Sweet n Sour During Exam Week

This week I started final exam.so nervous but I must do my best.hehehe.but this semester many thing happen.got sweet,got sour but luckily I still can stand it.

During study week
Monday 5/5/08 i got a called from my mum told me that my only grandmother was sent to the hospital due to health problem.Feel sad because I'm unable to visit her.She lives next to our house and for the last 22 years I grew up in front of her.i always joke n play around with her and sometimes get angry with her when sometimes she looks annoying.but she was my best grandma because she the only grandma i have.what i can do is just pray for her.

Few days later, my friend Zuraini(Dkny) lost her beloved father.her father passed away.she very sad.final exam is just around the corner and this thing happen.feel sorry for her and hope she will be a strong person.


11/05/08
HAPPY MOTHER DAY.so happy wish my mum happy mother day.my grandma still in hospital and her health condition still bad and not change at all.i called my aunt to wish her happy birthday and at the same time she was with my grandma.


12/05/08
Around 9pm i got a sms from my sister told me that my grandma passed away. i don't believe it since the day before my mum say she still ok.i tried my best to control myself from crying since the next day i got a final exam paper for SM.then slowly i started to cry. i think the time that i spent together with her.my house next to her house and i always saw her and i love her although sometimes she make me angry but its ok.now i lost her.since my form 1 until now,when i went back home during holiday,she will came to our house and asked me about my life.after she felt satisfied with my answer, then she went back home.when my parent went out for some function at night, she will came to our house to accompany me and my sibblings.(actually we are the one who look after her since a few minutes she entered our house, when we gave pillow and mattress to her, she will sleep leave us watching TV and take care of ourselves).so funny huh.when my parent came back, we asked her to stay, she refused.the same goes during day time.she always come and asked whether we already had our lunch or not.after heard about her dead, i felt very bad.other cousin that lives far away from her home and rarely come and visit her(only during raya) came to gave their last respect to her.But me?i lives next to her since a baby.i can't visit her when she was badly sick because i got final presentation and test around the corner. i always pray that she will be okay so that i still manage to see her.its just a dream and hope.God loves her.i felt bad.i can't manage myself to see her for the last respect.from my sister i know all the aunty,uncle and other cousins came except one person that is me.the last time i saw her during my midsemester break in the early of march.i don't expect that is the last advice i got from her.before went back to UTP, she always advice me-jaga dirik bait2 kat tempat org.berkawan ngan org yg betul.(take care of yourself n be friend to the right people)-when i think back, the last midsem break, they got one more addition advice from her-iboh di ingat gilak org kat sitok.belajar bait.(don't remember us here to much.study)-she never told that to me before.the only person that always gave that advice is my aunt...

13/05/08
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY MUM.i think this year is the very bad birthday to her.early in the morning i wish her but in sad tone.i knew she cried.she mention to me.her birthday present this year is to big and even she can't accept it.i knew her feeling.she loss her mother on her birthday night and today, instead of celebrating her birthday, it turns out to be buried her mother soul.I know my mum is a strong person.i dont know how to comfort her since im far away from her.i knew she sad and hurt very much.she the one who always deals with my grandma.take care her welfare and now my grandma died.the daytime,she on duty to take care of my grandma.and a few moments after she came home, my aunt who on duty that night called her to tell that my grandma passed away.she very sad.her birthday she got such a big present.mum, be strong ok.

14/5/08
today got no paper.my next paper is on saturday.i followed my friend mega went to Ipoh.this time it is more sweet memories for me.i can't believe it that i manage to go to Ipoh by bus.hahahaha.what a nice experience.both of us enjoy ourselves shopping and watch movie: Speed Racer.the funny thing is, only four person including us who watch that movie.but it is a nice movie because i love a car race.hahahaha.
went back to UTP miss my family but i know if i called home,no one will entertain me for the seven day after my grandma death.they busy with tahlil and prayer for my grandma.beside that, i don't like to hear my mum sad voice.she try to be normal but i knew she still sad.but i miss my family.i sms my sister and she told me,my mum and her sibling still feel sad.nevermind, maybe after one or two more day i will called her.


that all for this time.