My Crazy Thinking on my own life and the Treatment

Its been a long time since my last update. nothing much to update since my life is full of love (hahaha...love here doesn' mean am in love, but I just receiving to much love from my surrounding)

am just back from my department Education Trip @ ClubMed Cherating yesterday. my body so tired. many thing i've tried from Kayak, volleyball, archery, ping pong, squash etc. Night enjoy the movie + the party time.. it looks like am having a lot of fun until I hurt the whole body (my body told me to let it take a rest). But am a bad person. today am having some fun.am gonna go to watch the movie "The Three Musketeer". Oh, one more thing, today I also want to window shopping for a new smartphone (actually it not call window shopping since I've got one in my mind)

Ok, let's summarize all the update (since I love to lump sum all the update in one update...hahhaha)

FRIENDSHIP
Up and down.sometimes am questioning myself, am I really a good frenz?I love all my BFF but I got some issue here.some of them doesn't know each other (coz, I got BFF from Primary School, Secondary School, University & Working).Hurt one BFF in order to comfort other BFF hurt me very much.when am in that condition I owez questioning myself why am I too close with them. Let they just be a normal friend.but then, I couldn't help myself to close to all of them.

My own solution: Pray to God & read Quran.Everytime when I get hurt/ feel sad towards friendship, I'll back to my family.am not telling the story to them. Its just I will talk to them and asking what are they up to. Thanks to Twitter & FB. as for my mum & dad, I'll call them once in every 3 days.

TOO POSITIVE CHARACTER
am I a normal person? the longest time I can get angry or being a bad person is only 5 Mins. after that, the guilty feeling will haunted me and it will go away after I met the person that I feel angry with and talk to them. why some people have grudge and revenge towards each other for a long time and sometimes take a year & worst case for the rest of their life. Is it because am always thinking that life is simple. I get caught in trouble/ big problem today and the moment I wake up tomorrow morning everything will go well. am I too positive inn everything & trusted people so easily eventhough b4 that that people gave me so much pain.

My Own Solution: I owez told myself "nevermind, everything will be ok". I owez believe, if you do good thing you will get reward(although sometimes it is so painful for a long waiting) and if you do bad thing, you will be cursed for the rest of your life.hahahaha...look, how kind I am as a human being(crazy thinking)

LOVE
Best question ever.But I owez got the best answer. Yeah, I fall in love with....my FAMILY, foods, books, etc. then those who asking will yell at me & told me that's not what they asking for. Actually am already boring with these kind of question. who don't want to be loved and fall in love. It's all about time. When the time come, I will find my true love. for some people it is a crazy thing when I told them, my heart will told me that i am in love & am still waiting for my true love. they will told me don't "jual mahal" or "you must search for it not just waiting".i have my own dream on how my love should be although for the adult it sound like an impossible fairy tale. but for me, "if I believe in myself & my dream, I will have my own fairy tale." who knows, my love story will be a hit or top headline in the world.(again, crazy thinking in the early morning)

My own treatment : Just life the way I am now. when the time come, I hope everyone happy with my love fairy tales because it will make a top headline in the world.hahahhaha...

HOBBIES
B4 this I owez have a typical hobby that is reading.hahaha..but for the past 5 mths, am start asking myself, what is my hobby.i got mix hobbies. while reading, I will listening to music. while watching TV, I will surf the Internet.While watching muvie, I will busy texting.while window shopping, I will busy analyze people character.I even create a dialog for them. While observing people around me, I will busy reading the books and try to mix the reading with my observation.while listening to music, my mind also start to think the dance step n sometime without my control, I am dance to the song.when i read about cooking, i want to cook.when am read about animal, i want to have pet etc. (another crazy thinking)

My own treatment:Let's just do everything that we want to do. If feel tired, just stop doing that and daydreaming.hahhahahahha...

ALONE
Sometimes, when I give up & loss hope in my life, I am prefer to be alone. When am tired of being too positive, I prefer to be alone.When am having to much fun with all my friend & family, I will find a day to be alone. when i want to watch a movie that i want to watch but my friend didn' like it or no one to accompany me, i will juz watch that muvie alone.window shopping or shopping for my own thing, i prefer to be alone.but if my friend want me to accompany them, I will happily join them. Sometime, when people saw me alone by myself, I owez told them, it is not because am not having any friend to hang out with.It just sometimes I need to be alone.

