start cuti semester semestinya sayalah org yg lewat balik antara smua kawan2 saya.but for this time, i'm the early one.actually nak jugak spend masa utk enjoy ngan member2 lain tapi nak jugak balik awal coz cousin i kahwin n saya xnak terlepas tgk majlis kahwin dia.why?because dialah satu2nya girl dalam family dia.sekurang2nya bglah support skit dgn dtg kat majlis kahwin die.lagipun bukan org lain,family sendiri. At the time, my other cousin ada convocation kat putrajaya. dia bawak satu family datang KL tgk die punya convo.akhirnya dia dpt buktikan wpun dah tua, still boleh belajar juak.congrats to her n sorry coz x dpat dtg untuk the best day in her life.so difficult to make a decision actually.half of myself nak balik awal n half lagi nak stay sekejap sama ngan member.

today, i habiskan masa sebaiknya ngan member2.malam mereka datang bilik.THANK to Leen,Fiera,mega,wani,aimi,anisa,cikun,sha,azrin n smua yg sms i n gtalk i(sorry coz not mention all your name but really appreciate all the wish.sorry coz xdpt nak jumpa you all face to face coz i kene bertolak jam 6 pg).thank to you all wpun some of you ada misi nak buat i menangis.but really sorry coz i can't cry.dah habis energy nak nangis.dah puas dah sedih before hari ini coz nak prepare sendiri agar tak menangis utk last day.reason?i prefer the last moment spend ngan kawan2 dalam suasana happy2 n ceria.really hate tears n people cry coz i look bad when i'm sad.i dah mula rasa sedih since ahad lepas lagi but then nasib baik my rumet tidak perasan coz die ingat i tgk muvie sedih.actually i tak tengok apa2 muvie pun.dengar lagu then suddenly rasa sedih plak.teringat kat saat2 bersama semua org.dulu time sekolah ada jugak perpisahan camni tapi tak sesedih perpisahan ini.reason?coz kami smua dari negeri yg berlainan then peluang untuk bertemu susah sekali.tak macam kawan2 sekolah.even semua belajar kat tempat lain2 but then at the end of the day still balik kat tempat yg sama n still can see each other.so sad right now but my sad mood dah kene kacau ngan rumet.die baru balik dari kuar ngan kawan2 die.

Bila belek2 semua lagu2 yg ada dalam simpanan, ada beberapa lagu yang buat saya tak tahan then terus sedih.kat sini i pastekan lirik lagu tersebut and the rest of my feeling this time can be describe through the lyric of these songs.

SEMUA TENTANG KITA-PETER PAN
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Waktu terasa semakin berlalu 
Tinggalkan cerita tentang kita 
Akan tiada lagi kini tawamu 
Tuk hapuskan semua sepi di hati 

Teringat di saat kita tertawa bersama 
Ceritakan semua tentang kita 

Reff:

Ada cerita tentang aku dan dia 
Dan kita bersama saat dulu kala 
Ada cerita tentang masa yang indah 
Saat kita berduka saat kita tertawa



BUKAN BINTANG BIASA
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Once upon a time ada sebuah bintang
Yang bersinar terang di hatimu
Ku akan datang lagi menjemputmu dengan cinta
Kan kubagikan semua bintangku
Kumiliki bintang, bukan bintang biasa
Ku bisa hapuskan semua dukamu
Ku tak akan menghilang, slalu ada di hatimu
Memberi bintang hanya untuk cinta

Reff
Dan yang terbaik selamanya bersama
Akan kubagikan bintangku demi cintamu
And when you keep on believing
Thousand ones can be sees by running
The miracles can do things though can’t do
Kumiliki bintang, bukan bintang biasa
Ku bisa hapuskan semua dukamu
Ku tak akan menghilang, slalu ada di hatimu
Memberi bintang hanya untuk cinta
Dan yang terbaik selamanya bersama
Akan kubagikan bintangku demi cintamu
And when you keep on believing
Thousand ones can be sees by running
The miracles can do things though can do
Dan yang terbaik selamanya bersama
Akan kubagikan bintangku demi cintamu
And when you keep on believing
Thousand ones can be sees by running
The miracles can do things though can’t do
The miracles can do things though can’t do

Feel like to write something

What an idiot title for this post...actually suddenly I feel like to write something today.Maybe because of pressure for the Business and Cyber Law paper tomorrow.I think I become more weird.Everyone busy reviewing and struggle for tomorrow but what am I doing?Business and Cyber Law is the very "handsome and susah dipikat" subject for this semester.This is not my opinion only but just mewakili perasaan member2 yg lain.Banyak sgt law yg kene baca.sometimes terfikir plak if i can create my own law...but maybe untuk beberapa tahun akan datang n bukan esok hari coz esok is my final exam.oh man!!! really headache to think about Contract Act, Company n Partnership Law,law of tort, computer crime act and digital signature act.

Finally my 4 years n a half almost reach to the end.like what had been posted in my last post, this mean the ending and the beginning.siap ada member yg dah buat countdown lagi.my last paper is on 20 november and after that i'm FREE. Plan awal nak balik on the next day friday 21 november since got nothing to do again here.Everyone including my roommate seem have their own farewell plan with their "cik abang".I don't want to be left alone in my room with the "fastest internet connection in the world" so its better for me to pack up everything and fly back to my hometown and meet my family.what a common plan...

Farewell with friends?well tomorrow nite after the BCL, we will go out for our farewell.Place n activities?not plan yet coz everyone busy with exam.Me n Megala plan to do this and that but then need to cancel that plan coz we afraid that Fiera (sorry fiera coz takut awk xnak ke tempat tue jer) will not agree with the place that we plan to go. So just wait until tomorrow evening then me n mega draft our plan.that is my farewell with my friend since foundation(fiera,wani,yee,leen n mega).how about my vietnamese frenz, Dieu n Huyen.and others as well.i love all of them.

Last Sunday, I received a bad news.one of my family members(my uncle) passed away.I make an analogy that I had a bad luck with letter M & S come together.Last semester (in same year), a a nite before my Strategic Management(SM) paper, My grandma passed away and this semester, a day before Malaysian Studies (MS) paper, my uncle passed away.cannot blame the fate because as a human, we must be prepared for death and any news regarding the death.

Today,my brother,Helmi received his UPSR result.Congratulation for him eventhough he only got 2A 3B but I'm not expecting high target for him because I know his level but still I hope he will succeed for his future.And Good Luck for my other brother,GG, for his SPM.die nie adik lelaki I yg paling bermasalah selain Keri.but still i love them coz walaupun kadang2 bergaduh sampai nak mampus ngan mereka dua nie, tapi at the end of the day, I am still the important person for them especially if they want something that they can only get through me.

So sad last saturday watching my favourite series Ghost Whisperer.Last week episode for the new season 4 make me sad and make me cry.My favourite actor, Jim, Melinda husband dies.I love this series not only because of the supernatural stories about the person who can communicate with the death but also the husband wife loving couple relationship between Jim and Melinda.what will happen next???Jim cannot die.Love him.Last nite I watched the new episode of House new season 5.love last nite episode because House got some unexplain feeling finally...its maybe love feeling.Its difficult to watch him with these facial expression and feeling.Love you Dr House.Although his not that handsome, but i love his character.

OH MY GOD!!!already 10.00pm.tomorrow paper start at 9.00 am.need to stop right now to review back my Business and Cyber Law.GOODLUCK 4 ME N OTHER FRENZ TOMORROW.

