15 April is my cousin,Norafidah bday.but like the past 9 years, i still doesn't have chance to wish her.i don't know why,among all my cousins i only care about her.maybe because we growed up together until at the age of 12.then after finish our primary school, i got an offer to continue my study in boarding school n left her behind.then a few month after that, her family move to Kuching then we lost contact until I was form 4 when i decided to go to daily school.my mum told me she engaged.first i was surprised because that time she just 16 but then i think back that I should happy for her.I really missed her.
during our childhood time we share everything together.I still remember during our kindergarden time, both of us help the teacher to clean up the class early in morning and after class.then in primary school we also stick together although we are in different class.we went back home together, run from our class to bus station to catch the last bus and went to canteen with other friend.in term of study,i only can discuss our homework together but sometimes she don't want to finish her work and play.i know that time she hate study but she enjoy come to school.i always remind her to do her work but she only take note on it if she felt boring to hear the same word from me.
It is lie if we're not quarel.sometimes we disagree with something and we will shout at each other.but the next day we will be like a sister again.forgot to tell.both of us are the eldest in our family but compare to her,i'm very lucky(not to show off but its true).sometimes i saw her cried under manggo tree in front of our house.its very painful when heard her scream when her mum or dad scold her and beat her.(it is normal during our time when mum n dad beat us with hanger or 'rotan').but then she recover by herself.i can't help because that time i afraid of my parent.i still remember one day her father tied her at their house pillar.she cry and shout but then i can't help her and i can see her from my house window.her dad very fierce and even my mum threat to do the same to me if i help her.but that is a history.beside those bad memories we enjoy much during that age.
today, my 10 times miss happy birthday wish to her.i heard she got married last year.then i haven't heard any news from her even i can't contact her number.actually all our family members do not know the current condition of her family.after move to kuching, my uncle rarely comes to visit us and we also rarely visit them.her house doesn't have phone and even her family do not know where she lives with her husband.I really miss her.hope she has a happy life and her husband loves her like her family loves her.i want to wish her HAPPY BIRTHDAY.the reason is because she is my very best cousin.Beside her I also love one more cousin but he died in 2002 in accident then since then i loss someone that i can trust to keep my secret.why not other cousin?maybe because i only knew them at the minimum age of 12years old and then we not really often met each other.i also got one more cousin at my mum side that same age like me n norafidah but i can't get along with them because they only look for people with high class level while i'm just a middle level for them.even their family not really like the other family member that they think not at the same level with them.but i don't care because i know they look high class outside but they not live a happy life.they hide it but i knew it cause i know all their family secret.
Hope next year i got chance to wish and spend more time with my best cousin.if nothing happen, i will finish my study at the end of this year.i really want to see her and talk to her like we did during our childhood.
16 April, my best friend during primary school birthday.She is Nur Juliana bt Azlan.same like norafidah, i also miss a chance to wish her Happy birthday,include this year it is 10 years.last time i saw her during our last day of primary school.then during secondary school, we separate for the same reason like Norafidah case.but i still remember her until now and try searching for her.miss the time together.
18 April, my best roommate during secondary school birthday.Rasyidah.she now in UITM SA
26 April,my best roomate during secondary school birthday.Sofia Maggie.for three continious week is our birthday week.week 1,syidah,week 2 sofia n week 3 my birthday.that make three of us unique as a roommate that time.
30 April,my friend that i knew since foundation year birthday.She is Fiera and now she is my room neighbour.hahahahha.she now busy with her work same like me but she is more clever n hardworking than me.
so many people birthday in April.i Got few more date n name to write but forgot their real bday date.hehehhe.....
better stop now since very lazy to type.
Tuesday, April 15, 2008
Thursday, April 10, 2008
busy n stress time
Things need to be done before end of April
- SM, HRM, KMT,ADBS Project
- SM Assignment
- FYP Seminar,Interim Report, Final Presentation
- Test 2: HRM,ADBS,SM
Arrgggg....very2 busy n tension.dunno which one to be settle first.all these work make me feel like vormitting.why always gave work during last minutes times...i admit that sometimes it student fault for doing everything last minutes but we still know how to manage our time.but this time, i feel like i want to run away from everything. I really2 hate it.because if i hate all this tension and busy thing, it end up i become more lazy to do anything.arghhhhh....two more weeks to go before final exam n we still busy with all these projects, assignment n presentation.