My own treatment: Let people think what they want to think. am still myself and that people still who they are. Unless if they get paid to think about me, I will ask for my royalty. Am not going to make them rich for think about me while am not getting anything...


OMG....already 10am...need to prepare.am going to watch a movie today. The Three Musketeer...I will update more on my life in another update.hahahhaha

Background Music while typing:
Good Good Time by Koyote
Hello by Huh Gak
Next to you by Chris Brown ft Justin Bieber
Price Tag by Jessie J
Mr Simple by SuperJunior
Ugly + Lonely + I don't care by 2EN1
Berdua Bersatu by Fourteen
Smile by Avril Lavign
Tiga Kata by KRU
Losing My Mind by Lee Seung Gi
Who Say by Selena Gomez
Show Me the Meaning of Being Lonely by BackstreetBoy
I have a Dream + Flying without wing + World of our own + All my Love by Westlife

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Where am I last Weekend?

Place for Makan Durian and Telematch

Last Friday evening until this morning, I was at Thistle Hotel at Port Dickson for our division Family Day. So tired (because I am part of the committee) but I enjoy it when I saw everyone smile and enjoy with their family. So sweet for those who came with family. But for the single staff like myself, we just assume that everyone are my family. Now I miss my family. Other picture will coming soon (If I am not affected by Lazy virus.)





Last Wednesday, while having a long bad day in the office, something make me smile and forget all the problem. I got the letter from the child that I was sponsor through World Vision. Let just say, she is my adopted sister. Her name is Yu Qun and she was a year younger than my youngest sister. Although it is just a simple letter but it make me smile. Since April is around the corner, the next day, I write a letter to her and attached together the Birthday Wish Card to her.



That's all the update for this week. I am sleepy now and really need help. Tomorrow until Wednesday I will out again. This time for my department Target Setting for financial year 2011. Last year we had it at Corus Hotel. This year, it will be conducted at Awana Genting. Tomorrow night, I will go to Genting with Adibah.
Need to stop now because I haven't packed my stuff....but I am sleepy....

Life Story

Finally I got time to update my blog again. Not because I am lazy to type but it because I have no idea what to type.

First of all, I would like to say my condolence to all the Japanese for what had happen yesterday. Japan was hit by earthquake and Tsunami. When I saw the news in TV, I can’t help my tears to come out and I straight away call my mum just to say Hi. I am a kind of person who will always fall for deep thinking when saw, heard or experience something that attract my attention. The natural disaster that was occurred in Japan yesterday also made me became a thinker. The natural disaster is unexpected and can happen anytime. Sometime I always think what if when this kind of incident happens and I was alone or far away from my family? What if it happens to my family and I was not there with them? Am I mentally and physically prepared to face it?... Just by watching the video from the news make me feel like crying, how does the feeling of the victims. 

Story No.1 : Holiday in Melaka at the end of February (Wani’s wedding)

Actually I can call it one Malaysia Vacation. Me, Yee and Mega represent one Malaysia. Sorry to Wani because three of us steal the attention during the “Akad Nikah” night. We were there with her and sat next to her. Initially, three of us not aware about it until the photographer voice out about 1 Malaysia. It is not completed actually. Fiera (closest friend to Wani compared to three of us) and Leen not there with us. After the Akad Nikah (without eating the meal) , we went to Jonker Street and take our dinbreak(short term for Dinner Breakfast) at about 1 am at McDonald. It remind of our McDonald agreement in 2008 in Perak. A new arrangement has been set where Fiera will be next, followed by Leen, Yee, Mega and finally me.

Thanks to the bride & groom for sponsoring our accommodation. What a nice and luxury villa.

But, I think it is a trademark for those who go for travelling with me. Even, I am not a driver and I am also not the one who gave the direction, it always end up we are loss. What to do, it is just natural and I can’t avoid it. But, it creates more sweet and precious moment.

Story No.2 : Hai Dkny and Luxmi

While typing story number 1, I just remember that this story should come first. But, then I am very lazy to give direction to my mouse, so I just let it be. One afternoon, very shocked got a message from Dkny informing that she was in KL for Technology exhibition at KL Convec. So, I just call Yee and then three of us having lunch together at Kenny Rogers KL Convec. So excited that day. Last time we met was during our convocation in 2009.