The End or The Beginning

Wah!!! finally i got time to update my blog.it is not because the "lazy virus" or "slow internet connection virus" but very busy.But now I'm free (at least for this moment b4 final exam)....

THE END

I only have less than a month in UTP.After 4 years, finally the day that I had been waiting for knock my door.happy or sad?can't explain my feeling right now.for this time being, my heart say,she happy but for sure later on she will say she very sad.many bad n sweet memories and experience i learnt here.

• 24/10- Free from FYP (only presentation) but still feel release.FYP make my life busy and that word always appear each time i do some other work. But now,no need to think about it.anyway, FYP also brought many sweet memories.Everyone work together and support each other.With this FYP thing, it seems like everyone become care about each other even before this we are not that close.Besides that, we can learn new thing from each other because everone have different project with different programming style.so now i can say that FYP not that bad.it also good even it make my life miserable.
• 27/10-ICTBIS gathering...not everyone able to come together since that day also Deepavali Holiday.so enjoy and refreshing..but the bad thing is, I slept the whole evening after went back from the gathering.

so many thing happen for the last 4 years here. sometimes hope the time moves faster but sometimes hope tomorrow never comes.but it is normal."setiap pertemuan pasti ada perpisahan"....so this is the 4th time for me to wish goodbye n goodluck to my frenz.1st..during kindergarten, then primary school, followed by secondary school n now university.but its good actually coz if no goodbye, we will not know how important that person in our life.never mind, we can set a target later on;when should we meet again.

The Beginning

the end of student life mean the new beginning of another stage in my life.my future?until now, i'm not sure what i want to do next.the only thing in my head now is short time planning that is finish my final exam.but after that, what should i do?no future planning.don't know why....i still remember when i was a kid..i have plan many thing for my life.but when i grow up, that excitement become low until finally i don't have any plan on what to do.

the next stage of my life is also involved the new beginning for new friendship.but at the same time, need to retain the current friendship so that we get more friend and enlarge our love loop.

actually i'm really worry about the new beginning.this is because, in this new stage of my life, i need to earn money on my own and this is the time i need to work not only for myself but for my family.my father will be retired soon and i think this is the time for me to take a responsibility to take care of my family since i'm the eldest.feel so scared actually becoz i'm not sure if i can take this big responsibility.but then still so excited when think about it.

think that all for this time coz feel so hungry.need to search for something that can be eat.

Mix Everything

First of All, Selamat Hari Raya AidilFitri

This morning I feel like to update my blog.so here I will mix all the stories and experience for the last few weeks until last nite.hahaha

Raya Preparation

So tired. I went back to my hometown 4 days be4 Hari Raya.well, I already expected that all my beloved brothers will be happy bcoz they are free from any housework.my two sisters?..the younger one can be escape bcoz she know nothing except being happy.but the other one, she only work according to her mood. If she wants to do it, she will do it.but if not,nothing to say.Once I stepped into my house, my brothers started to told me what had been done by them and what they left for me.So bad bcoz my task is 8 over 10 of their tasks. Anyway, I "LOVE" them.

KEK LAPIS

hahaha..compulsory thing for Hari Raya in Sarawak. This year I only baked two kek lapis.The second one I baked on Hari Raya nite.Everyone busy with fireworks and "mercun", I was in the kitchen for my Kek Lapis. Here I attached the picture of some KeK.

HARI RAYA

Selamat Hari Raya.this year not all our family member celebrate it together. My brother (the one after me) not going back to celebrate it. He was studying in Indonesia.everyday he called us everyday until we feel boring with him. But what to do.we must understand his feeling.hahaha.this year Hari rAya very tiring.on the third day of hari raya, we need to buy again the ingredients for kek lapis.our cake finish on second day of hari raya.not all but 4 cakes.but we still not feeling good if we just serve a few to our guest.

FYP

Nothing to comment under this topic.can't wait to finish it and remove it from my mind

Wani Birthday

Last nite, I went out with Mega, Fiera, Wani and Yee to celebrate Wani Birthday. first we plan to go to Pizza Hut but then fiera got briefing until 9:30pm.so we went to Ikan Bakar Lumut and celebrate her birthday there. Hope she enjoy our celebration for her.hahaha.

TODAY!!!!!

Back to normal student life with assignments....

Suatu pagi yg sunyi.......

akhirnya ada jgk masa untuk update blog nie.seblm nie ada jer masa tapi biasalah time tue terkena virus "MALAS" ,virus "NO IDEA" n virus "SLOW INTERNET CONNECTION"..tp paginie virus tue dah dapat di "remove" tp xtahu berapa lama.hahaha..merepek pagi2 nie..
arini dah 15 hari berpuasa rupanya tp x terasa plak coz maybe week b4 this very busy with assignmnt, test,progress report,FYP n etc. sampai xperasan masa berjalan dgn pantas.okaylah..sekarang time untuk update blog.

Last week is the most busy and important week in my life for 2008.Why?my second youngest brother Helmi sat for his UPSR,my first brother Hisyam started his lectures in Indonesia and I got PETRONAS interview on Friday. First, let we talk about Helmi. My mum very worried with him since a week b4 UPSR he doesn't look like someone who will take any test. When my mum asked him to study n review back all the thing that he learnt, he has his own answer scheme for such question "cikgu madah iboh blajar agik.kelak stress susah.mun otak dah tensen,sik apat jawab soalan kelak...[our teacher said, don't study too hard or it will make us stress.if we are tension, we can't manage to answer the question]"...not only my mum, even when my aunty asked him, that his answer.like a tape recording.But what make me n other sibling feeling like to kill him was when we wished him for good luck, he told my mum, he felt like a popular person.all sis n bros called him and wish him goodluck.luckily we are far away from home.if not, we will samck him.
okay..move to my bro Hisyam.Last Tuesday was his first lecture session in one of University in Indonesia.The next morning, he called my mum and told her that he had a difficulties there during first session. He seem having difficulties in understanding the Indonesia language used by people there.but then he tried his best to solve this problem.One more thing, this is first time in his life celebrating Fasting Month at other country and far away from home.Actually compare to him, me and other family members miss him so much during this fasting month and the coming hari raya.but when he called home, we just not showed it to him.during fasting month, he is like a second chef in our house if my mum very busy. This is because in our family, only my mum and all my 5 brothers love cooking but the girls including me, the first child hate cooking.my mum always told me that I'm the eldest and should learn how to cook.but the problem is i hate cooking but i love eating.so now all my 5 brothers love cooking so let i'm just be the princess.hahaha..i miss the time when they all cooks something and all 8 of us shared it.ok..continue with my bro Hisyam[hopefully he will not read this blog]....we will miss him during this coming raya coz he not able to back home due to the expensive flight ticket.usually a few day before raya, he was the one who decorate and do house cleaning. we can't help him becoz, he already warned us not to interrupt in his business.if we touched anything that he needs for cleaning and decoration, he will stop his job and not continued it.so for this year, its all depend to the us [did not have any magic touching in decoration]...every raya everyone who came into my house impressed with his touch and this make us jealous of him.but this year....well, actually I should be happy because this is the time i can show my talent...hahahhaha
Next,my interview.i don't know how to describe it.either ok or not ok.but i think its ok because i do not have any sad or bad feeling.what i remember is after i done with the interview, i went back to my room with happy face then i slept for almost 5 hours.everyone know what does that mean?????

