busy n stress time

Things need to be done before end of April

1. SM, HRM, KMT,ADBS Project
2. SM Assignment
3. FYP Seminar,Interim Report, Final Presentation
4. Test 2: HRM,ADBS,SM

Arrgggg....very2 busy n tension.dunno which one to be settle first.all these work make me feel like vormitting.why always gave work during last minutes times...i admit that sometimes it student fault for doing everything last minutes but we still know how to manage our time.but this time, i feel like i want to run away from everything. I really2 hate it.because if i hate all this tension and busy thing, it end up i become more lazy to do anything.arghhhhh....two more weeks to go before final exam n we still busy with all these projects, assignment n presentation.

1 Litre of Tears

"If I were a flower, then now I would be a bud.
I shall treasure the beginning of my youth without any regrets.
This disease, why did it choose me?
Fate. It can't be put into words.
I want to make a time machine and go back in time.
If it wasn't for this disease,not only I could enjoy falling in love but I alsowouldn’t have to rely on anyone and live by myself.
I really don't want to say things such as 'I want to go back to how things were before.
'I recognize how I am right now, and I will continue to live on.
Therefore I definitely won't run away.
That's what I’ll do.
Definitely, always.
Even if it's like that, I still want to stay here.
because this is the place where I am.
If you look up at the sky after falling down the blue sky is also todaystretching limitlessly and smiles at me...
I'm alive.
People shouldn’t dwell on the past.
It's enough to try your best in all that you're doing now.
Reality is too cruel, too brutal.
I don’t even have the right to dream.
As i think about the future, the tears will come out again."

that is some of the part of diary written by Aya Ikeuchi. This proved her courage and positive attitude towards an uncertain future when suffering such an illness, spinocerebellar ataxia. It such a sad story. Actually I already watched this Japanese drama in 2006 after i heard about a positive review towards this drama.beside that, I also interested with something that taken from the real life. 1 Litre of Tears.This is based on the true story of the girl who still not lose hope with life eventhough she knews that she has not much time to live.To my surprise, this is the first drama series that make me cry since the first episode and the last episode is even worse.i never thought i will cry that serious.

why i choose this as my blog topics?
suddenly when i was busy doing my assignment i heard the drama theme song from my friend PC.then it automatically remind me of this drama.b4 this i always get mad and tense when faced many workload.then i realize, it is not that much since i still can have an opportunity to finish it.each work given will have a solution.but what if i faced a situation where there is no solution n it involved our life.even a small thing we cannot handle, how we will handle the big thing that involved life and death.this make me think again.i should be grateful with my life and enjoy it no matter how hard it is.when i read many times the sentence that i paste above, it gave me a spirit.

it make me think if i was in her place, will i be that strong?will i write these kind of sentence and inspire people not to give up in life? what a wonderful girl she is.she knows her conditions but she still want to live like a normal people.her family also very good.they gave support to her.make her laugh and happy until at the end of her life.

What a lazy day.long time haven't update my blog.don't know why.maybe because lately i had been infected by some kind of disease that is not available in the medical dictionary...."malas yg terlampau"......hahahha..so dangerous the virus in this era...even the ancestor will become confuse when heard about that kind of virus...ok..here my notes for tonite

tonite i got time to write something on my blog since this evening i had attack a new virus..."kerajinan yg terlampau" after listening the song "Hanya di Mercu" by Ayu OIAM2.why?because suddenly the lyric attract my attention.donno why today because i already listen to this song many time ....

student life?
starting from thursday evening, i felt release after complete my "1st world war=>test n quiz". but on thursday also is the starting date for the "2nd world war=>SM assignment".actually it is simple task that is interview a company.but what make it my 2nd world war is we must find a big company that have a workers more than 100(branch not include...need the main office n headquarter).then we need to interview them n the project presentation is on the first week of may.i really hate it.not less than a month n where we should search for a big company in a small ipoh town.but wat to do.i'm a student n must bear to take this responsibility.4get about that 2nd worldwar.here i also got a "universe war=>FYP"...arrrrrggggghhhh...really headache.got so many report n i hate writing report without completing the project. so stressful but each time i'm stress new virus attack me that is "overhappiness".anyway that is the reality of student life.got sweet,sour,hot,salty n so many taste.

current issues?
today one issue in newspaper attract my attention.its about Suffiah Yusuf, a malaysian girl who entered an Oxford University at the age of 13 becoz she genius in mathematic.its not a news that can be proud of.After read about it, now i think i must be grateful because i'm just a normal people.wat a tragedy.when people heard about her ability, they will imagine her bright future life.but now, her life is a tragedy.after run away from oxford at the age of 15,then married at the early age of 19 n now the latest new about her is she advertise her "body service" via internet.what a shame.i can't imagine how her family felt when they read about her.wat a sad story.before this when i was in school, i was jealous of her because she got a place in one of the famous university in the world at young age.but she not really appreciate this opportunity.i feel sorry for her.its all end up like this.i just hope she will realize that she cannot do like that because she got talent and she should use it properly.


Others
1. miss my family.so relief after call my family.

