Life Story

Finally I got time to update my blog again. Not because I am lazy to type but it because I have no idea what to type.

First of all, I would like to say my condolence to all the Japanese for what had happen yesterday. Japan was hit by earthquake and Tsunami. When I saw the news in TV, I can’t help my tears to come out and I straight away call my mum just to say Hi. I am a kind of person who will always fall for deep thinking when saw, heard or experience something that attract my attention. The natural disaster that was occurred in Japan yesterday also made me became a thinker. The natural disaster is unexpected and can happen anytime. Sometime I always think what if when this kind of incident happens and I was alone or far away from my family? What if it happens to my family and I was not there with them? Am I mentally and physically prepared to face it?... Just by watching the video from the news make me feel like crying, how does the feeling of the victims. 

Story No.1 : Holiday in Melaka at the end of February (Wani’s wedding)

Actually I can call it one Malaysia Vacation. Me, Yee and Mega represent one Malaysia. Sorry to Wani because three of us steal the attention during the “Akad Nikah” night. We were there with her and sat next to her. Initially, three of us not aware about it until the photographer voice out about 1 Malaysia. It is not completed actually. Fiera (closest friend to Wani compared to three of us) and Leen not there with us. After the Akad Nikah (without eating the meal) , we went to Jonker Street and take our dinbreak(short term for Dinner Breakfast) at about 1 am at McDonald. It remind of our McDonald agreement in 2008 in Perak. A new arrangement has been set where Fiera will be next, followed by Leen, Yee, Mega and finally me.

Thanks to the bride & groom for sponsoring our accommodation. What a nice and luxury villa.

But, I think it is a trademark for those who go for travelling with me. Even, I am not a driver and I am also not the one who gave the direction, it always end up we are loss. What to do, it is just natural and I can’t avoid it. But, it creates more sweet and precious moment.

Story No.2 : Hai Dkny and Luxmi

While typing story number 1, I just remember that this story should come first. But, then I am very lazy to give direction to my mouse, so I just let it be. One afternoon, very shocked got a message from Dkny informing that she was in KL for Technology exhibition at KL Convec. So, I just call Yee and then three of us having lunch together at Kenny Rogers KL Convec. So excited that day. Last time we met was during our convocation in 2009.

Then, 2 weeks after that, I met Luxmi, coursemate aka housemate during internship. That day, me and Yee went to Burger King for our lunch and while passed through Auntie Annie stall, I told Yee that I saw a familiar face and confidently I hold her hand and then it is true, she is Luxmi. We had a short chit chat because she was with her friend.

Story No.3: Hikayat Merong Mahawangsa

Congratulation to the production team for such great movie. I watched the movie on its first day premier at TGV Wangsa Walk with Suliana. Two thumbs up for the movie. The scripts are very good and meaningful especially the scene where Merong Mahawangsa talked to his team about the objective of their mission. I love the Archimedes Principal that was shown by Merong. Although I hope the hero will be alive (at the end of the movie, Merong died) but, I still love the ending. It doesn’t mean that all hero should live longer. Now, waiting for KRU Studio next horror movie…”Karak”

Story No 4: February 2011 is the most hateful month in my life so far

In this month, I felt demotivated a hundred times. My confidence level drops a hundred times. This is first time in my life I am thinking of giving up on my work a number of time per day. This is also first time in my life I am not even trying to comfort myself by being positive and believe in my life policy. I gain 2 kgs due to those things. I really hate this month.  Thanks God, at the end of the month, I got a weekend vacation to Wani’s Wedding with Mega and Yee. But then, 2 weeks after that, I still experience the same thing. Now, I am in recovering phase.

Story No 5: Hasliana getting Married and among her friend, I am the first person she told the date of her wedding (for sure because I need to book for the flight ticket)

Around, 7:10 pm today, I got a message from her telling me to book a ticket and fly back to my hometown in Sarawak at the end of May 2011. Congratulation to her. I’ll look for the available and cheapest flight ticket. I will do my best to attend her wedding I think I should plan a trip to her wedding with Jama, Syidah, Nisa and Hamisa soon. Can’t wait to meet them. Maybe, it will be our reunion.

Suddenly, my finger told me that they are tired. And my brain also told me that it is time to stop. So empty after let go of the uneasy feeling. This is one of the recovering phase methods for everything that happen in story 4.