Saturday coming...
the night before that, I got sms from mega asking me for joining her to Ipoh for PC Fair.well that is my weaknesses.if someone asking me going out during weekend, i always say YES as long as we come back before 6pm.but still limit to term and condition.hahhaha..the one who asked me must be my friend and same attitude like me.ok..lets continue.We took a bus from UTP to Medan Kid, then from Medan Kid, we took another bus to Stadium Indera Mulia.got so many people.we spend almost one hour there.then aftr that we took bus to Ipoh Parade for shopping time.not really shopping becoz Mega the one who do all the shopping while I'm just do window shopping.I love to see nice n sweet thing but for me to buy these thing is difficult.reason:i will think the reason why i must buy that thing and did i really need that thing.another reason is i don't want to make myself feel guilty for using my money since i can save that money for future usage.but then, sometimes i will feel regret of not buying the thing that i wanted.nevermind, for this time being let just save the money.plus i got 7 more sibling who are still studying and for sure my dad need to use a large amount of money to support them.but since i got a sponsorship, let just use it wisely only for my study and help my sibling in also if got some extra.well, sometimes, i always looking back to my past where at that time I just only see my friend's parent buy everything that their child wanted.that time i alway wish that i was born into a rich family.but then i'm still happy with my family although we are not that rich becoz my father still can support our school.love you dad n u also mum.
O Man!!! "LAZY" virus start to attack again because i haven't on the "FIREWALL".what should i do? ok..let just stop here before I was attacked by the "NO IDEA" virus.hihihihi

~I FALL IN LoVe With.....

Tengah bersemangat and busy menaip report utk Corp Communication nyer group assignment, tetiba satu SMS masuk.wow!its from my frenz.kandungan SMS die..."define love in your own word".tertanya2 jgk kenapa die hantar soalan bonus tanpa hadiah tue.then i just reply without answering the question.sebenarnya itu soalan dr love partner die utk die.dia xder idea nak jawab apaso die susahkan kawan2 dia lah.tp sy begitu malas nak balas explain panjang2 kat die, i pun bgtaulah kat die...Love is universal....then i suruh die huraikan sendirilah coz die bercinta so die sendiri yg tau maksud LOVE.Dia punyalah geram then BUZZ me in my YM for my full explanation.tp itu x membantu die coz i cdgkan die baca novel cinta or tgk movie/series cinta or perhatikan org2 disekeliling dia then dia akan jumpa jawapan utk soalan dia.dia still x puas hati so i just decide utk die spy tgk definition from the other friends yg dia sms.
lepas jer habis layan dia, i pun teruskan report CC i.then baru i perasan, assgmt i pun ada kaitan dgn love.arggghhhh....apasal pgnie semuanya dlm mood LOVE.after subuh my mum called and baru i realize yg i dah 6 hari tak call rumah.aT the end of conversation,i cakap kat mak i, kirim salam sayang rindu kat semua family.Sayang? still ada kaitan dgn love.so bla fikir semua nie, i dpt idea nakupdatekan blog i n gunakan love sebagai main topik.why?Because I fall in love now...with whom???? just read through the following post

I FALL IN LOVE WITH ........

• My God, my Believe

I fall in love with this everyday and everytime.lebih2 lagi time bulan puasa nie.i taknak cakap banyak ttg cinta terhadap my first love nie coz my love cannot be express infront of public.

• My family

I fall in love with my family.they are my strengths, weaknesess and they are everything in my life.this is because family relationship is something that was born in nature and we cannot deny the existence of this relationship.my family is my priority among others thing.i will feel the pain if one of them especially my parent get hurt.hmmmm....now im thinking of my family and our time together.when i was a child i always felt jealous with other frenz who come from a rich family.but as i grew up, then i realize something,as long as we live in happiness n not hurting others, we also can become a rich family.during our free time, me together with my other 7 siblings sit together in one room and then make a dream to become a rich people and build a big house.that activities always been done when our parent not home and sometimes we talked about it in front of our parent.Sometimes when we had a fight, our house condition is like an earthquake but then a few days later we still can laugh at each other because everyone look so funny when avoiding each other.That why I fall in love with my family

• My friends

I fall in love with my friends.although sometimes we not satisfied with each other and even had an argument with each other but still we are friend and still need each other to complete our life.Friend is like my second family because they are the one that close to me after my family.luckily i'm still in contact with my friends from the kindergarden time until now.although not all but still we still maintain our relationship until now.last year, many of my friend getting married.sometimes when we accidently met somewhere else, we try our best to recognize or remember at least name and when our first meeting. that is the beauty of friend that makes me fall in love with my friends

• Myself

I fall in love with myself.why?because sometimes there is no answer for why....

• Foods

This is the best part.I fall in love with all the delicious food as long as it is halal.among all the foods, i'm dying falling in love with my mums cooking plus my brothers cooking since i'm very bad in cooking.that's why i appreciate food because i know i can't cook these foods.although these food looks nice and delicious but then if my eyes catch a "sardin", so my priority is sardin.hahahahha.chocolate and ice-cream is my favourite.

• Nature and Environment

why?because i grew up by witnessing the beautiful nature and environment.if i have an opportunity to help saving the environment, i would love to do it

• Peace and harmony

inilah elemen yg semakin pupus kat muka bumi nie.kemusnahan di mana2 n ramai org yg tak bersalah terseksa.apa salah mereka.the powerful people think that they are powerful and can do what they want without concern about peace and live of others.mereka senanglah.lepas menyusahkan hidup org, mereka sekeluarga still can enjoy their life,having parties tp org yg terlibat dlm konspirasi jahat mereka n mangsa2 konspirasi jahat mereka hidup susah.org mcam nie patut mati coz mereka x diperlukan kat dunia nie.Kdg2 rasa nak suruh mereka uji dulu konspirasi jahat tue ke atas diri mereka sendiri sblm mereka buat kat org lain.igt nyawa n kehidupan org tue patung yg takde perasaan ker.uishhh... gerammm...so time nie sokonglah lagu "where is the love"

• my belongings and properties

I love my belonging and properties because some of it is a gifts from people to me and some of it i get it with my own effort.when i look at these things, it makes me fall in love with them because they remind me about the relationship, sincerity,beauty,life and hardworking

• Money

Sometimes I fall in love with money but this love is not last forever because I only fall in love with money for some reason and purpose.BUT I owez kept in mind that money cannot buy LOVE.

....... there's a lot of thing that make me fall in love.That is my answer when my friend asked me did i fall in love.when i met the old friend, the most famous bonus question without award and prize i get is..."are you still single?".my answer is simple.i have so many thing to be loved and no time for the love between girl n boy.my family and myself is everything for this time....

OH NOOOO!!!!!!I still got many thing to do..My CC report,FYP report n application,CE assignmt,Malaysian studies assignment..then i got a BCL n MS test....

see...that is why i say I have no time for love between girl n boy.ok i stop here, my phone calling and its my mum again...

Beautiful Sky Art

so beautiful. The above picture was taken on 22/08/08 at 7.27pm at UTP Convo Square.That time, I was on my way back to my hostel with my friend after having a dinner at Convofair place.The sky view at that time are very nice and beautiful, so I snap a picture.

A few days before that, on 16/08/08, I was captured by the beautiful of UTP sky.That night is the fullmoon nite.The two pictures I posted above show the fullmoon process in the sky.These picture was taken from my room window view.So nice and beautiful.