Then, 2 weeks after that, I met Luxmi, coursemate aka housemate during internship. That day, me and Yee went to Burger King for our lunch and while passed through Auntie Annie stall, I told Yee that I saw a familiar face and confidently I hold her hand and then it is true, she is Luxmi. We had a short chit chat because she was with her friend.

Story No.3: Hikayat Merong Mahawangsa

Congratulation to the production team for such great movie. I watched the movie on its first day premier at TGV Wangsa Walk with Suliana. Two thumbs up for the movie. The scripts are very good and meaningful especially the scene where Merong Mahawangsa talked to his team about the objective of their mission. I love the Archimedes Principal that was shown by Merong. Although I hope the hero will be alive (at the end of the movie, Merong died) but, I still love the ending. It doesn’t mean that all hero should live longer. Now, waiting for KRU Studio next horror movie…”Karak”

Story No 4: February 2011 is the most hateful month in my life so far

In this month, I felt demotivated a hundred times. My confidence level drops a hundred times. This is first time in my life I am thinking of giving up on my work a number of time per day. This is also first time in my life I am not even trying to comfort myself by being positive and believe in my life policy. I gain 2 kgs due to those things. I really hate this month.  Thanks God, at the end of the month, I got a weekend vacation to Wani’s Wedding with Mega and Yee. But then, 2 weeks after that, I still experience the same thing. Now, I am in recovering phase.

Story No 5: Hasliana getting Married and among her friend, I am the first person she told the date of her wedding (for sure because I need to book for the flight ticket)

Around, 7:10 pm today, I got a message from her telling me to book a ticket and fly back to my hometown in Sarawak at the end of May 2011. Congratulation to her. I’ll look for the available and cheapest flight ticket. I will do my best to attend her wedding I think I should plan a trip to her wedding with Jama, Syidah, Nisa and Hamisa soon. Can’t wait to meet them. Maybe, it will be our reunion.

Suddenly, my finger told me that they are tired. And my brain also told me that it is time to stop. So empty after let go of the uneasy feeling. This is one of the recovering phase methods for everything that happen in story 4.

Will be continued later for another stories……

Background music: no background music because I am typing this while watching TV but I don’t know what I am watching because the only sentence that I saw on TV Screen is, “ Service Unavailable”…

MY FAVOURITE ACTIVITY TO KILL TIME WHEN I’M ALONE

Sometime I enjoy being lonely. Yesterday, I purposely being lonely and not plan anything for my weekend. So, in order to kill time, I’m doing my favourite activity that is watching people and make a conclusion based on the situation. So, after settled all the morning activities, I went out.

On the way to LRT Station

Scene: Shoppers busy opening their shop while talking to their shop neighbor. The passer by just look at them and sometimes they exchange smiles and say hi like they already known for a long time. If they already become friend, they will stop for a while and have a brief chit chat session. Actually, 90% of them didn’t know each other. The only connection between them is they always saw each other everyday and 90% of the passer by live at that area. After almost 2 years living in this area, I also knew 25% of these people name but for the rest we still have can smile to each other and say hi. I still remember last December when I went back to my hometown for a week. A week after that, while on the way back to my condo, some of them asked me, “Hi, long time no see. Where are you going? How are you?” I am so surprise. I just only smile to them but then they still care for me. Same thing when I want to buy some food from the nearby café. They already know what I will buy (always order the same) although I’m just drop by sometime once in two months

My conclusion: Relationship is unique. It naturally develops inside everybody.

LRT Station: While waiting for LRT

Scene: Although people always busy and sometimes they look like arrogant or selfish, but there still got at least 1% of humanity characteristics. One Chinese guy looks busy reading the documents and at the same time talking to the phone and he walks so fast. About 1 meter in front him, there was an old Malay lady tiredly carries the luggage on the right hand and holds her grandson. Surprisingly, that guy went to her and offers his helps to carry the luggage. Don’t think I’m not willing to help that lady. At that time, I’m not even reached the Touch & Go scanner yet.

My conclusion:

-          First Impression is important but then don’t simply jump to conclusion based on the first impression.