2. this thursday got data mining quiz

3.now i addicted to korean series.last korean series i watched was the sad sonata in 2006.then i stop watched korean series because i addicted to english,indonesian n philiphines series.then i addicted back to korean series after watching coffee prince.then surprisingly now i also add malay series as one of my favourite collection.it all starting with dunia baru season one.but not really addicted like korean n english.the best malay series for me at this time are manjalara(even i hate the ending),sindarela,Bella and mostly the series that air on TV3.it is a good improvement for malaysian program.even Jangan Pandang Belakang film went to singapore and philiphines.keep it up guys.if u all produce good local product, I will support it....but if i addicted more to outside product, don't be mad k.

think need to stop now.why? because i need to finish my FYP progress report.need to submit it tomorrow.before the "kemalasan melamapau" virus attack me, better i prepare the antibodi for it.


here the song

Hanya Di Mercu

Mimpi dan harapan bagaikan duri yg mencengkam
tak pernah terluahkan hanyalah di hati tersimpan
terpendam
keterbatasan diriku menjadi penghalang

sampai bila aku bertanya sampai bila
ku harus mencoba
bila lagi resah hatiku bila lagi
aku harus berani
lalu ku bangkit tegak berdiri
mengatur langkahku terus mendaki
cita2ku di mercu

mimpi dan harapan
cita-cita yang tinggi
menjulang
seandainya ku biar cita2 di hati tersimpan terpendam
keterbatasan tak akan menjadi penghalang

sampai bila aku bertanya sampai bila
ku harus mencoba
bila lagi resah hatiku bila lagi
aku harus berani
lalu ku bangkit tegak berdiri
mengatur langkahku terus mendaki
cita2ku di mercu

aku mencari kekuatan dalam kelemahan
aku temui kejayaan dalam keberanian

sampai bila aku bertanya sampai bilaku harus mencobabila lagi resah hatiku bila lagiaku harus beranilalu ku bangkit tegak berdirimengatur langkahku terus mendakicita2ku di mercu

MY NOTEZ!!!

Long time havent write something in my blog.I was busy with assignment and test.today i manage to steal a time to update a blog since i feel i want to explode due to many workload.finish one work another work come in.before this i blame myself for being someone that always waste a time and do these work during last minutes time.but recently i realise that it is not my fault.some task that given by a lecturer need time for me to understand it and some task need me to ask my lovely uncle google and aunty Yahoo! to help me search for the references.of course uncle Google and Aunty Yahoo! not help me much.now i was busy with my HRM assignment.I type the 'interview and HRM' keyword.uncle Google give me an advance answer.it good but the problem is some of the answer not related to what i want.this make me feel like to shout out.i really hate when people asked me to search for article because it takes time and always end up with nothing.i think uncle google and aunty Yahoo! should work hard to improve their searching performance.

FYP?
what a nightmare.recently i feel very lazy to do my FYP.i hate to write a report before i complete my work.but for this FYP got so many report to be done like preliminary report, progress report, interim report and final report.then also got seminar 1 n 2 n the final presentation.i really hate all these process.sometimes i feel like to see the lecturers and tell them why done they let us to complete our project first then we can write a report.i think proposal and final report is enough.no need for progress or something that sound like that.busy with FYP also busy with other courses.of course when we mention it to those that really love work they will said my time management is fail but if we think another way,it is not my time management problem.i need to go to the class,do assignment,class exercises,course project,test n FYP.so many reason huh...but still i feel very lazy to do my FYP.

LIFE?
student life is a normal life.wake up in the morning, prepare to class,eating, sleeping,assignment,test and stay up at nite is a normal for everyone who have a student title.i love to become a student but when it come to assignment, i really hate it.of course assignment is good to test our knowledge level but if there are so many assignment in one time, i can't take it.when i was during in the school i love to sit in the class and listen to the teacher but now i feel very boring.come to the lecture will be fun if the lecturers know how to teach but sometimes lecture hour is like a nightmare for me.so boring and sometimes i feel sleepy during class but still can control myself not to sleep.

current issues?
not really care about the current issues.reason?because each time watch news or read newspaper, it always talk about plotics.what a boring issues.why those people owez not satisfies.if it already settle juz let it be n please give those people to show their performance.if they perform bad then we can shout out our opinion.but what to do.human always not satisfies with everything and have a high PHD(PERASAAN HASAD DENGKI).

holiday!!!

today is my third day in UTP after mid semester break.what a busy day[actually it is my own fault...].i haven't touch anything that related to my academic during my holiday[well,holiday is holiday].when I reached UTP on sunday evening, I started to make myself busy because on monday nite i got test.so many thing to do..KMT?SM?ADBS?FYP? all need my attention.i'm very lazy to do it.hehehe..forget about those thing.just wanna share my one week holiday story....

so happy going back home.really miss my home n my mum cooking.when i reached home, i straightly went to the kitchen and search for food.it is around 10pm at nite.i ate a lot because my mum cook my favourite dishes that is "sambal belacan" and "sardin goreng".hehehe.after finish eating, i sat in the living room with my siblings n cousin and we have a chat until 2 am.just a nonsense chat.two cousin stayed with us during this one week school holiday.actually their reason were to stay at my grandma house but actually it is their lovely aunty house.both of them are boy.that mean during the holiday i have 7 brothers instead of 5.it make me n my mum very headache.morning they waste their time in front of TV n PC.afternoon after lunch they slept or sometimes make a stupid joke.evening around 5pm went to football field n went home around 7pm.8.30 pm -10 they had a kompang practise[there will be a wedding ceremony at the nearby area].then 1030 until 12 or 1 am went to either futsal court or badminton court or sepak takraw court.so active but very lazy.they know i was there to help my mum do a cleaning, wash clothes and everything.sometimes i want to kick them but what to do they are my brothers.my youngest sister?no comment.all she know is nagging.bla bla bla...

there are two big hypermarket open in Kuching.before this Kuching only have supermarket.i grab this opportunity to explore these hypermarket since i love window shopping.the Boulevard n the spring.but there only a few no. of shop open since it is new.hahahha.

most of my time i just spent in my home.watch tv n just relax at my home n play around with my siblings n cats.very lazy to walk around since my frenz busy with their lecture.but it is good so i can save my money.hahahaha.

think need to stop first since i must do my work