DEATH... One word but can bring mix feeling. Some people might be scared of the word, some will be sad, some will be happy, some speechless, some only can wish condolence, for some people, the news will shocked them to death...
6PM Yesterday I got call from home and I already prepared for any news. This is because my family & I already set a standard, for a normal calling, either me or my family will call each other between 8 - 9 pm. If my family call me at other time, it means 2 things..either it is bad news or good news. but for yesterday, am 100% confidence it is a bad news because for the last 2 mths, we only talked about my uncle.So, yesterday, the moment I heard my sister voice(crying voice), I already knew the news.My uncle pass away after a long battle with the cancer. AL-FATIHAH. My condolence also to my friend Huyen (Vietnam).For the past 2 mths I also keep updated with her father condition after I read from her blog. Then this morning, I got news that her father pass away.RIP.
For the last 25 yrs, I am loss many people that I love. But the most sad thing ever is when I loss my cousin in 2002. He is the most best cousin that we had. Everyone in our families + non-families love him so much but God loves him more than us. Then a year after that, I loss my grandpa.In 2008, it is the year that we son't want to remember. We lost many family member.we lost our Grandma(she died on my mum bday), my uncle (mum's brother), my cousin grandma(my dad auntie), my cousin(7 days after my dad auntie), other families member... so many death in the same year really hurt our families.
Movie : In Time
Forget about the loss...Am happen to watch new Justin Timberlake's movie, In Time. It is a very good story. We always heard that "Time is precious", "don't waste time" etc. but did we really take it seriously? This movie open our eyes on how precious the time is. Luckily it just in the movie. What if in the real world, everything we do/buy must be paid with time? Am I willing to pay for my cup of coffee with 3 hrs of my life? Am I willing to pay all my bills with my life? If this really happen am sure am no longer exist in this world right now.In the other view, it is nice to know that we only have a certain limit of time and we know when we will died. Well Done to the movie team for such a good movie.
LIFE IS SHORT...as a human being, we just appreciate what we have. Until now I still can't get the answer why human tend to be greedy, hurt others feeling, backstab each other etc. although they know, at the end of the day, those bad thing they do will effect their future.
End of the update....
Saturday, October 29, 2011
Sunday, October 9, 2011
What I've learn for the past 25 years of my life
am surprise with myself this 2 days...yesterday morning am doing a crazy thinking and today morning also my mind also force me to have a thinking exercise. why am too eager to b a thinker? question that I ask to myself with no answer. the only answer I can give is, since am wake up early this morning and watch TV , so, my mind also working so hard...hahhahaha
The Value of Family & Friendship
They are the person that will be by our side when the world againts us. They are the best medicine for all the disease. Although sometime they seems not to care our well being, actually deep inside their heart, they still care for us. People always say Love is Blind. that's true.If we love someone, doesn't mean we need to show it publicly. Just by seeing the person we love happy & healthy is enough.
THANK YOU TO MY FAMILIES & FRIENDS who always being there with me for the past 25 years
What You Give, You Get Back
although sometimes it looks like we are waiting for ages, just believe that all the good deeds that we do will be paid. Am curious why people always betray and doing something bad to the others. Why they didn't think of the consequences in the future. If it not back to them, it will affected their families. I also get hurt when people betray my trust and back stab me. sometimes I almost give up with my life principle (what you give you get back), but thanks to those who always there by my side.
Love Doesn't mean we will be together forever
I talk about Love as general here. Eventhough we love people with full of our heart, we need to be prepared for the separation.I love my grandparent, but I need to face the fact that God loves them more.Al-Fatihah to all people that I love but no longer with me now.As for working environment.You love your job very much but then when the times come, you need to leave your love behind in order to advance your career. I love my hometown & my family, but I need to leave them for my future. I love my friend but sometimes I need to let them go when they are going to start a new life.
Life teach me a lot about love. Love is exist and so do the separation. If we are not destined to be together with the person we love, just tell ourselves that we will be receiving another love. Do not give up on love.
You Yourself is the PROBLEM not others
I always told myself this whenever I was caught in trouble. That's why my life is so simple. Today is the solution of yesterday problem. If we blame others for the trouble we got, let think it carefully again. If we keep blame others, the problem will not be solved ASAP. People always think am crazy when I always say "Sorry" for the mistake made by others. Am not doing it bcoz I want to look good / well manner person in front of others but it really my mistake.Everything will be okay if am doing my best.