-          When it comes to help each other, race, religion and difference is not a boundary.

Inside LRT

Scene 1: When stop at Setiawangsa station, one pregnant lady board into the train and also they got young couple and group of primary school kid (I think). The young couple got the seat leaving the preggy lady standing. I can’t offer my seat to her because that times I also standing. Really upset with the stupid couple especially the guy. There got a notice “this seat for pregnant ladies, old people & … “Proud with these school kid. One of them approaches the guy and asked him to give the seat to the lady. But, that guy talked back to him and told him, he already has the seat first and his GF just laugh together with him. It ends up, one old man (he’s blind) stand up and offer the seat to the lady. As a token of appreciation, these kid offer their help holding that man hand in order to keep him balance while standing.

My conclusion: Sometime couple didn’t understand the true meaning of love. The only definition of love they know is “I love u, u love me” and those love only for BF & GF.

Scene 2: When the train stops at KLCC, there were a group of Chinese family boarding but then they were in trouble. None of them can speak English. They look around them which I think they look for Chinese people. Unfortunately there’s no Chinese person there. The father(I think) reach these school kid and write show something to them in hope they can help. But, one of the kids says in English, he didn’t know the place. Since sometimes I love to give direction to people, I offer my help. They gave me the place name (Muzium Negara). Then I make a hand communication to them told them to follow me because I will stop at KL Central and Muzium Negara is near to KL Central. They just nod their head. So, when we reach KL Central, the first thing I do is bring them to Muzium without asking them to take taxi. Although it takes around 15mins walking but then it is save than taking a taxi that will charge them. I still say sorry to them for asking them to walk but then from their reaction, they are not angry with me. ( I understand some Chinese but do not know how to respond back in Chinese. Thanks to my Chinese friend especiall my BFF Yee Chiea Chai). I even showed them the way to Planetarium Negara. Looks like I’m their tourist guide. After say thank you, I leave them having their sweet time at the muzium.

My conclusion: if we are really wanted to help people, language differences are not the barrier. If both not understand each other language, just showed it through action.

KL CENTRAL

This is the nice spot to observe people behavior. I just find one place to sit and start my activity (of course I bring book together with me to avoid people think that I’m crazy sitting there without doing anything.

Scene 1: @ KFC. There are a group of middle age man having a chit chat session. They really close to each other and have a very sweet & nice chit chat. Why they attract my attention? This is because they are from different races and one of them sitting on the wheelchair. They remind me of my friendship.

Conclusion: If you really sincere in friendship, your friendship will last forever.

Scene 2: Departure Hall KLIA Express

Family – The husband keep asking his wife to walk faster while at the same time his wife busy with two kids asking for something. The wife still at the pass scanner whiles the husband already at the escalator and keeps shouting at his wife to be faster.

Couple/ newly married (not sure)  – holding hand and smilingly walk towards the ticket counter.

Old couple – wave towards their daughter/ granddaughter (not sure their relationship with the lady). Then, the hubby told something to his wife and wipes the tears.

One guy (not sure either he’s single or already married) – talk with the phone and sometimes laugh.

One single lady – sit quietly at one of the seat while reading book. That’s me. Hahahhahaha

Conclusion: single or to have a life partner?  As long as you know the true meaning of family and love, everything will be okay.

The departure hall scenes lead me to the second activity that is deep thinking about my life. Sometime I prefer to be alone but sometimes I love to be with friend (That is sometime difficult to spend time with them due to their dating with their partner).

The deep thinking title of the day: LOVE

Everyone connect through love. Love is universal and not only specific to BF GF relationship. Love can lead to good thing and sometimes it can lead to bad thing. But for me, love is unique.

My definition of love is simple. Love myself first. This is because I believe once I already have 100% love towards myself, only then I will be able to love my God, religion, Families, Friends, Animals, Natures and everyone/everything around me.

My love story in term of BF GF Relationship? I’m not yet started a chapter on it yet. When I told people I want to have a BF, I’m not seriously meant it. It just a sentence in order to join the chit chat with my them. I never think about having a boyfriend at this time. Don’t asked me why because I haven’t have the answer for that. If people told that I’m afraid of having that kind of relationship, I admit it because 60% of me afraid of fall in love. This is due to some love failure experience (broke up, divorce, not meant to be together, died of the lovers)  of my friend and some families. All these stuff make me afraid. Since now, I’m happy with my life now, just enjoy my life. But then, sometimes it looks like I’m the love doctor. My friend always come to me with their love problem and asked my view. Although no experience in love, but I do my best to help them. Source of references…… I love reading. So, I just remember anything from my reading that related to their problem.hahahhahaha….