Will be continued later for another stories……

Background music: no background music because I am typing this while watching TV but I don’t know what I am watching because the only sentence that I saw on TV Screen is, “ Service Unavailable”…

MY FAVOURITE ACTIVITY TO KILL TIME WHEN I’M ALONE

Sometime I enjoy being lonely. Yesterday, I purposely being lonely and not plan anything for my weekend. So, in order to kill time, I’m doing my favourite activity that is watching people and make a conclusion based on the situation. So, after settled all the morning activities, I went out.

On the way to LRT Station

Scene: Shoppers busy opening their shop while talking to their shop neighbor. The passer by just look at them and sometimes they exchange smiles and say hi like they already known for a long time. If they already become friend, they will stop for a while and have a brief chit chat session. Actually, 90% of them didn’t know each other. The only connection between them is they always saw each other everyday and 90% of the passer by live at that area. After almost 2 years living in this area, I also knew 25% of these people name but for the rest we still have can smile to each other and say hi. I still remember last December when I went back to my hometown for a week. A week after that, while on the way back to my condo, some of them asked me, “Hi, long time no see. Where are you going? How are you?” I am so surprise. I just only smile to them but then they still care for me. Same thing when I want to buy some food from the nearby café. They already know what I will buy (always order the same) although I’m just drop by sometime once in two months

My conclusion: Relationship is unique. It naturally develops inside everybody.

LRT Station: While waiting for LRT

Scene: Although people always busy and sometimes they look like arrogant or selfish, but there still got at least 1% of humanity characteristics. One Chinese guy looks busy reading the documents and at the same time talking to the phone and he walks so fast. About 1 meter in front him, there was an old Malay lady tiredly carries the luggage on the right hand and holds her grandson. Surprisingly, that guy went to her and offers his helps to carry the luggage. Don’t think I’m not willing to help that lady. At that time, I’m not even reached the Touch & Go scanner yet.

My conclusion:

-          First Impression is important but then don’t simply jump to conclusion based on the first impression.

-          When it comes to help each other, race, religion and difference is not a boundary.

Inside LRT

Scene 1: When stop at Setiawangsa station, one pregnant lady board into the train and also they got young couple and group of primary school kid (I think). The young couple got the seat leaving the preggy lady standing. I can’t offer my seat to her because that times I also standing. Really upset with the stupid couple especially the guy. There got a notice “this seat for pregnant ladies, old people & … “Proud with these school kid. One of them approaches the guy and asked him to give the seat to the lady. But, that guy talked back to him and told him, he already has the seat first and his GF just laugh together with him. It ends up, one old man (he’s blind) stand up and offer the seat to the lady. As a token of appreciation, these kid offer their help holding that man hand in order to keep him balance while standing.

My conclusion: Sometime couple didn’t understand the true meaning of love. The only definition of love they know is “I love u, u love me” and those love only for BF & GF.

Scene 2: When the train stops at KLCC, there were a group of Chinese family boarding but then they were in trouble. None of them can speak English. They look around them which I think they look for Chinese people. Unfortunately there’s no Chinese person there. The father(I think) reach these school kid and write show something to them in hope they can help. But, one of the kids says in English, he didn’t know the place. Since sometimes I love to give direction to people, I offer my help. They gave me the place name (Muzium Negara). Then I make a hand communication to them told them to follow me because I will stop at KL Central and Muzium Negara is near to KL Central. They just nod their head. So, when we reach KL Central, the first thing I do is bring them to Muzium without asking them to take taxi. Although it takes around 15mins walking but then it is save than taking a taxi that will charge them. I still say sorry to them for asking them to walk but then from their reaction, they are not angry with me. ( I understand some Chinese but do not know how to respond back in Chinese. Thanks to my Chinese friend especiall my BFF Yee Chiea Chai). I even showed them the way to Planetarium Negara. Looks like I’m their tourist guide. After say thank you, I leave them having their sweet time at the muzium.

My conclusion: if we are really wanted to help people, language differences are not the barrier. If both not understand each other language, just showed it through action.

KL CENTRAL

This is the nice spot to observe people behavior. I just find one place to sit and start my activity (of course I bring book together with me to avoid people think that I’m crazy sitting there without doing anything.