The above picture was taken on 13/08/08 on 6.25pm from my room window also a view of UTP sky.hihihihihi

What is FRIEND?

When mention about FRIENDS,everyone start to think about their friend.Some of them might also start to count how many friend they have since their childhood time.Everyone must have friend at least one in their entire life.Sometimes I asked myself, did I really understand what is the meaning of FRIEND?Do I really have a good FRIENDSHIP with my friends?Why people need friend in their life? why we being a friend for so many people at the same time? what is the real rules in friendship?All these question comes into my mind.

Why I choose to post this topic? Because sometimes I don't know what to do and when I don't know what to do, I alway think about this kind of silly question.SometimesI asked myself,why should I care about all those thing.Even sometimes I really crazy and I asked myself,who is the first person who introduced "A,B,C" AS a letter,who is the first personthat introduced the number, who is the first person that tell the others that the 'tree' is the tree, etc...But it is not wrong to create curiosity in our mind right.Anyway, lets go back to the main topic that is FRIEND.Because I love to visit my "Uncle Google", I asked "him" to explain me the meaning of FRIEND.Below here I attached some meaning that attract my attention that can be shared with everyone.

I'm not simply put the quotes below just for fun. Here, I post the quotes that reflect my thinking about FRIENDSHIP. I just don't know how to describe it with my own words so I need help from these quotes to explain to everyone on what I understand about FRIENDSHIP.
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• "True friendship is like sound health; the value of it is seldom known until it be lost." - Charles Caleb Colton
• "My friends are my estate."- Emily Dickinson
• "Don't walk in front of me, I may not follow.Don't walk behind me, I may not lead.Walk beside me and be my friend." - Albert Camus (also attributed to Maimonidies). Sent by clovers
• "Friendship is unnecessary, like philosophy, like art... It has no survival value; rather is one of those things that give value to survival." - C. S. Lewis
• "The better part of one's life consists of his friendships." - Abraham Lincoln
• "Friendship: a building contract you sign with laughter and break with tears."
• "Anybody can sympathise with the sufferings of a friend, but it requires a very fine nature to sympathise with a friend's success." - Oscar Wilde
• "If you judge people, you have no time to love them." - Mother Teresa
• "Without friends no one would choose to live, though he had all other goods." - Artistotle
• "Friendship is always a sweet responsibilty, never an oppourtunity." - Kahil Gibran
• "Friendship that flows from the heart cannot be frozen by adversity, as the water that flows from the spring cannogt congeal in winter." - James Fenimore Cooper
• "Best friends are like diamonds, precious and rareFalse friends are like leaves, found everywhere."- Anoymous
• "If all my friends were to jump off a bridge, I wouldn't jump with them, I'd be at the bottom to catch them"
• "Everyone hears what you say. Friends listen to what you say. Best friends listen to what you don't say."
• "How do you know you've found your best friend. When you are ready to talk to them about anything, even though they know everything about you already."
• "A world without a friend, what would it be? It would be like a world without water, something you need. Friends are like glass, once broken, they are hard to fix. Keep your friends, as you would keep your water."
• "A friend will be there for you when things are good...but a TRUE friend will be there for you when things are good and also when things are very bad...and just when it feels like you will never smile again...she can put a smile on your face with just with a hug!"
• "Have no friends not equal to yourself."- Confucious (551 - 497 BC) Chinese philosopher.
• "To like and dislike the same things, that is indeed true friendship."- Sallust (86 - 334 BC) Roman historian
• "Friendship with oneself is all-important because without it one cannot be friends with anyone else in the world."- Eleanor Roosevelt
• "A true friend stabs you in the front."- Oscar Wilde
• "The most beautiful thing we can experience is the mysterious, it is the true sourse of art, science, and friendship."- Albert Einstien
• "Never shall I forget the days I spent with you. Continue to be my friend, as you will always find me yours."- Ludwig van Beethoven
• "Walking with a friend in the dark is better than walking alone in the light."- Helen Keller
• "In the end, we will remember not the words of our enemies, but the silence of our friends." - Martin Luther King Jr.
• "A friend in need is a friend indeed."- Latin Proverb
• "Life without a friend is like death without a witness."- Spanish Proverb
• "THERE ARE MANY TYPES OF SHIPS. THERE ARE WOODEN SHIPS ,PLASTIC SHIPS, AND METAL SHIPS. BUT THE BEST AND MOST IMPORTAINT TYPES OF SHIPS ARE FRIENDSHIPS."- OLD IRISH QUOTE
• " A friend is one to whom one may pour out all the contents of one's heart, chaff and grain together, knowing that the gentlest of hands will take and sift it, keep what is worth keeping and with a breath of kindness blow the rest away."- Arabian Proverb
• "It is better to be in chains with friends , than to be in a garden with strangers." -Persian Proverb

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******That's all the quotes I can use to describe my understanding on FRIENDSHIP.What can I summarized here is everyone need friends in their life.No one want to be lonely because when we have friend, at least we have a partner to share our happiness and sadness. Even sometimes, the beginning of the ENEMY is from the FRIEND relationship.someone will not be someone else ENEMY unless there are friend before.********

Summary of the week II

This month(generally) and this week(specifically) is the busy week. Many things happen but not in my life but in my surrounding. This situation make me think a lot (although I should more worried about my study and final year project).Sometimes I asked myself, Why I must concern about what happen around me? Then there is no answer for that question instead of I'm still thinking and concern about all these thing.



1. Olympic Games in Beijing 2008

Yesterday I watched the Badminton semifinal match between our Malaysian player,Lee Chong Wei and Korean player Lee Hyun Ill.it is the unforgettable memory for all Malaysian.Since 1956 Malaysia join the Olympic Games, we only got 1 silver(badminton-"beregu"-1996) and 2 bronze(badminton-"beregu(1992) and individual(1996)).that is the best achievement by Malaysian athletes so far. After that, Olympic Games 2000 and 2004, Malaysian didn't won any medal.but yesterday, all Malaysian proud of Lee Chong Wei.He manages to make himself go to the final that is tomorrow.This mean he conform the Silver medal for Malaysia but there is still the chance for Malaysia to win Gold medal for olympic and if he manage to win it, he is the BEST and break the record for Malaysia.But, in the middle of the happiness still got some Malaysian hope he lose.WHY? Because the Malaysian government already announce that whoever athlete bring back GOLD Medal will be given RM 1 million as an incentive.Those people think that is the stupid decision because it will waste the people money. But for me, I think it is the right decision.

REASON: Malaysia want Gold medal in Olympic and it is something that everybody will do in order to motivate people to perform well.Imagine that those disagreed people participate in a competition where our country really want to win it for a long time then the government motivated them by giving a great big incentive,for sure they will grab the chance.In this matter, I hope people dont think negative way.Just bring along the spirit "MALAYSIA BOLEH". Beside that, I'm sure that Lee Chong Wei not doing this for the sake of becoming the instant Millionnaire.For the sport person or someone that participate in the competition, what they want is to WIN and perform the best they can.There is no issue that they really want the incentives.No one play for become a loser. Eceryone want to WIN and Chong Wei has proof it that he want to WIN and get his own satisfaction with his performance.Anyway Wish him good luck for tomorrow match."MALAYSIA BOLEH" Spirit must comes first.