Need to stop now coz my finger told me they are already tired. Hahahahahhahaha… Since I love them, I need to stop now.

Thanks to my typing partner:

-          Song by Anuar Zain : Sedetik Lebih

-          Song by Justin Bieber : Pray

-          Song by 2 AM : Confession of a Friend

-          Song from Korean Series : Dream High

-          Piano music from Jay Chou Movie : Secret

-          Song by Bravo All Star : Let the Music Heal Your Soul

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2011

OMG… Now it’s already 2011. It seems long time haven’t type something on my blog. So, here my summary for the last 12 days of January 2011



01.01.11 – New Year Day
So funny. This year I stayed at home on New Year. Great achievement because since I finished my secondary school, 1 Jan every year is the day for outing. Surprisingly, I’m kind of enjoying it. This is because I need to do some deep thinking for my future life plan. End of the day, no result/ output because the so “deep thinking” activities worked together with Movie marathon. While re-arrange the furniture in my room, a group of VCD attract my attention and the funny thing is, I’ve yet to complete watching all the Movie VCD.



Out with Megala + Damping Malam




Finally, after almost 4 months, we met again. So many story to share and the winner of the best story is Megala’s story. What is the story? Its only between 2 of us. I love the first sentence coming out from her that day. “Wow, Rok…You lose weight”.It’s true, I lost 5 kg from my weight 4 months ago… so happy to hear that and due to that, we have a bet to lose more weight and meet again after 3 months with the new look. I told her that I will not let her to beat me.

After having a lunch, we go for movie, Damping Malam. I give 3 1/2 rating over 5 for this movie. The ending is so sad. After movie, we continue our chit chat until our goodbye. We’ll meet again after 3 months. But, we still communicate to each other. You’re so sweet Meg.



Good News: Friends Getting Married in February
Congratulation to Wani. She will get married by end of February 2011. Wish her a happy life. Now, I need to get Mega to go together to the wedding. Wish can go together with others too (Fiera, Leen, Siti, Yee)

Another marriage couple will be Yanti (friend that I met during my internship). Congratulation to her. Now, waiting for 2 more cards from my internship friend (Zati & Yani). Yuzi & Yuen already settled down last year. I wish both Zati & Yani will meet a guy that will love them till the end of their live.



Out with Sue + Gulliver’s Travel + POPULAR Bookstore
Hahaha… last weekend, lepak with Sue at Wangsa Walk. So bad, Dieba can’t join us because she’s in Melaka visiting her grandma. But both of us still enjoy. After having lunch at Popeye Restaurant, we went for a movie, Gulliver’s Travel. Nice Movie. After that, we lepak at POPULAR Bookstore almost 2 hrs and a half. We are crazy for kid’s book. It reminds us of our school memories. There got Siri 3 Penyiasat, Siri 5 Penyiasat, Siri Salma etc. Hahaha… While she busy searching and reading those books, I also busy searching and reading Conan & Doraemon. Funny thing is, we read these books at the store, then we buy the book. Reason: to keep as collection. When I think about it, it almost 1 month I haven’t read novel. Now, I’m crazy for comics & kid’s book.

What is FRIEND?

When mention about FRIENDS,everyone start to think about their friend.Some of them might also start to count how many friend they have since their childhood time.Everyone must have friend at least one in their entire life.Sometimes I asked myself, did I really understand what is the meaning of FRIEND?Do I really have a good FRIENDSHIP with my friends?Why people need friend in their life? why we being a friend for so many people at the same time? what is the real rules in friendship?All these question comes into my mind.

Why I choose to post this topic? Because sometimes I don't know what to do and when I don't know what to do, I alway think about this kind of silly question.SometimesI asked myself,why should I care about all those thing.Even sometimes I really crazy and I asked myself,who is the first person who introduced "A,B,C" AS a letter,who is the first personthat introduced the number, who is the first person that tell the others that the 'tree' is the tree, etc...But it is not wrong to create curiosity in our mind right.Anyway, lets go back to the main topic that is FRIEND.Because I love to visit my "Uncle Google", I asked "him" to explain me the meaning of FRIEND.Below here I attached some meaning that attract my attention that can be shared with everyone.