Tuesday, April 1, 2008
1 Litre of Tears
"If I were a flower, then now I would be a bud.
I shall treasure the beginning of my youth without any regrets.
This disease, why did it choose me?
Fate. It can't be put into words.
I want to make a time machine and go back in time.
If it wasn't for this disease,not only I could enjoy falling in love but I alsowouldn’t have to rely on anyone and live by myself.
I really don't want to say things such as 'I want to go back to how things were before.
'I recognize how I am right now, and I will continue to live on.
Therefore I definitely won't run away.
That's what I’ll do.
Definitely, always.
Even if it's like that, I still want to stay here.
because this is the place where I am.
If you look up at the sky after falling down the blue sky is also todaystretching limitlessly and smiles at me...
I'm alive.
People shouldn’t dwell on the past.
It's enough to try your best in all that you're doing now.
Reality is too cruel, too brutal.
I don’t even have the right to dream.
As i think about the future, the tears will come out again."
that is some of the part of diary written by Aya Ikeuchi. This proved her courage and positive attitude towards an uncertain future when suffering such an illness, spinocerebellar ataxia. It such a sad story. Actually I already watched this Japanese drama in 2006 after i heard about a positive review towards this drama.beside that, I also interested with something that taken from the real life. 1 Litre of Tears.This is based on the true story of the girl who still not lose hope with life eventhough she knews that she has not much time to live.To my surprise, this is the first drama series that make me cry since the first episode and the last episode is even worse.i never thought i will cry that serious.
why i choose this as my blog topics?
suddenly when i was busy doing my assignment i heard the drama theme song from my friend PC.then it automatically remind me of this drama.b4 this i always get mad and tense when faced many workload.then i realize, it is not that much since i still can have an opportunity to finish it.each work given will have a solution.but what if i faced a situation where there is no solution n it involved our life.even a small thing we cannot handle, how we will handle the big thing that involved life and death.this make me think again.i should be grateful with my life and enjoy it no matter how hard it is.when i read many times the sentence that i paste above, it gave me a spirit.
it make me think if i was in her place, will i be that strong?will i write these kind of sentence and inspire people not to give up in life? what a wonderful girl she is.she knows her conditions but she still want to live like a normal people.her family also very good.they gave support to her.make her laugh and happy until at the end of her life.
I shall treasure the beginning of my youth without any regrets.
This disease, why did it choose me?
Fate. It can't be put into words.
I want to make a time machine and go back in time.
If it wasn't for this disease,not only I could enjoy falling in love but I alsowouldn’t have to rely on anyone and live by myself.
I really don't want to say things such as 'I want to go back to how things were before.
'I recognize how I am right now, and I will continue to live on.
Therefore I definitely won't run away.
That's what I’ll do.
Definitely, always.
Even if it's like that, I still want to stay here.
because this is the place where I am.
If you look up at the sky after falling down the blue sky is also todaystretching limitlessly and smiles at me...
I'm alive.
People shouldn’t dwell on the past.
It's enough to try your best in all that you're doing now.
Reality is too cruel, too brutal.
I don’t even have the right to dream.
As i think about the future, the tears will come out again."
that is some of the part of diary written by Aya Ikeuchi. This proved her courage and positive attitude towards an uncertain future when suffering such an illness, spinocerebellar ataxia. It such a sad story. Actually I already watched this Japanese drama in 2006 after i heard about a positive review towards this drama.beside that, I also interested with something that taken from the real life. 1 Litre of Tears.This is based on the true story of the girl who still not lose hope with life eventhough she knews that she has not much time to live.To my surprise, this is the first drama series that make me cry since the first episode and the last episode is even worse.i never thought i will cry that serious.
why i choose this as my blog topics?
suddenly when i was busy doing my assignment i heard the drama theme song from my friend PC.then it automatically remind me of this drama.b4 this i always get mad and tense when faced many workload.then i realize, it is not that much since i still can have an opportunity to finish it.each work given will have a solution.but what if i faced a situation where there is no solution n it involved our life.even a small thing we cannot handle, how we will handle the big thing that involved life and death.this make me think again.i should be grateful with my life and enjoy it no matter how hard it is.when i read many times the sentence that i paste above, it gave me a spirit.
it make me think if i was in her place, will i be that strong?will i write these kind of sentence and inspire people not to give up in life? what a wonderful girl she is.she knows her conditions but she still want to live like a normal people.her family also very good.they gave support to her.make her laugh and happy until at the end of her life.
