What is Love???

Last Tuesday is the last episode for drama series "SinDarEla".The drama is ok and i like the ending of the story because it different from the normal ending of Malay drama where the hero must be together with the heroin.Of course when we watched love story drama or movie, we want the ending to be happily ever after and think that the hero meant to be together with the heroin.Frankly speaking, first I'm very upset with the ending where the heroin not choose anyone but when I think again and relate it to reality life, I think this kind of ending usually happen in the real life.Here I paste the the heroin monolog at the end of the story.After read these monolog, I start to think that not all lovers meant to be together for the whole life.The phrase "live happily ever after" just a tagline for a fairytale.Life is not worth it if there is no obstacle and hurt.Sometime we need to experience to be hurt before we find happiness.but there is no guarantee or warranty that the happiness will last forever.


Dalam hidup cinta boleh datang dan pergi
ketawa kerananya
senyum kerananya
menangis semahunya
sakit

Bermula dengan persahabatan
segelintir pula cuma sedar bila ia hilang
semata-mata untuk rasa dihargai
ada yang percaya cintanya untuk selamanya

for some of us
finally we realized that life is not a fairytale
we need to start over

demi sebuah impian
tak salah untuk kita berkorban
bila mana hati kita rapuh
menghadapi realiti
nangis...nangis semahunya
tapi jangan biarkn hati kita terus rebah

sejauh mana kita kenal hati budi seseorang
kita tetap tak boleh buat penilaian

in life
we have to learn to let go
and keep on moving
the more you wait
the more time you missed

bermula dengan hati, angan dan mimpi
sebesar mana pun kedudukan kita
segagah prinsip
mampu goyah
because of love
because we are human beings
mudah lemas bila cintanya lemah
kita harus kuatkan hati
percaya naluri
just admit it!
lafazkan cintaku mahukan dia.....

dalam kehidupan kita
cinta tak semestinya bersatu
terutamanya cinta pertama

1 Litre of Tears

"If I were a flower, then now I would be a bud.
I shall treasure the beginning of my youth without any regrets.
This disease, why did it choose me?
Fate. It can't be put into words.
I want to make a time machine and go back in time.
If it wasn't for this disease,not only I could enjoy falling in love but I alsowouldn’t have to rely on anyone and live by myself.
I really don't want to say things such as 'I want to go back to how things were before.
'I recognize how I am right now, and I will continue to live on.
Therefore I definitely won't run away.
That's what I’ll do.
Definitely, always.
Even if it's like that, I still want to stay here.
because this is the place where I am.
If you look up at the sky after falling down the blue sky is also todaystretching limitlessly and smiles at me...
I'm alive.
People shouldn’t dwell on the past.
It's enough to try your best in all that you're doing now.
Reality is too cruel, too brutal.
I don’t even have the right to dream.
As i think about the future, the tears will come out again."

that is some of the part of diary written by Aya Ikeuchi. This proved her courage and positive attitude towards an uncertain future when suffering such an illness, spinocerebellar ataxia. It such a sad story. Actually I already watched this Japanese drama in 2006 after i heard about a positive review towards this drama.beside that, I also interested with something that taken from the real life. 1 Litre of Tears.This is based on the true story of the girl who still not lose hope with life eventhough she knews that she has not much time to live.To my surprise, this is the first drama series that make me cry since the first episode and the last episode is even worse.i never thought i will cry that serious.

why i choose this as my blog topics?
suddenly when i was busy doing my assignment i heard the drama theme song from my friend PC.then it automatically remind me of this drama.b4 this i always get mad and tense when faced many workload.then i realize, it is not that much since i still can have an opportunity to finish it.each work given will have a solution.but what if i faced a situation where there is no solution n it involved our life.even a small thing we cannot handle, how we will handle the big thing that involved life and death.this make me think again.i should be grateful with my life and enjoy it no matter how hard it is.when i read many times the sentence that i paste above, it gave me a spirit.

it make me think if i was in her place, will i be that strong?will i write these kind of sentence and inspire people not to give up in life? what a wonderful girl she is.she knows her conditions but she still want to live like a normal people.her family also very good.they gave support to her.make her laugh and happy until at the end of her life.

Dunia Baru the Movie n Ungu Karmila

After 2 days being lonely in my room, today I went out to Ipoh with my fren Nurleen. First thing in my head Dunia Baru the Movie...hahahhaha.I love the series.Next week is it last episode for season three.So we went to TGV Kinta City to watch the movie. Today is my first time eva in my life saw the cinema full for Malay movie.(already expected since it is one of the popular series in TV3).Actually in my mind i want to watch 3 movies(Dunia Baru, cj7 and kung fu dunk) but nevermind.

Many thing can be learned when watching Dunia Baru. This movie tell me about

• Friendship --- Frenz owez be by our side no matter what happen to us.Frenz understand each other well.(when Anizah leave the letter to Opie, all her frenz knew that letter is not really written by Anizah and they suspect that something bad happen to her)
• Relationship---husband wife relationship>>both should understand and respect each other no matter what happen.
• moral values -- help each other(although he busy kidnapping people...Fazley still willing to help the old man and sent him to the hospital)------respect others(Adif wants her girlfren, Erika to be nice to his frenz opie although he himself know it is impossible).......we must take good care of our belongings when we were in public place(remind by suzana when her frenz told that their belonging had been stolen)
• Caring----shown by Madihah.although she pregnant, she still want to help her frenz although her husband doesn't agree with her action and she keep remind them to inform her if got anything happen.
• Work together---shown by all the character. Although they always not agree with each other but they still work together and complete their mission.

Ungu Karmila By Ramli Awang Murshid
today i buy 1 novel written by one of Malaysian writer, Ramli Awang Murshid. It is a nice novel.it is a combination of love and thriller novel.The story is revolved around the haunted villa.Actually that villa is a symbol of love between husband (Arif) and Wife(Karmila). Everything change when one tragedy happen and then the villa became a haunted villa.it is a nice novel and the writer write the cronology very well and make reader to read until the last page to know the whole story.
From the novel I learn more about pressure/stress and the symptoms(physical and mental) as well as schizofrenia disease. Beside that i have been introduced to one new disease that is sinestesia(spelling in Malay).It is a disease that related to neurology research.
Before this im very shame when people laugh at me when i told them i love to read novel but now im not feel that way again.at least i read novel for nothing. instead of being one of my entertainment medium, i also can gain extra knowledge. At the end of the page, the author will put their references and some brief information about new term(related to disease,career,general info,job description etc.).Not all novel is really a love novel...hehehhe
Feel sleepy now.the whole day went out.hehehehe