2. UiTM issues

This is the popular issue for this week.The Selangor MB want to oepn 10% quota for non-bumiputera to become UiTM students and this issue get a fast feedback from evryone in this country.All UiTM student around Malaysia do the demonstration in order to show their feeling.They said that UiTM is for bumiputera and it will become like that forever.I always keep myself up tp date with this issue because i love to hear feedback from diferent perspectives.In my own opinion there is pro and con with that announcement by Selangor MB and I'm sure he has his own reason for making that kind of announcement.Of course my first impression when I heard about that news, I'm not agree with it. But when I think again and review the comment from other people through the news i watched from TV and read from local newspaper, I think it is not a bad decision.Sometimes people need to think outside the box.i agree that UiTM is for Bumiputera but sometimes we need to make our life more challenging.if the bumi's know that there always a place for them to study, they will not think about competition.they must realize that sometimes something that we own will be taken by others and before that happen we must be prepared to face it.in this case, i think they just accept the news and what they can do is prove to the others that the Bumi's still can perform well although there were non-bumi's compete with them.Sometimes competition is the best way to measure our real performance.



thats only my opinion regarding this issues and im sure that this issue will be settled as soon as possible because the main objective of going to university is to study and gain as many knowledge as we can, NOT to make ourselves involved in these kind of issue that everyone not sure when it will be ended.





3. MERDEKA

August is the most precious month for Malaysia. 31 August 1957 is the date where we are free.This year, Malaysia is 51 years old and it has achieve a lot since that day.This is MERDEKA MONTH but i'm very sad with the current situation.Everyone busy with politic issue here and there, criminal case,demonstration until they forget that they must make a reflection for this month.they must stop all these thing and work together to appreciate this month.Even until now, I haven't seen any advertisement that remind all the Malaysian that this is MERDEKA MONTH and everyone should celebrate it. I'm very sad. Although I'm not really know well about my country history but what I know is the effort that make by the elders to free the country from the British colonization.I think everyone should read back the history book and study well about the country history.sometimes I asked myself, can I survived if I was born during the British,Japan or communist time.Heard the stories from the elders and read the book already make me feel fear and scare.Luckily I was born after merdeka.Actually sometimes I felt very bad when i'm not appreciate the peace and freedom of my country.its like i'm not appreciate the effort of the elders (those who work hard for independent of Malaya).Anyway, for this 51years of independence, i hope that Malaysia more success.





4. My student Life

Arrrgggghhhh.....the normal situation as like other students.got assignment, test, project and friend issues.but I can handle it for this time being since its become my routine now.I always told myself that everything is depend on myself.if i can manage myself well, i can do it.but if i fail to manage myself, that mean i fail in my life.so why should the word TENSION comes into my mind.I should be happy because i got a chance to experience all these.



OH....my stomach already sing a song.time for lunch.hihihihi

What is Love???

Last Tuesday is the last episode for drama series "SinDarEla".The drama is ok and i like the ending of the story because it different from the normal ending of Malay drama where the hero must be together with the heroin.Of course when we watched love story drama or movie, we want the ending to be happily ever after and think that the hero meant to be together with the heroin.Frankly speaking, first I'm very upset with the ending where the heroin not choose anyone but when I think again and relate it to reality life, I think this kind of ending usually happen in the real life.Here I paste the the heroin monolog at the end of the story.After read these monolog, I start to think that not all lovers meant to be together for the whole life.The phrase "live happily ever after" just a tagline for a fairytale.Life is not worth it if there is no obstacle and hurt.Sometime we need to experience to be hurt before we find happiness.but there is no guarantee or warranty that the happiness will last forever.


Dalam hidup cinta boleh datang dan pergi
ketawa kerananya
senyum kerananya
menangis semahunya
sakit

Bermula dengan persahabatan
segelintir pula cuma sedar bila ia hilang
semata-mata untuk rasa dihargai
ada yang percaya cintanya untuk selamanya

for some of us
finally we realized that life is not a fairytale
we need to start over

demi sebuah impian
tak salah untuk kita berkorban
bila mana hati kita rapuh
menghadapi realiti
nangis...nangis semahunya
tapi jangan biarkn hati kita terus rebah

sejauh mana kita kenal hati budi seseorang
kita tetap tak boleh buat penilaian

in life
we have to learn to let go
and keep on moving
the more you wait
the more time you missed

bermula dengan hati, angan dan mimpi
sebesar mana pun kedudukan kita
segagah prinsip
mampu goyah
because of love
because we are human beings
mudah lemas bila cintanya lemah
kita harus kuatkan hati
percaya naluri
just admit it!
lafazkan cintaku mahukan dia.....

dalam kehidupan kita
cinta tak semestinya bersatu
terutamanya cinta pertama

feel like long time haven't update my blog.Not because i forgot that i have a blog but because i feel lazy to write plus the network connection from my room is not that good.anyway, today almost two weeks i'm back to my campus life for sure as a student.nothing different except now i was in final year and final semester.got few more month to go before i complete my study in this university.my next pit stop after this?I don't want to think about it first because i'm scared to draw and color my future life.Before this I love to plan everything for my future but after seeing many failure in future life of other people that close to me, that make me scared of thinking about my future.but what i'm still believe until now is I want to change my life as well as my family life.I want my family get a better life than before.Actually I'm proud of my parent.They not get well education as other that were in the same age as them.Their highest education was primary six but they have their own ambition but as people always said "we just plan,God will do the others".When I was a little kid, i hate when people said like that because that means that person do not want to try their best to make their plan become real.but now i understand, it doesn't mean that person not put their effort but sometimes God have something for us.That's why until now I limit any thinking about my future plan.I just do what i want to do today in hoping that there got one more chance for me tomorrow.

Forget about the nonsense talking above.lets see the picture below:

Last weekend, I went to Pangkor with four of my friend,Wani, Fiera,Megala n Siti Fatimah.We enjoy our weekend there and release all the tense before we were attack by another "Tension Virus". I love the scenario there and feel peace and harmony there. The first picture is the Ferry Terminal in Lumut. Then the nice stone architecture that resemble the head of the crocodile in Coral Island and the last one is the "ikan paus" head.So amaze with the God creation.Just look at the picture for a moment and think.

Oh Man!!I forgot that tonight i want to call my mum.so i stop here and continue some other time

June's Notez

LOSS

before holiday, my grandmother(mother of my mother) pass away.50+ day after that(during holiday) the other grandmother(my father's mother sibling) pass away.Then 7 days after that my cousin ,Abg Jefri who live in Kedah pass away. this year is a big loss in our family.Hopefully there's no more loss in our family because we can't stand it anymore.We know that we only a human and it is God work but we pray for the best in our family.

NEW BORN

iN the early June, my cousin, Norafidah got a baby girl.She was the same age like me but she build her family early than me.Her baby was named after two her favourite character in a local telenovella that was aired in TV3, Spa Q.So the baby was named Qistina Aleya.

MONEY

Many thing can be related to money until people create a phrase "No Money No Talk"
what so good about money?I agree people need money but sometimes money can be a biggest enemy in human life.anything can happen because of money.Some people say that money is more powerful than relationship n love.In other word Money can buy love.But that love is not an everlasting love.
I really hate to hear that some people broke their family ties because of money.Siblings fight each other because of money.really hate to hear that.this problem will continue until when me myself dont know.I really hate it.I agree that people cannot live without money but they must make sure that they will not be control by MONEY.Let us control MONEY not Money control us.Why this become my subtopic?Because, my family also faced the bad experience with the person who was controlled by money and until now the problem is not solved although we treats these STUPID Person like usual.Now they live happily with other people money n forget about those people.before this, when they was in difficult situation,they like a street and dirty cat come beg for money but once they get the money, they deny everything.Really hate these kind of STUPID N GREEDY people.Just leave it to God.We juz pray for their happiness so that they can live "HAPPILY EVER AFTER" so that they will not come to us like a dirty street cat.