Monday, March 31, 2008
What a lazy day.long time haven't update my blog.don't know why.maybe because lately i had been infected by some kind of disease that is not available in the medical dictionary...."malas yg terlampau"......hahahha..so dangerous the virus in this era...even the ancestor will become confuse when heard about that kind of virus...ok..here my notes for tonite
tonite i got time to write something on my blog since this evening i had attack a new virus..."kerajinan yg terlampau" after listening the song "Hanya di Mercu" by Ayu OIAM2.why?because suddenly the lyric attract my attention.donno why today because i already listen to this song many time ....
student life?
starting from thursday evening, i felt release after complete my "1st world war=>test n quiz". but on thursday also is the starting date for the "2nd world war=>SM assignment".actually it is simple task that is interview a company.but what make it my 2nd world war is we must find a big company that have a workers more than 100(branch not include...need the main office n headquarter).then we need to interview them n the project presentation is on the first week of may.i really hate it.not less than a month n where we should search for a big company in a small ipoh town.but wat to do.i'm a student n must bear to take this responsibility.4get about that 2nd worldwar.here i also got a "universe war=>FYP"...arrrrrggggghhhh...really headache.got so many report n i hate writing report without completing the project. so stressful but each time i'm stress new virus attack me that is "overhappiness".anyway that is the reality of student life.got sweet,sour,hot,salty n so many taste.
current issues?
today one issue in newspaper attract my attention.its about Suffiah Yusuf, a malaysian girl who entered an Oxford University at the age of 13 becoz she genius in mathematic.its not a news that can be proud of.After read about it, now i think i must be grateful because i'm just a normal people.wat a tragedy.when people heard about her ability, they will imagine her bright future life.but now, her life is a tragedy.after run away from oxford at the age of 15,then married at the early age of 19 n now the latest new about her is she advertise her "body service" via internet.what a shame.i can't imagine how her family felt when they read about her.wat a sad story.before this when i was in school, i was jealous of her because she got a place in one of the famous university in the world at young age.but she not really appreciate this opportunity.i feel sorry for her.its all end up like this.i just hope she will realize that she cannot do like that because she got talent and she should use it properly.
Others
1. miss my family.so relief after call my family.
2. this thursday got data mining quiz
3.now i addicted to korean series.last korean series i watched was the sad sonata in 2006.then i stop watched korean series because i addicted to english,indonesian n philiphines series.then i addicted back to korean series after watching coffee prince.then surprisingly now i also add malay series as one of my favourite collection.it all starting with dunia baru season one.but not really addicted like korean n english.the best malay series for me at this time are manjalara(even i hate the ending),sindarela,Bella and mostly the series that air on TV3.it is a good improvement for malaysian program.even Jangan Pandang Belakang film went to singapore and philiphines.keep it up guys.if u all produce good local product, I will support it....but if i addicted more to outside product, don't be mad k.
think need to stop now.why? because i need to finish my FYP progress report.need to submit it tomorrow.before the "kemalasan melamapau" virus attack me, better i prepare the antibodi for it.