I'm not simply put the quotes below just for fun. Here, I post the quotes that reflect my thinking about FRIENDSHIP. I just don't know how to describe it with my own words so I need help from these quotes to explain to everyone on what I understand about FRIENDSHIP.
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• "True friendship is like sound health; the value of it is seldom known until it be lost." - Charles Caleb Colton
• "My friends are my estate."- Emily Dickinson
• "Don't walk in front of me, I may not follow.Don't walk behind me, I may not lead.Walk beside me and be my friend." - Albert Camus (also attributed to Maimonidies). Sent by clovers
• "Friendship is unnecessary, like philosophy, like art... It has no survival value; rather is one of those things that give value to survival." - C. S. Lewis
• "The better part of one's life consists of his friendships." - Abraham Lincoln
• "Friendship: a building contract you sign with laughter and break with tears."
• "Anybody can sympathise with the sufferings of a friend, but it requires a very fine nature to sympathise with a friend's success." - Oscar Wilde
• "If you judge people, you have no time to love them." - Mother Teresa
• "Without friends no one would choose to live, though he had all other goods." - Artistotle
• "Friendship is always a sweet responsibilty, never an oppourtunity." - Kahil Gibran
• "Friendship that flows from the heart cannot be frozen by adversity, as the water that flows from the spring cannogt congeal in winter." - James Fenimore Cooper
• "Best friends are like diamonds, precious and rareFalse friends are like leaves, found everywhere."- Anoymous
• "If all my friends were to jump off a bridge, I wouldn't jump with them, I'd be at the bottom to catch them"
• "Everyone hears what you say. Friends listen to what you say. Best friends listen to what you don't say."
• "How do you know you've found your best friend. When you are ready to talk to them about anything, even though they know everything about you already."
• "A world without a friend, what would it be? It would be like a world without water, something you need. Friends are like glass, once broken, they are hard to fix. Keep your friends, as you would keep your water."
• "A friend will be there for you when things are good...but a TRUE friend will be there for you when things are good and also when things are very bad...and just when it feels like you will never smile again...she can put a smile on your face with just with a hug!"
• "Have no friends not equal to yourself."- Confucious (551 - 497 BC) Chinese philosopher.
• "To like and dislike the same things, that is indeed true friendship."- Sallust (86 - 334 BC) Roman historian
• "Friendship with oneself is all-important because without it one cannot be friends with anyone else in the world."- Eleanor Roosevelt
• "A true friend stabs you in the front."- Oscar Wilde
• "The most beautiful thing we can experience is the mysterious, it is the true sourse of art, science, and friendship."- Albert Einstien
• "Never shall I forget the days I spent with you. Continue to be my friend, as you will always find me yours."- Ludwig van Beethoven
• "Walking with a friend in the dark is better than walking alone in the light."- Helen Keller
• "In the end, we will remember not the words of our enemies, but the silence of our friends." - Martin Luther King Jr.
• "A friend in need is a friend indeed."- Latin Proverb
• "Life without a friend is like death without a witness."- Spanish Proverb
• "THERE ARE MANY TYPES OF SHIPS. THERE ARE WOODEN SHIPS ,PLASTIC SHIPS, AND METAL SHIPS. BUT THE BEST AND MOST IMPORTAINT TYPES OF SHIPS ARE FRIENDSHIPS."- OLD IRISH QUOTE
• " A friend is one to whom one may pour out all the contents of one's heart, chaff and grain together, knowing that the gentlest of hands will take and sift it, keep what is worth keeping and with a breath of kindness blow the rest away."- Arabian Proverb
• "It is better to be in chains with friends , than to be in a garden with strangers." -Persian Proverb