Think that all for today...feel very boring...

End of Semester

Finally, 1130 am mission complete for semester January 2008.Actually the test finish on 12 but i dont know what to write in my answer booklet so I juz finish everything and raise my hand to get attention from invigilators and then ..... YEAAAAAAA finish paper.(today test is quite hard but the holiday mood is in the air...so just forget about it and wait for the result).

I will be going back to my hometown tomorrow and my flight is at 8:50 at nite.nevermind, as long as i can reach my home sweet home.actually not really miss my home, just miss my family and my mum cooking.here in UTP everyday eating chicken and im very scared what if one day i turn to be a chicken.can't imagine it.

today the whole evening, i packed my stuff and say goodbye and happy holiday to my friends.very lazy to pack but need to do it.luckily my roommate not in the room the whole evening.she going to visit her SV regarding her FYP.

FYP?OMG..my semester break this time is not like before.I need to complete my FYP project.Next semester is my final year final semester in UTP and i need to complete my FYP during the semester break so that i can feel a bit release next semester.

nothing else to write.just now i feel regret for packing my stuff the whole evening.tonite got nothing to do.so boring.my roommate will going out again.anyway HAPPY HOLIDAY

My Notez II

Today is a boring day.nothing to do.4 more days for my last paper and 5 more days to go back home.can't wait for that day.miss my family very much.

Sat-24/5/08
thanx Leen for your idea of went out from UTP life yesterday.hahahha.thanx also to mega and yee for joining us.i really enjoy yesterday.we watched movie, eating, window + real shopping make me feel refresh.the movie also nice.fourth sequel of Indiana Jones.enjoy watching this movie and what make it very special is because i watched it with my friends.hahahhaha

today
nothing to do.just stay in my room + sleeping n eating.what a boring life.study?ya, i should study because i got one more paper to go.but wait a minute, it is weekend and we must rest.hahhaha

nothing to write actually,just want to waste my time.

Sweet n Sour During Exam Week

This week I started final exam.so nervous but I must do my best.hehehe.but this semester many thing happen.got sweet,got sour but luckily I still can stand it.

During study week
Monday 5/5/08 i got a called from my mum told me that my only grandmother was sent to the hospital due to health problem.Feel sad because I'm unable to visit her.She lives next to our house and for the last 22 years I grew up in front of her.i always joke n play around with her and sometimes get angry with her when sometimes she looks annoying.but she was my best grandma because she the only grandma i have.what i can do is just pray for her.

Few days later, my friend Zuraini(Dkny) lost her beloved father.her father passed away.she very sad.final exam is just around the corner and this thing happen.feel sorry for her and hope she will be a strong person.


11/05/08
HAPPY MOTHER DAY.so happy wish my mum happy mother day.my grandma still in hospital and her health condition still bad and not change at all.i called my aunt to wish her happy birthday and at the same time she was with my grandma.


12/05/08
Around 9pm i got a sms from my sister told me that my grandma passed away. i don't believe it since the day before my mum say she still ok.i tried my best to control myself from crying since the next day i got a final exam paper for SM.then slowly i started to cry. i think the time that i spent together with her.my house next to her house and i always saw her and i love her although sometimes she make me angry but its ok.now i lost her.since my form 1 until now,when i went back home during holiday,she will came to our house and asked me about my life.after she felt satisfied with my answer, then she went back home.when my parent went out for some function at night, she will came to our house to accompany me and my sibblings.(actually we are the one who look after her since a few minutes she entered our house, when we gave pillow and mattress to her, she will sleep leave us watching TV and take care of ourselves).so funny huh.when my parent came back, we asked her to stay, she refused.the same goes during day time.she always come and asked whether we already had our lunch or not.after heard about her dead, i felt very bad.other cousin that lives far away from her home and rarely come and visit her(only during raya) came to gave their last respect to her.But me?i lives next to her since a baby.i can't visit her when she was badly sick because i got final presentation and test around the corner. i always pray that she will be okay so that i still manage to see her.its just a dream and hope.God loves her.i felt bad.i can't manage myself to see her for the last respect.from my sister i know all the aunty,uncle and other cousins came except one person that is me.the last time i saw her during my midsemester break in the early of march.i don't expect that is the last advice i got from her.before went back to UTP, she always advice me-jaga dirik bait2 kat tempat org.berkawan ngan org yg betul.(take care of yourself n be friend to the right people)-when i think back, the last midsem break, they got one more addition advice from her-iboh di ingat gilak org kat sitok.belajar bait.(don't remember us here to much.study)-she never told that to me before.the only person that always gave that advice is my aunt...

13/05/08
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY MUM.i think this year is the very bad birthday to her.early in the morning i wish her but in sad tone.i knew she cried.she mention to me.her birthday present this year is to big and even she can't accept it.i knew her feeling.she loss her mother on her birthday night and today, instead of celebrating her birthday, it turns out to be buried her mother soul.I know my mum is a strong person.i dont know how to comfort her since im far away from her.i knew she sad and hurt very much.she the one who always deals with my grandma.take care her welfare and now my grandma died.the daytime,she on duty to take care of my grandma.and a few moments after she came home, my aunt who on duty that night called her to tell that my grandma passed away.she very sad.her birthday she got such a big present.mum, be strong ok.

14/5/08
today got no paper.my next paper is on saturday.i followed my friend mega went to Ipoh.this time it is more sweet memories for me.i can't believe it that i manage to go to Ipoh by bus.hahahaha.what a nice experience.both of us enjoy ourselves shopping and watch movie: Speed Racer.the funny thing is, only four person including us who watch that movie.but it is a nice movie because i love a car race.hahahaha.
went back to UTP miss my family but i know if i called home,no one will entertain me for the seven day after my grandma death.they busy with tahlil and prayer for my grandma.beside that, i don't like to hear my mum sad voice.she try to be normal but i knew she still sad.but i miss my family.i sms my sister and she told me,my mum and her sibling still feel sad.nevermind, maybe after one or two more day i will called her.


that all for this time.

mY nEW aGE

Last Saturday, 3/5/2008 is my birthday.Happy Bday to me.hahaha.This year Birthday very meaningful for me.The last time I have a sweet birthday surprise was in 2005.Most of coursemate girl celebrate it with me.Thanx to Wani that time.This year I really2 thanx to everyone for their wish and surprise.