here the song
Hanya Di Mercu
Mimpi dan harapan bagaikan duri yg mencengkam
tak pernah terluahkan hanyalah di hati tersimpan
terpendam
keterbatasan diriku menjadi penghalang
sampai bila aku bertanya sampai bila
ku harus mencoba
bila lagi resah hatiku bila lagi
aku harus berani
lalu ku bangkit tegak berdiri
mengatur langkahku terus mendaki
cita2ku di mercu
mimpi dan harapan
cita-cita yang tinggi
menjulang
seandainya ku biar cita2 di hati tersimpan terpendam
keterbatasan tak akan menjadi penghalang
sampai bila aku bertanya sampai bila
ku harus mencoba
bila lagi resah hatiku bila lagi
aku harus berani
lalu ku bangkit tegak berdiri
mengatur langkahku terus mendaki
cita2ku di mercu
aku mencari kekuatan dalam kelemahan
aku temui kejayaan dalam keberanian
sampai bila aku bertanya sampai bilaku harus mencobabila lagi resah hatiku bila lagiaku harus beranilalu ku bangkit tegak berdirimengatur langkahku terus mendakicita2ku di mercu
tonite i got time to write something on my blog since this evening i had attack a new virus..."kerajinan yg terlampau" after listening the song "Hanya di Mercu" by Ayu OIAM2.why?because suddenly the lyric attract my attention.donno why today because i already listen to this song many time ....
student life?
starting from thursday evening, i felt release after complete my "1st world war=>test n quiz". but on thursday also is the starting date for the "2nd world war=>SM assignment".actually it is simple task that is interview a company.but what make it my 2nd world war is we must find a big company that have a workers more than 100(branch not include...need the main office n headquarter).then we need to interview them n the project presentation is on the first week of may.i really hate it.not less than a month n where we should search for a big company in a small ipoh town.but wat to do.i'm a student n must bear to take this responsibility.4get about that 2nd worldwar.here i also got a "universe war=>FYP"...arrrrrggggghhhh...really headache.got so many report n i hate writing report without completing the project. so stressful but each time i'm stress new virus attack me that is "overhappiness".anyway that is the reality of student life.got sweet,sour,hot,salty n so many taste.
current issues?
today one issue in newspaper attract my attention.its about Suffiah Yusuf, a malaysian girl who entered an Oxford University at the age of 13 becoz she genius in mathematic.its not a news that can be proud of.After read about it, now i think i must be grateful because i'm just a normal people.wat a tragedy.when people heard about her ability, they will imagine her bright future life.but now, her life is a tragedy.after run away from oxford at the age of 15,then married at the early age of 19 n now the latest new about her is she advertise her "body service" via internet.what a shame.i can't imagine how her family felt when they read about her.wat a sad story.before this when i was in school, i was jealous of her because she got a place in one of the famous university in the world at young age.but she not really appreciate this opportunity.i feel sorry for her.its all end up like this.i just hope she will realize that she cannot do like that because she got talent and she should use it properly.
Others
1. miss my family.so relief after call my family.
2. this thursday got data mining quiz
3.now i addicted to korean series.last korean series i watched was the sad sonata in 2006.then i stop watched korean series because i addicted to english,indonesian n philiphines series.then i addicted back to korean series after watching coffee prince.then surprisingly now i also add malay series as one of my favourite collection.it all starting with dunia baru season one.but not really addicted like korean n english.the best malay series for me at this time are manjalara(even i hate the ending),sindarela,Bella and mostly the series that air on TV3.it is a good improvement for malaysian program.even Jangan Pandang Belakang film went to singapore and philiphines.keep it up guys.if u all produce good local product, I will support it....but if i addicted more to outside product, don't be mad k.
think need to stop now.why? because i need to finish my FYP progress report.need to submit it tomorrow.before the "kemalasan melamapau" virus attack me, better i prepare the antibodi for it.
here the song
Hanya Di Mercu
Mimpi dan harapan bagaikan duri yg mencengkam
tak pernah terluahkan hanyalah di hati tersimpan
terpendam
keterbatasan diriku menjadi penghalang
sampai bila aku bertanya sampai bila
ku harus mencoba
bila lagi resah hatiku bila lagi
aku harus berani
lalu ku bangkit tegak berdiri
mengatur langkahku terus mendaki
cita2ku di mercu
mimpi dan harapan
cita-cita yang tinggi
menjulang
seandainya ku biar cita2 di hati tersimpan terpendam
keterbatasan tak akan menjadi penghalang
sampai bila aku bertanya sampai bila
ku harus mencoba
bila lagi resah hatiku bila lagi
aku harus berani
lalu ku bangkit tegak berdiri
mengatur langkahku terus mendaki
cita2ku di mercu
aku mencari kekuatan dalam kelemahan
aku temui kejayaan dalam keberanian
sampai bila aku bertanya sampai bilaku harus mencobabila lagi resah hatiku bila lagiaku harus beranilalu ku bangkit tegak berdirimengatur langkahku terus mendakicita2ku di mercu
Tuesday, March 25, 2008
MY NOTEZ!!!