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******That's all the quotes I can use to describe my understanding on FRIENDSHIP.What can I summarized here is everyone need friends in their life.No one want to be lonely because when we have friend, at least we have a partner to share our happiness and sadness. Even sometimes, the beginning of the ENEMY is from the FRIEND relationship.someone will not be someone else ENEMY unless there are friend before.********

feel like long time haven't update my blog.Not because i forgot that i have a blog but because i feel lazy to write plus the network connection from my room is not that good.anyway, today almost two weeks i'm back to my campus life for sure as a student.nothing different except now i was in final year and final semester.got few more month to go before i complete my study in this university.my next pit stop after this?I don't want to think about it first because i'm scared to draw and color my future life.Before this I love to plan everything for my future but after seeing many failure in future life of other people that close to me, that make me scared of thinking about my future.but what i'm still believe until now is I want to change my life as well as my family life.I want my family get a better life than before.Actually I'm proud of my parent.They not get well education as other that were in the same age as them.Their highest education was primary six but they have their own ambition but as people always said "we just plan,God will do the others".When I was a little kid, i hate when people said like that because that means that person do not want to try their best to make their plan become real.but now i understand, it doesn't mean that person not put their effort but sometimes God have something for us.That's why until now I limit any thinking about my future plan.I just do what i want to do today in hoping that there got one more chance for me tomorrow.

Forget about the nonsense talking above.lets see the picture below:

Last weekend, I went to Pangkor with four of my friend,Wani, Fiera,Megala n Siti Fatimah.We enjoy our weekend there and release all the tense before we were attack by another "Tension Virus". I love the scenario there and feel peace and harmony there. The first picture is the Ferry Terminal in Lumut. Then the nice stone architecture that resemble the head of the crocodile in Coral Island and the last one is the "ikan paus" head.So amaze with the God creation.Just look at the picture for a moment and think.

Oh Man!!I forgot that tonight i want to call my mum.so i stop here and continue some other time

~ada apa dengan weekend~

Last weekend, my frenz asked me to join them to have fun at Bukit Merah Laketown in Taiping. What a wonderful saturday.Feel so relax.Went out from UTP at least for one day and have fun is something that very nice n sweet especially when do it with our frenz. Thanx to megala, fiera and wani for invited me to join three of you and make that day a wonderful day.

Why duck picture? Because ducks look so sweet.We reach there around 1030 something and i think that is the time for ducks to go swimming. So cute watching them walk in a group with a "quack quack " sound while those that already in the water sound like people laughing. So sweet...

We enjoy our day at waterpark until 3pm.Before this we plan to go to Pulau Orang Utan and ecopark but seems we really enjoy our day at waterpark, so we cancel our plan. I love to watch people come with their family. really miss my family this time. When i was a kid, my family haven't bring me to this kind of place.I understand our situation that time. But now, I have frenz and i was in people state, i think i should go to this kind of place.

Back from Bukit Merah, we went to Ipoh Parade and our main target is BOWLING. i dont know how to play bowling. This is my first experience but it is a sweet memory to be remembered.hahhaha.at the beginning im very shame when my ball owez not reach the target but a few minutes later it become something funny. So nice.At least I experienced playing bowling.hehhehehe

Sunday? everything become normal student life again. wake up, take bath,breakfast,waiting for lunch n dinner, review notes and prepare for monday class. but it is ok. Sometime we must accept that our life is not for enjoy.sometimes we need to sacrifice our happiness and enjoy time for our future.hehehheh

GoodBye Intern....Welcome Study

Today is my third day in UTP for the new semester as the Final Year 1st semester student. That mean it already 1 week 3 days I left my internship life. hehehe...

it is so nice to meet again all my friends and we shared all our experiences that we had gained during our internship.But at the same time I miss all my frenz that i knew during my internship period.Miss them. Thanks them for the sweet gifts.

First day in UTP.....
i went to UTP on friday. together with the other housemate, we take 12pm bus from Kelana Jaya LRT station to Ipoh.It is a very2 tired day for 5 of us. but we help each other to settle everything.then after that, everything become normal again like the life before we start our internship.

First class in UTP.....
What a busy and headache day.timetable problem????it is normal since my first year first semester and it seems like a tradition here.come to class and the main topic is timetable.but this semester i'm not worried about my timetable.Final Year project!!!!

Today.....
today is holiday and I need to spend my time to think about the topic that I should propose for my final year project.hehehhehe....

that all for this time....