THANK YOU
It is a simple word but people feel difficult to say it. Why? Ego..that the best word. although that person only just a toilet cleaner, we need to say thank you to them. am not sure about other people, but I already get used with the word Thank You until recently when I was live in the condo with my friend. I am not even say 1 thank you word to the condo guard. Why? bcoz they are very annoying.the previous security guard I always smile and thankx to them but the new appointed security guard agency piss me off.am not feel guilty of not saying thank you to them.but to others except that security guard, I'll say thank you
need to stop for now coz am going to go to the supermarket to buy some grocery for the next one week.
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The Value of Family & Friendship
They are the person that will be by our side when the world againts us. They are the best medicine for all the disease. Although sometime they seems not to care our well being, actually deep inside their heart, they still care for us. People always say Love is Blind. that's true.If we love someone, doesn't mean we need to show it publicly. Just by seeing the person we love happy & healthy is enough.
THANK YOU TO MY FAMILIES & FRIENDS who always being there with me for the past 25 years
What You Give, You Get Back
although sometimes it looks like we are waiting for ages, just believe that all the good deeds that we do will be paid. Am curious why people always betray and doing something bad to the others. Why they didn't think of the consequences in the future. If it not back to them, it will affected their families. I also get hurt when people betray my trust and back stab me. sometimes I almost give up with my life principle (what you give you get back), but thanks to those who always there by my side.
Love Doesn't mean we will be together forever
I talk about Love as general here. Eventhough we love people with full of our heart, we need to be prepared for the separation.I love my grandparent, but I need to face the fact that God loves them more.Al-Fatihah to all people that I love but no longer with me now.As for working environment.You love your job very much but then when the times come, you need to leave your love behind in order to advance your career. I love my hometown & my family, but I need to leave them for my future. I love my friend but sometimes I need to let them go when they are going to start a new life.
Life teach me a lot about love. Love is exist and so do the separation. If we are not destined to be together with the person we love, just tell ourselves that we will be receiving another love. Do not give up on love.
You Yourself is the PROBLEM not others
I always told myself this whenever I was caught in trouble. That's why my life is so simple. Today is the solution of yesterday problem. If we blame others for the trouble we got, let think it carefully again. If we keep blame others, the problem will not be solved ASAP. People always think am crazy when I always say "Sorry" for the mistake made by others. Am not doing it bcoz I want to look good / well manner person in front of others but it really my mistake.Everything will be okay if am doing my best.
THANK YOU
It is a simple word but people feel difficult to say it. Why? Ego..that the best word. although that person only just a toilet cleaner, we need to say thank you to them. am not sure about other people, but I already get used with the word Thank You until recently when I was live in the condo with my friend. I am not even say 1 thank you word to the condo guard. Why? bcoz they are very annoying.the previous security guard I always smile and thankx to them but the new appointed security guard agency piss me off.am not feel guilty of not saying thank you to them.but to others except that security guard, I'll say thank you
need to stop for now coz am going to go to the supermarket to buy some grocery for the next one week.
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Saturday, October 8, 2011
My Crazy Thinking on my own life and the Treatment
Its been a long time since my last update. nothing much to update since my life is full of love (hahaha...love here doesn' mean am in love, but I just receiving to much love from my surrounding)
am just back from my department Education Trip @ ClubMed Cherating yesterday. my body so tired. many thing i've tried from Kayak, volleyball, archery, ping pong, squash etc. Night enjoy the movie + the party time.. it looks like am having a lot of fun until I hurt the whole body (my body told me to let it take a rest). But am a bad person. today am having some fun.am gonna go to watch the movie "The Three Musketeer". Oh, one more thing, today I also want to window shopping for a new smartphone (actually it not call window shopping since I've got one in my mind)
Ok, let's summarize all the update (since I love to lump sum all the update in one update...hahhaha)
FRIENDSHIP
Up and down.sometimes am questioning myself, am I really a good frenz?I love all my BFF but I got some issue here.some of them doesn't know each other (coz, I got BFF from Primary School, Secondary School, University & Working).Hurt one BFF in order to comfort other BFF hurt me very much.when am in that condition I owez questioning myself why am I too close with them. Let they just be a normal friend.but then, I couldn't help myself to close to all of them.
My own solution: Pray to God & read Quran.Everytime when I get hurt/ feel sad towards friendship, I'll back to my family.am not telling the story to them. Its just I will talk to them and asking what are they up to. Thanks to Twitter & FB. as for my mum & dad, I'll call them once in every 3 days.