The nite b4 bday==2/5/08
Fiera n Wani asked me to join them for dinner.Then around 10:30 we went to Ipoh Parade.The plan is to play bowling but it full.Then we went to Jusco for bowling also but it nearly closed.Then check for midnite movie but it full also.Lastly we loiter around Jusco.Then at 12 am, i got present from them.It is a bracelet.so sweet and surprise.I haven't tought they will gave that kind of present to me.For me, by cheering me up that nite is more than enough because the whole day I feel bad after bad performance.that bracelet is like a bonus for me.Thanx you too.

after 12am 3/5/08
my phone keep vibrate to announce there are sms coming in.my finger feel numb replying them but it's ok.really appreciate them for remember my birthday.thanx all of them.then 1 am i got phone call from my siblings.they wish me, their older sister happy birthday.so touching n feel funny.usually only me remember their bday date but that nite...feel so touching but cannot cry.hahhaha

morning 3/5/08
my bday is more meaningful when two important person in my life called me for their wish.Thanx Emak n thanx Bapak.Actually they want to wish me after 5:30pm because I was born on 3/5 at 5:30pm.but they afraid i will not happy the whole day so they wish me morning.so sweet my parent.then the whole day i received the wish from my long time frens n new frens.thanx again you all.

nite 3/5/08
around 11pm my roommate went out from the room and found a card under our room door.It's from my ex-housemate during my internship.Thanx to Seila,Luxmi,Stella,Elvina n Ling Hui.I don't know what time they put it under my door but it is a sweet card from them. So surprise.Luckily haven't have any heart disease.then around 11:55 and above still got sms from others.all of them compete each other to be the last person to wish me happy birthday.Thanx everyone

sunday 4/5/08
the biggest and enjoyfull surprise is again from my ex-housemate with collaboration with my roommate,Yee and Yi Chen.Birthday cake from them.really feel good this year.so sweet.really surprise.First time in my life, I got cake for my Birthday.First time in my life I blow candle for my birthday.Really feel touching but still cannot cry.thanx everyone for making my birthday this year a sweet memories.

But as like the olders said, if they got good thing, there also followed by bad things. This morning I got a called from my mum told me that my only grandmother was sent to the hospital last night.Until now I still don't have any update on her current condition but I pray for her to get well soon.When heard about that news, feel like to went back home immediately but I can't.Tomorrow i got my FYP Presentation as well as SM project presentation.I just only can pray for her.

That all for this time.

Happy Birthday

15 April is my cousin,Norafidah bday.but like the past 9 years, i still doesn't have chance to wish her.i don't know why,among all my cousins i only care about her.maybe because we growed up together until at the age of 12.then after finish our primary school, i got an offer to continue my study in boarding school n left her behind.then a few month after that, her family move to Kuching then we lost contact until I was form 4 when i decided to go to daily school.my mum told me she engaged.first i was surprised because that time she just 16 but then i think back that I should happy for her.I really missed her.

during our childhood time we share everything together.I still remember during our kindergarden time, both of us help the teacher to clean up the class early in morning and after class.then in primary school we also stick together although we are in different class.we went back home together, run from our class to bus station to catch the last bus and went to canteen with other friend.in term of study,i only can discuss our homework together but sometimes she don't want to finish her work and play.i know that time she hate study but she enjoy come to school.i always remind her to do her work but she only take note on it if she felt boring to hear the same word from me.

It is lie if we're not quarel.sometimes we disagree with something and we will shout at each other.but the next day we will be like a sister again.forgot to tell.both of us are the eldest in our family but compare to her,i'm very lucky(not to show off but its true).sometimes i saw her cried under manggo tree in front of our house.its very painful when heard her scream when her mum or dad scold her and beat her.(it is normal during our time when mum n dad beat us with hanger or 'rotan').but then she recover by herself.i can't help because that time i afraid of my parent.i still remember one day her father tied her at their house pillar.she cry and shout but then i can't help her and i can see her from my house window.her dad very fierce and even my mum threat to do the same to me if i help her.but that is a history.beside those bad memories we enjoy much during that age.

today, my 10 times miss happy birthday wish to her.i heard she got married last year.then i haven't heard any news from her even i can't contact her number.actually all our family members do not know the current condition of her family.after move to kuching, my uncle rarely comes to visit us and we also rarely visit them.her house doesn't have phone and even her family do not know where she lives with her husband.I really miss her.hope she has a happy life and her husband loves her like her family loves her.i want to wish her HAPPY BIRTHDAY.the reason is because she is my very best cousin.Beside her I also love one more cousin but he died in 2002 in accident then since then i loss someone that i can trust to keep my secret.why not other cousin?maybe because i only knew them at the minimum age of 12years old and then we not really often met each other.i also got one more cousin at my mum side that same age like me n norafidah but i can't get along with them because they only look for people with high class level while i'm just a middle level for them.even their family not really like the other family member that they think not at the same level with them.but i don't care because i know they look high class outside but they not live a happy life.they hide it but i knew it cause i know all their family secret.

Hope next year i got chance to wish and spend more time with my best cousin.if nothing happen, i will finish my study at the end of this year.i really want to see her and talk to her like we did during our childhood.


16 April, my best friend during primary school birthday.She is Nur Juliana bt Azlan.same like norafidah, i also miss a chance to wish her Happy birthday,include this year it is 10 years.last time i saw her during our last day of primary school.then during secondary school, we separate for the same reason like Norafidah case.but i still remember her until now and try searching for her.miss the time together.

18 April, my best roommate during secondary school birthday.Rasyidah.she now in UITM SA
26 April,my best roomate during secondary school birthday.Sofia Maggie.for three continious week is our birthday week.week 1,syidah,week 2 sofia n week 3 my birthday.that make three of us unique as a roommate that time.

30 April,my friend that i knew since foundation year birthday.She is Fiera and now she is my room neighbour.hahahahha.she now busy with her work same like me but she is more clever n hardworking than me.

so many people birthday in April.i Got few more date n name to write but forgot their real bday date.hehehhe.....

better stop now since very lazy to type.

busy n stress time

Things need to be done before end of April

1. SM, HRM, KMT,ADBS Project
2. SM Assignment
3. FYP Seminar,Interim Report, Final Presentation
4. Test 2: HRM,ADBS,SM

Arrgggg....very2 busy n tension.dunno which one to be settle first.all these work make me feel like vormitting.why always gave work during last minutes times...i admit that sometimes it student fault for doing everything last minutes but we still know how to manage our time.but this time, i feel like i want to run away from everything. I really2 hate it.because if i hate all this tension and busy thing, it end up i become more lazy to do anything.arghhhhh....two more weeks to go before final exam n we still busy with all these projects, assignment n presentation.

1 Litre of Tears

"If I were a flower, then now I would be a bud.
I shall treasure the beginning of my youth without any regrets.
This disease, why did it choose me?
Fate. It can't be put into words.
I want to make a time machine and go back in time.
If it wasn't for this disease,not only I could enjoy falling in love but I alsowouldn’t have to rely on anyone and live by myself.
I really don't want to say things such as 'I want to go back to how things were before.
'I recognize how I am right now, and I will continue to live on.
Therefore I definitely won't run away.
That's what I’ll do.
Definitely, always.
Even if it's like that, I still want to stay here.
because this is the place where I am.
If you look up at the sky after falling down the blue sky is also todaystretching limitlessly and smiles at me...
I'm alive.
People shouldn’t dwell on the past.
It's enough to try your best in all that you're doing now.
Reality is too cruel, too brutal.
I don’t even have the right to dream.
As i think about the future, the tears will come out again."

that is some of the part of diary written by Aya Ikeuchi. This proved her courage and positive attitude towards an uncertain future when suffering such an illness, spinocerebellar ataxia. It such a sad story. Actually I already watched this Japanese drama in 2006 after i heard about a positive review towards this drama.beside that, I also interested with something that taken from the real life. 1 Litre of Tears.This is based on the true story of the girl who still not lose hope with life eventhough she knews that she has not much time to live.To my surprise, this is the first drama series that make me cry since the first episode and the last episode is even worse.i never thought i will cry that serious.

why i choose this as my blog topics?
suddenly when i was busy doing my assignment i heard the drama theme song from my friend PC.then it automatically remind me of this drama.b4 this i always get mad and tense when faced many workload.then i realize, it is not that much since i still can have an opportunity to finish it.each work given will have a solution.but what if i faced a situation where there is no solution n it involved our life.even a small thing we cannot handle, how we will handle the big thing that involved life and death.this make me think again.i should be grateful with my life and enjoy it no matter how hard it is.when i read many times the sentence that i paste above, it gave me a spirit.

it make me think if i was in her place, will i be that strong?will i write these kind of sentence and inspire people not to give up in life? what a wonderful girl she is.she knows her conditions but she still want to live like a normal people.her family also very good.they gave support to her.make her laugh and happy until at the end of her life.