BBB (Bukan Bintang Biasa) - Bukan Bintang Biasa

Last weekend I watched one Indonesian Movie that is Bukan Bintang Biasa. It is a nice movie to watch.The most important is I like the all the song especially the theme song. There got something with the lyric that attract my attention. This song is all about friendship n love. When I listening to the song, I remember my frenz.Miss all the time together with them. Miss u all my frenz.

BBB (Bukan Bintang Biasa) - Bukan Bintang Biasa

once upon a time
ada sebuah bintang
yang bersinar terang di hatimu
ku akan datang lagi
menjemputmu dengan cinta
kan kubagikan semua bintangku

kumiliki bintang
bukan bintang biasa
ku bisa hapuskan semua dukamu
ku tak akan menghilang
slalu ada di hatimu
memberi bintang hanya untuk cinta

dan yang terbaik selamanya bersama
akan kubagikan bintang
ku demi cintamu
and when you keep on believing
thousand ones can be sees by running
the miracles can do things though can't do

kumiliki bintang
bukan bintang biasa
ku bisa hapuskan semua dukamu
ku tak akan menghilang
slalu ada di hatimu
memberi bintang hanya untuk cinta

dan yang terbaik selamanya bersama
akan kubagikan bintangku demi cintamu
and when you keep on believing
thousand ones can be sees by running
the miracles can do things though can do

dan yang terbaik selamanya bersama
akan kubagikan bintangku demi cintamu
and when you keep on believing
thousand ones can be sees by running
the miracles can do things though can't do

the miracles can do things though can't do

GOODBYE 2007... WELCOME 2008

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE....GOODBYE 2007.....WELCOME 2008

This year first time ever in my life I celebrate my new year in Kuala Lumpur with my housemate; Luxmi, Seila, Elvina, Ling Hui and Estella...But i'm still looking forward to celebrate new year with other frenz. Thanx to Seila frenz from Cambodia for going together with us. Thanx ya guys coz your appearance protect us from the crowd public and the most important thing is thanx for bring umbrella together.

All six of us leave office around 6:30 pm and went to level 2 KLCC to have our last dinner for 2007. After 1 hours and a half there we walk around then we move to the KLCC Park around 9pm. The most popular activity that nite is take photo while walking.Luckily one of Seila frenz bring camera. Then we went to the concert area and stay there for about less than 30minutes before we walked back to the park.

At the park, we seat there for a while and talking to each others. Thanx to a foreigner couple(dont know which country they came from) for let us play around with their baby. That baby boy so cute n sweet.After 1 hours there we move to the big screen and find a place to seat.We seat there and create a game by ourselves to waste our time. We are in our own world and doesn't care about people around us. They just pass by and look at us coz we make a big circle,play a game and laugh together.

Unfortunately, 30 minutes to midnite the rain fall. bUT it doesn't make everyone there gave up.there still standing waiting waiting for the midnite. and when the time reach midnite at the maxis tower clock, the firework show began and everyone shout "HAPPY NEW YEAR"

we need to leave the place after 5 minutes firework show because we need to catch the LRT. Everyone seems to be hurry coz they don't want to stuck at the station due to the jam inside the LRT station. We managed to get into the empty LRT. Here I want to thanx to the security and the Rapid KL staff for their good n great jobs. They keep remind public to be careful since the road is slippery due to the rain.Thanx to them.

When reach at Kelana Jaya station, we took taxi to our condo. Finally we reach home safely.

PRE-New Year Party 8 A605===Hahahahaha

Last Nite is the special nite for us. After almost 7 months together, last nite we o sit together n enjoy a small party for pre- new year 2008. The main activity of that nite is gifts exchange but for sure must have food so that it will be more enjoyable.hahaha...so juz look at the opposite picture. That is the only foods available coz we all run out of money because we already use that money to buy presents.Each of us need to prepare 5 presents.

Anyway, we all still happy coz the important thing is our happiness not the food.hahaha..Thanx to Seila for her nice and sweet ice-cream.We enjoy eating it and that is my favourite flavour.

I will miss this moment. 30 / 12 / 2007...

Tonite we o have plan for the new year countdown. We will celebrated it in KLCC. Why KLCC?because we can straigtly go there after work(we work in KLCC...hehehe), it is safe than other place n LRT station oso near there. hahaha

Don't know what else to write...

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2008

byE Bye 2007