TOO POSITIVE CHARACTER
am I a normal person? the longest time I can get angry or being a bad person is only 5 Mins. after that, the guilty feeling will haunted me and it will go away after I met the person that I feel angry with and talk to them. why some people have grudge and revenge towards each other for a long time and sometimes take a year & worst case for the rest of their life. Is it because am always thinking that life is simple. I get caught in trouble/ big problem today and the moment I wake up tomorrow morning everything will go well. am I too positive inn everything & trusted people so easily eventhough b4 that that people gave me so much pain.
My Own Solution: I owez told myself "nevermind, everything will be ok". I owez believe, if you do good thing you will get reward(although sometimes it is so painful for a long waiting) and if you do bad thing, you will be cursed for the rest of your life.hahahaha...look, how kind I am as a human being(crazy thinking)
LOVE
Best question ever.But I owez got the best answer. Yeah, I fall in love with....my FAMILY, foods, books, etc. then those who asking will yell at me & told me that's not what they asking for. Actually am already boring with these kind of question. who don't want to be loved and fall in love. It's all about time. When the time come, I will find my true love. for some people it is a crazy thing when I told them, my heart will told me that i am in love & am still waiting for my true love. they will told me don't "jual mahal" or "you must search for it not just waiting".i have my own dream on how my love should be although for the adult it sound like an impossible fairy tale. but for me, "if I believe in myself & my dream, I will have my own fairy tale." who knows, my love story will be a hit or top headline in the world.(again, crazy thinking in the early morning)
My own treatment : Just life the way I am now. when the time come, I hope everyone happy with my love fairy tales because it will make a top headline in the world.hahahhaha...
HOBBIES
B4 this I owez have a typical hobby that is reading.hahaha..but for the past 5 mths, am start asking myself, what is my hobby.i got mix hobbies. while reading, I will listening to music. while watching TV, I will surf the Internet.While watching muvie, I will busy texting.while window shopping, I will busy analyze people character.I even create a dialog for them. While observing people around me, I will busy reading the books and try to mix the reading with my observation.while listening to music, my mind also start to think the dance step n sometime without my control, I am dance to the song.when i read about cooking, i want to cook.when am read about animal, i want to have pet etc. (another crazy thinking)
My own treatment:Let's just do everything that we want to do. If feel tired, just stop doing that and daydreaming.hahhahahahha...
ALONE
Sometimes, when I give up & loss hope in my life, I am prefer to be alone. When am tired of being too positive, I prefer to be alone.When am having to much fun with all my friend & family, I will find a day to be alone. when i want to watch a movie that i want to watch but my friend didn' like it or no one to accompany me, i will juz watch that muvie alone.window shopping or shopping for my own thing, i prefer to be alone.but if my friend want me to accompany them, I will happily join them. Sometime, when people saw me alone by myself, I owez told them, it is not because am not having any friend to hang out with.It just sometimes I need to be alone.
My own treatment: Let people think what they want to think. am still myself and that people still who they are. Unless if they get paid to think about me, I will ask for my royalty. Am not going to make them rich for think about me while am not getting anything...
OMG....already 10am...need to prepare.am going to watch a movie today. The Three Musketeer...I will update more on my life in another update.hahahhaha
Background Music while typing:
Good Good Time by Koyote
Hello by Huh Gak
Next to you by Chris Brown ft Justin Bieber
Price Tag by Jessie J
Mr Simple by SuperJunior
Ugly + Lonely + I don't care by 2EN1
Berdua Bersatu by Fourteen
Smile by Avril Lavign
Tiga Kata by KRU
Losing My Mind by Lee Seung Gi
Who Say by Selena Gomez
Show Me the Meaning of Being Lonely by BackstreetBoy
I have a Dream + Flying without wing + World of our own + All my Love by Westlife
----------------End of update : 08102011-----------
am just back from my department Education Trip @ ClubMed Cherating yesterday. my body so tired. many thing i've tried from Kayak, volleyball, archery, ping pong, squash etc. Night enjoy the movie + the party time.. it looks like am having a lot of fun until I hurt the whole body (my body told me to let it take a rest). But am a bad person. today am having some fun.am gonna go to watch the movie "The Three Musketeer". Oh, one more thing, today I also want to window shopping for a new smartphone (actually it not call window shopping since I've got one in my mind)
Ok, let's summarize all the update (since I love to lump sum all the update in one update...hahhaha)
FRIENDSHIP
Up and down.sometimes am questioning myself, am I really a good frenz?I love all my BFF but I got some issue here.some of them doesn't know each other (coz, I got BFF from Primary School, Secondary School, University & Working).Hurt one BFF in order to comfort other BFF hurt me very much.when am in that condition I owez questioning myself why am I too close with them. Let they just be a normal friend.but then, I couldn't help myself to close to all of them.