Scene 1: @ KFC. There are a group of middle age man having a chit chat session. They really close to each other and have a very sweet & nice chit chat. Why they attract my attention? This is because they are from different races and one of them sitting on the wheelchair. They remind me of my friendship.

Conclusion: If you really sincere in friendship, your friendship will last forever.

Scene 2: Departure Hall KLIA Express

Family – The husband keep asking his wife to walk faster while at the same time his wife busy with two kids asking for something. The wife still at the pass scanner whiles the husband already at the escalator and keeps shouting at his wife to be faster.

Couple/ newly married (not sure)  – holding hand and smilingly walk towards the ticket counter.

Old couple – wave towards their daughter/ granddaughter (not sure their relationship with the lady). Then, the hubby told something to his wife and wipes the tears.

One guy (not sure either he’s single or already married) – talk with the phone and sometimes laugh.

One single lady – sit quietly at one of the seat while reading book. That’s me. Hahahhahaha

Conclusion: single or to have a life partner?  As long as you know the true meaning of family and love, everything will be okay.

The departure hall scenes lead me to the second activity that is deep thinking about my life. Sometime I prefer to be alone but sometimes I love to be with friend (That is sometime difficult to spend time with them due to their dating with their partner).

The deep thinking title of the day: LOVE

Everyone connect through love. Love is universal and not only specific to BF GF relationship. Love can lead to good thing and sometimes it can lead to bad thing. But for me, love is unique.

My definition of love is simple. Love myself first. This is because I believe once I already have 100% love towards myself, only then I will be able to love my God, religion, Families, Friends, Animals, Natures and everyone/everything around me.

My love story in term of BF GF Relationship? I’m not yet started a chapter on it yet. When I told people I want to have a BF, I’m not seriously meant it. It just a sentence in order to join the chit chat with my them. I never think about having a boyfriend at this time. Don’t asked me why because I haven’t have the answer for that. If people told that I’m afraid of having that kind of relationship, I admit it because 60% of me afraid of fall in love. This is due to some love failure experience (broke up, divorce, not meant to be together, died of the lovers)  of my friend and some families. All these stuff make me afraid. Since now, I’m happy with my life now, just enjoy my life. But then, sometimes it looks like I’m the love doctor. My friend always come to me with their love problem and asked my view. Although no experience in love, but I do my best to help them. Source of references…… I love reading. So, I just remember anything from my reading that related to their problem.hahahhahaha….

Need to stop now coz my finger told me they are already tired. Hahahahahhahaha… Since I love them, I need to stop now.

Thanks to my typing partner:

-          Song by Anuar Zain : Sedetik Lebih

-          Song by Justin Bieber : Pray

-          Song by 2 AM : Confession of a Friend

-          Song from Korean Series : Dream High

-          Piano music from Jay Chou Movie : Secret

-          Song by Bravo All Star : Let the Music Heal Your Soul

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2011

OMG… Now it’s already 2011. It seems long time haven’t type something on my blog. So, here my summary for the last 12 days of January 2011



01.01.11 – New Year Day
So funny. This year I stayed at home on New Year. Great achievement because since I finished my secondary school, 1 Jan every year is the day for outing. Surprisingly, I’m kind of enjoying it. This is because I need to do some deep thinking for my future life plan. End of the day, no result/ output because the so “deep thinking” activities worked together with Movie marathon. While re-arrange the furniture in my room, a group of VCD attract my attention and the funny thing is, I’ve yet to complete watching all the Movie VCD.



Out with Megala + Damping Malam




Finally, after almost 4 months, we met again. So many story to share and the winner of the best story is Megala’s story. What is the story? Its only between 2 of us. I love the first sentence coming out from her that day. “Wow, Rok…You lose weight”.It’s true, I lost 5 kg from my weight 4 months ago… so happy to hear that and due to that, we have a bet to lose more weight and meet again after 3 months with the new look. I told her that I will not let her to beat me.

After having a lunch, we go for movie, Damping Malam. I give 3 1/2 rating over 5 for this movie. The ending is so sad. After movie, we continue our chit chat until our goodbye. We’ll meet again after 3 months. But, we still communicate to each other. You’re so sweet Meg.



