Mixed Feeling

Week 3 2011 and its Monday….


Lately feel demotivated with my work. Actually almost one year got this kind of feeling of demotivated. But not so critical until recently, I feel lost and walking in the tunnel with no exit. Why? Difficult to explain, but sometime I do my best to be as positive as I can and told myself to love my work. Every morning when I woke up, I told myself “I love my work”. Actually, now am doing something that totally different from what I’ve learn during my university time. It is something new to me. I always told myself, in real world, sometimes we will not get what we want. So, be positive and accept what had been given to me. But now, I already come to the maximum limit but I still told myself not to give up. I really can’t force myself to love my job now. I do love the company but I don’t think this job scope suit me well. Feel like to change to other unit but for sure it is not an easy solution.
Bad Dream

Last night I got a bad dream. I only remember 30% of the dream. It’s been long time I haven’t experience any bad dream. But last night was so scary. In the dream, I was holding the list of death people and people that will be death soon. And I also remember that the list was arranged based on who has been died first. I only remember a few name but these name that I remember are still alive. But, I told myself don’t think about it too much coz maybe I was influence by the movie that I watched before I went to sleep.
Peanuts Family

Suddenly, starting last Friday night is so addicted with Peanuts and anything that related to peanut. Yesterday, I ate total of 4 packets (180kg) of peanut of Tong Garden Brand. Today, after lunch, I also buy another 2 packets of peanut. Is it normal? Last time I have this crazy addictive is with Ice-cream. In one night I can ate between 5-6 cones of ice cream. So crazy. Hope this addictive with peanut will stop today. I won’t ruin my happy healthy eating life. Now, I am so happy losing 5kg (60kg-55kg). I can even wear ‘s’ size now.

Book Assignment : WINNING by Jack Welch

Remember last post about this book? Hahaha…update from me. I haven’t read it. It is nicely placed next to my pillow. No idea when I will start reading it.