My own solution: Pray to God & read Quran.Everytime when I get hurt/ feel sad towards friendship, I'll back to my family.am not telling the story to them. Its just I will talk to them and asking what are they up to. Thanks to Twitter & FB. as for my mum & dad, I'll call them once in every 3 days.
TOO POSITIVE CHARACTER
am I a normal person? the longest time I can get angry or being a bad person is only 5 Mins. after that, the guilty feeling will haunted me and it will go away after I met the person that I feel angry with and talk to them. why some people have grudge and revenge towards each other for a long time and sometimes take a year & worst case for the rest of their life. Is it because am always thinking that life is simple. I get caught in trouble/ big problem today and the moment I wake up tomorrow morning everything will go well. am I too positive inn everything & trusted people so easily eventhough b4 that that people gave me so much pain.
My Own Solution: I owez told myself "nevermind, everything will be ok". I owez believe, if you do good thing you will get reward(although sometimes it is so painful for a long waiting) and if you do bad thing, you will be cursed for the rest of your life.hahahaha...look, how kind I am as a human being(crazy thinking)
LOVE
Best question ever.But I owez got the best answer. Yeah, I fall in love with....my FAMILY, foods, books, etc. then those who asking will yell at me & told me that's not what they asking for. Actually am already boring with these kind of question. who don't want to be loved and fall in love. It's all about time. When the time come, I will find my true love. for some people it is a crazy thing when I told them, my heart will told me that i am in love & am still waiting for my true love. they will told me don't "jual mahal" or "you must search for it not just waiting".i have my own dream on how my love should be although for the adult it sound like an impossible fairy tale. but for me, "if I believe in myself & my dream, I will have my own fairy tale." who knows, my love story will be a hit or top headline in the world.(again, crazy thinking in the early morning)
My own treatment : Just life the way I am now. when the time come, I hope everyone happy with my love fairy tales because it will make a top headline in the world.hahahhaha...
HOBBIES
B4 this I owez have a typical hobby that is reading.hahaha..but for the past 5 mths, am start asking myself, what is my hobby.i got mix hobbies. while reading, I will listening to music. while watching TV, I will surf the Internet.While watching muvie, I will busy texting.while window shopping, I will busy analyze people character.I even create a dialog for them. While observing people around me, I will busy reading the books and try to mix the reading with my observation.while listening to music, my mind also start to think the dance step n sometime without my control, I am dance to the song.when i read about cooking, i want to cook.when am read about animal, i want to have pet etc. (another crazy thinking)
My own treatment:Let's just do everything that we want to do. If feel tired, just stop doing that and daydreaming.hahhahahahha...
ALONE
Sometimes, when I give up & loss hope in my life, I am prefer to be alone. When am tired of being too positive, I prefer to be alone.When am having to much fun with all my friend & family, I will find a day to be alone. when i want to watch a movie that i want to watch but my friend didn' like it or no one to accompany me, i will juz watch that muvie alone.window shopping or shopping for my own thing, i prefer to be alone.but if my friend want me to accompany them, I will happily join them. Sometime, when people saw me alone by myself, I owez told them, it is not because am not having any friend to hang out with.It just sometimes I need to be alone.
My own treatment: Let people think what they want to think. am still myself and that people still who they are. Unless if they get paid to think about me, I will ask for my royalty. Am not going to make them rich for think about me while am not getting anything...
OMG....already 10am...need to prepare.am going to watch a movie today. The Three Musketeer...I will update more on my life in another update.hahahhaha
Background Music while typing:
Good Good Time by Koyote
Hello by Huh Gak
Next to you by Chris Brown ft Justin Bieber
Price Tag by Jessie J
Mr Simple by SuperJunior
Ugly + Lonely + I don't care by 2EN1
Berdua Bersatu by Fourteen
Smile by Avril Lavign
Tiga Kata by KRU
Losing My Mind by Lee Seung Gi
Who Say by Selena Gomez
Show Me the Meaning of Being Lonely by BackstreetBoy
I have a Dream + Flying without wing + World of our own + All my Love by Westlife
----------------End of update : 08102011-----------
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