Good News: Friends Getting Married in February
Congratulation to Wani. She will get married by end of February 2011. Wish her a happy life. Now, I need to get Mega to go together to the wedding. Wish can go together with others too (Fiera, Leen, Siti, Yee)

Another marriage couple will be Yanti (friend that I met during my internship). Congratulation to her. Now, waiting for 2 more cards from my internship friend (Zati & Yani). Yuzi & Yuen already settled down last year. I wish both Zati & Yani will meet a guy that will love them till the end of their live.



Out with Sue + Gulliver’s Travel + POPULAR Bookstore
Hahaha… last weekend, lepak with Sue at Wangsa Walk. So bad, Dieba can’t join us because she’s in Melaka visiting her grandma. But both of us still enjoy. After having lunch at Popeye Restaurant, we went for a movie, Gulliver’s Travel. Nice Movie. After that, we lepak at POPULAR Bookstore almost 2 hrs and a half. We are crazy for kid’s book. It reminds us of our school memories. There got Siri 3 Penyiasat, Siri 5 Penyiasat, Siri Salma etc. Hahaha… While she busy searching and reading those books, I also busy searching and reading Conan & Doraemon. Funny thing is, we read these books at the store, then we buy the book. Reason: to keep as collection. When I think about it, it almost 1 month I haven’t read novel. Now, I’m crazy for comics & kid’s book.

feel like long time haven't update my blog.Not because i forgot that i have a blog but because i feel lazy to write plus the network connection from my room is not that good.anyway, today almost two weeks i'm back to my campus life for sure as a student.nothing different except now i was in final year and final semester.got few more month to go before i complete my study in this university.my next pit stop after this?I don't want to think about it first because i'm scared to draw and color my future life.Before this I love to plan everything for my future but after seeing many failure in future life of other people that close to me, that make me scared of thinking about my future.but what i'm still believe until now is I want to change my life as well as my family life.I want my family get a better life than before.Actually I'm proud of my parent.They not get well education as other that were in the same age as them.Their highest education was primary six but they have their own ambition but as people always said "we just plan,God will do the others".When I was a little kid, i hate when people said like that because that means that person do not want to try their best to make their plan become real.but now i understand, it doesn't mean that person not put their effort but sometimes God have something for us.That's why until now I limit any thinking about my future plan.I just do what i want to do today in hoping that there got one more chance for me tomorrow.

Forget about the nonsense talking above.lets see the picture below:

Last weekend, I went to Pangkor with four of my friend,Wani, Fiera,Megala n Siti Fatimah.We enjoy our weekend there and release all the tense before we were attack by another "Tension Virus". I love the scenario there and feel peace and harmony there. The first picture is the Ferry Terminal in Lumut. Then the nice stone architecture that resemble the head of the crocodile in Coral Island and the last one is the "ikan paus" head.So amaze with the God creation.Just look at the picture for a moment and think.

Oh Man!!I forgot that tonight i want to call my mum.so i stop here and continue some other time

~ada apa dengan weekend~

Last weekend, my frenz asked me to join them to have fun at Bukit Merah Laketown in Taiping. What a wonderful saturday.Feel so relax.Went out from UTP at least for one day and have fun is something that very nice n sweet especially when do it with our frenz. Thanx to megala, fiera and wani for invited me to join three of you and make that day a wonderful day.

Why duck picture? Because ducks look so sweet.We reach there around 1030 something and i think that is the time for ducks to go swimming. So cute watching them walk in a group with a "quack quack " sound while those that already in the water sound like people laughing. So sweet...

We enjoy our day at waterpark until 3pm.Before this we plan to go to Pulau Orang Utan and ecopark but seems we really enjoy our day at waterpark, so we cancel our plan. I love to watch people come with their family. really miss my family this time. When i was a kid, my family haven't bring me to this kind of place.I understand our situation that time. But now, I have frenz and i was in people state, i think i should go to this kind of place.

Back from Bukit Merah, we went to Ipoh Parade and our main target is BOWLING. i dont know how to play bowling. This is my first experience but it is a sweet memory to be remembered.hahhaha.at the beginning im very shame when my ball owez not reach the target but a few minutes later it become something funny. So nice.At least I experienced playing bowling.hehhehehe

Sunday? everything become normal student life again. wake up, take bath,breakfast,waiting for lunch n dinner, review notes and prepare for monday class. but it is ok. Sometime we must accept that our life is not for enjoy.sometimes we need to sacrifice our happiness and enjoy time for our future.hehehheh