What a lazy day.long time haven't update my blog.don't know why.maybe because lately i had been infected by some kind of disease that is not available in the medical dictionary...."malas yg terlampau"......hahahha..so dangerous the virus in this era...even the ancestor will become confuse when heard about that kind of virus...ok..here my notes for tonite

tonite i got time to write something on my blog since this evening i had attack a new virus..."kerajinan yg terlampau" after listening the song "Hanya di Mercu" by Ayu OIAM2.why?because suddenly the lyric attract my attention.donno why today because i already listen to this song many time ....

student life?
starting from thursday evening, i felt release after complete my "1st world war=>test n quiz". but on thursday also is the starting date for the "2nd world war=>SM assignment".actually it is simple task that is interview a company.but what make it my 2nd world war is we must find a big company that have a workers more than 100(branch not include...need the main office n headquarter).then we need to interview them n the project presentation is on the first week of may.i really hate it.not less than a month n where we should search for a big company in a small ipoh town.but wat to do.i'm a student n must bear to take this responsibility.4get about that 2nd worldwar.here i also got a "universe war=>FYP"...arrrrrggggghhhh...really headache.got so many report n i hate writing report without completing the project. so stressful but each time i'm stress new virus attack me that is "overhappiness".anyway that is the reality of student life.got sweet,sour,hot,salty n so many taste.

current issues?
today one issue in newspaper attract my attention.its about Suffiah Yusuf, a malaysian girl who entered an Oxford University at the age of 13 becoz she genius in mathematic.its not a news that can be proud of.After read about it, now i think i must be grateful because i'm just a normal people.wat a tragedy.when people heard about her ability, they will imagine her bright future life.but now, her life is a tragedy.after run away from oxford at the age of 15,then married at the early age of 19 n now the latest new about her is she advertise her "body service" via internet.what a shame.i can't imagine how her family felt when they read about her.wat a sad story.before this when i was in school, i was jealous of her because she got a place in one of the famous university in the world at young age.but she not really appreciate this opportunity.i feel sorry for her.its all end up like this.i just hope she will realize that she cannot do like that because she got talent and she should use it properly.


Others
1. miss my family.so relief after call my family.

2. this thursday got data mining quiz

3.now i addicted to korean series.last korean series i watched was the sad sonata in 2006.then i stop watched korean series because i addicted to english,indonesian n philiphines series.then i addicted back to korean series after watching coffee prince.then surprisingly now i also add malay series as one of my favourite collection.it all starting with dunia baru season one.but not really addicted like korean n english.the best malay series for me at this time are manjalara(even i hate the ending),sindarela,Bella and mostly the series that air on TV3.it is a good improvement for malaysian program.even Jangan Pandang Belakang film went to singapore and philiphines.keep it up guys.if u all produce good local product, I will support it....but if i addicted more to outside product, don't be mad k.

think need to stop now.why? because i need to finish my FYP progress report.need to submit it tomorrow.before the "kemalasan melamapau" virus attack me, better i prepare the antibodi for it.


here the song

Hanya Di Mercu

Mimpi dan harapan bagaikan duri yg mencengkam
tak pernah terluahkan hanyalah di hati tersimpan
terpendam
keterbatasan diriku menjadi penghalang

sampai bila aku bertanya sampai bila
ku harus mencoba
bila lagi resah hatiku bila lagi
aku harus berani
lalu ku bangkit tegak berdiri
mengatur langkahku terus mendaki
cita2ku di mercu

mimpi dan harapan
cita-cita yang tinggi
menjulang
seandainya ku biar cita2 di hati tersimpan terpendam
keterbatasan tak akan menjadi penghalang

sampai bila aku bertanya sampai bila
ku harus mencoba
bila lagi resah hatiku bila lagi
aku harus berani
lalu ku bangkit tegak berdiri
mengatur langkahku terus mendaki
cita2ku di mercu

aku mencari kekuatan dalam kelemahan
aku temui kejayaan dalam keberanian

sampai bila aku bertanya sampai bilaku harus mencobabila lagi resah hatiku bila lagiaku harus beranilalu ku bangkit tegak berdirimengatur langkahku terus mendakicita2ku di mercu

MY NOTEZ!!!

Long time havent write something in my blog.I was busy with assignment and test.today i manage to steal a time to update a blog since i feel i want to explode due to many workload.finish one work another work come in.before this i blame myself for being someone that always waste a time and do these work during last minutes time.but recently i realise that it is not my fault.some task that given by a lecturer need time for me to understand it and some task need me to ask my lovely uncle google and aunty Yahoo! to help me search for the references.of course uncle Google and Aunty Yahoo! not help me much.now i was busy with my HRM assignment.I type the 'interview and HRM' keyword.uncle Google give me an advance answer.it good but the problem is some of the answer not related to what i want.this make me feel like to shout out.i really hate when people asked me to search for article because it takes time and always end up with nothing.i think uncle google and aunty Yahoo! should work hard to improve their searching performance.

FYP?
what a nightmare.recently i feel very lazy to do my FYP.i hate to write a report before i complete my work.but for this FYP got so many report to be done like preliminary report, progress report, interim report and final report.then also got seminar 1 n 2 n the final presentation.i really hate all these process.sometimes i feel like to see the lecturers and tell them why done they let us to complete our project first then we can write a report.i think proposal and final report is enough.no need for progress or something that sound like that.busy with FYP also busy with other courses.of course when we mention it to those that really love work they will said my time management is fail but if we think another way,it is not my time management problem.i need to go to the class,do assignment,class exercises,course project,test n FYP.so many reason huh...but still i feel very lazy to do my FYP.

LIFE?
student life is a normal life.wake up in the morning, prepare to class,eating, sleeping,assignment,test and stay up at nite is a normal for everyone who have a student title.i love to become a student but when it come to assignment, i really hate it.of course assignment is good to test our knowledge level but if there are so many assignment in one time, i can't take it.when i was during in the school i love to sit in the class and listen to the teacher but now i feel very boring.come to the lecture will be fun if the lecturers know how to teach but sometimes lecture hour is like a nightmare for me.so boring and sometimes i feel sleepy during class but still can control myself not to sleep.

current issues?
not really care about the current issues.reason?because each time watch news or read newspaper, it always talk about plotics.what a boring issues.why those people owez not satisfies.if it already settle juz let it be n please give those people to show their performance.if they perform bad then we can shout out our opinion.but what to do.human always not satisfies with everything and have a high PHD(PERASAAN HASAD DENGKI).