Long time havent write something in my blog.I was busy with assignment and test.today i manage to steal a time to update a blog since i feel i want to explode due to many workload.finish one work another work come in.before this i blame myself for being someone that always waste a time and do these work during last minutes time.but recently i realise that it is not my fault.some task that given by a lecturer need time for me to understand it and some task need me to ask my lovely uncle google and aunty Yahoo! to help me search for the references.of course uncle Google and Aunty Yahoo! not help me much.now i was busy with my HRM assignment.I type the 'interview and HRM' keyword.uncle Google give me an advance answer.it good but the problem is some of the answer not related to what i want.this make me feel like to shout out.i really hate when people asked me to search for article because it takes time and always end up with nothing.i think uncle google and aunty Yahoo! should work hard to improve their searching performance.
FYP?
what a nightmare.recently i feel very lazy to do my FYP.i hate to write a report before i complete my work.but for this FYP got so many report to be done like preliminary report, progress report, interim report and final report.then also got seminar 1 n 2 n the final presentation.i really hate all these process.sometimes i feel like to see the lecturers and tell them why done they let us to complete our project first then we can write a report.i think proposal and final report is enough.no need for progress or something that sound like that.busy with FYP also busy with other courses.of course when we mention it to those that really love work they will said my time management is fail but if we think another way,it is not my time management problem.i need to go to the class,do assignment,class exercises,course project,test n FYP.so many reason huh...but still i feel very lazy to do my FYP.
LIFE?
student life is a normal life.wake up in the morning, prepare to class,eating, sleeping,assignment,test and stay up at nite is a normal for everyone who have a student title.i love to become a student but when it come to assignment, i really hate it.of course assignment is good to test our knowledge level but if there are so many assignment in one time, i can't take it.when i was during in the school i love to sit in the class and listen to the teacher but now i feel very boring.come to the lecture will be fun if the lecturers know how to teach but sometimes lecture hour is like a nightmare for me.so boring and sometimes i feel sleepy during class but still can control myself not to sleep.
current issues?
not really care about the current issues.reason?because each time watch news or read newspaper, it always talk about plotics.what a boring issues.why those people owez not satisfies.if it already settle juz let it be n please give those people to show their performance.if they perform bad then we can shout out our opinion.but what to do.human always not satisfies with everything and have a high PHD(PERASAAN HASAD DENGKI).
FYP?
what a nightmare.recently i feel very lazy to do my FYP.i hate to write a report before i complete my work.but for this FYP got so many report to be done like preliminary report, progress report, interim report and final report.then also got seminar 1 n 2 n the final presentation.i really hate all these process.sometimes i feel like to see the lecturers and tell them why done they let us to complete our project first then we can write a report.i think proposal and final report is enough.no need for progress or something that sound like that.busy with FYP also busy with other courses.of course when we mention it to those that really love work they will said my time management is fail but if we think another way,it is not my time management problem.i need to go to the class,do assignment,class exercises,course project,test n FYP.so many reason huh...but still i feel very lazy to do my FYP.
LIFE?
student life is a normal life.wake up in the morning, prepare to class,eating, sleeping,assignment,test and stay up at nite is a normal for everyone who have a student title.i love to become a student but when it come to assignment, i really hate it.of course assignment is good to test our knowledge level but if there are so many assignment in one time, i can't take it.when i was during in the school i love to sit in the class and listen to the teacher but now i feel very boring.come to the lecture will be fun if the lecturers know how to teach but sometimes lecture hour is like a nightmare for me.so boring and sometimes i feel sleepy during class but still can control myself not to sleep.
current issues?
not really care about the current issues.reason?because each time watch news or read newspaper, it always talk about plotics.what a boring issues.why those people owez not satisfies.if it already settle juz let it be n please give those people to show their performance.if they perform bad then we can shout out our opinion.but what to do.human always not satisfies with everything and have a high PHD(PERASAAN HASAD DENGKI).
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