Life is full of love

2012 RESOLUTION

2012-01-20T23:28:00.000+08:00

SELAMAT TAHUN BARU 2012.... Another year coming and am still who am I now...2011 resolution? not complete and I didn't intend to carry it to 2012 because early 2011 is the painful time for me. So, I create another resolution for 2012 that seem like a child wishlist...hahhaha..I think, every year my age was increase by 1 year but my personality younger by one year....

RESOLUTION # 1 :
I want to buy myself new SmartPhone. When Samsung Galaxy S2 out in the market, I want to buy it but then I keep postpone it. Another reason is, usually, when I really need to change my phone, the current phone that am using will make my life a disaster. But then, when Galaxy S2 out, my Nokia phone still okay. So, I told myself let wait for Notes. Then, when Notes available in the market, I also didn't buy it coz when I watched Korean Series, the actress using Notes and I think its too big for a lady. Then I told myself let wait for Nexus. On Friday,13/1/2012, Nexus available in the market. This time I will grab it. Why? My current phone already mess up with me.Suddenly it jam.

RESOLUTION #2:
I want to go for a vacation oversea. My list of places this year is South Korean , Indonesia and Vietnam. If not all 3 places, at least one of the place.

RESOLUTION #3:
I want to have pet. Am thinking either Fish or cat. But more likely it is Fish coz am living in condo and my housemate didnn't like cat.why suddenly I want to keep pet? coz am boring being lonely at home.

RESOLUTION #4:
Do all the best in my work. Complete the task given to me and perform well. If people not recognize my effort of completing the task, this year I dont care anymore. I believe what goes around comes around.am think am more satisfy when am happy doing my job. let these people critics coz they are jealous of me. they didn't know, the more they critic, the better am I later.kekekekke

RESOLUTION #5:
My family is top priority.they are my strength and my weaknesses.

RESOLUTION #6
Wish all my friends that in the couple stage 2011, will be engaged or get married in 2012. and those who already get married in 2011, wish they have new family member 2012. Actually, now confirm I will become aunty for 3 of my friend child (Hasliana, Wani and Siti Fatimah).

RESOLUTION #7
Live happily and always be positive.

RESOLUTION #8
No idea....wanna go to sleep now. so sleepy.....

Wake up in the morning with a BIG SMILE

2011-12-04T11:29:00.000+08:00

Wake up in the morning with a big SMILE...Why? kekeke

#1. Last nite am having fun with Sue at M.Net Live in Malaysia Concert. Actually there were 4 groups perform but it seems like it is a SuperJunior Concert where majority of the audience are Elf (SJ Fanclub). Can't wait for their next SS4 and hope Malaysian will be in the list..(this mean need to saving for the tix).The performance is SUPERB from all but SuperJunior still the best. Love all their song & dance. Best thing is, I can sing along with them. This is the second time Sue watching me being crazy sing along korean song after BEAST Fan meet...

#2. Something weird happen on the way we're going to the concert. But, actually it is a good thing. First time in our trip, our GPS do something good to both of us. Along the way to the concert venue, we are passing by the total of 7 Mosques and it is not a small mosque.it is a big & beautiful Mosque. the journey that should take around 30 mins become 1 hour to us. It seems like a reminder to both of us that although we're having some fun, we need to remember our limit.am so grateful because God still loves us.ALHAMDULILLAH.

#3. After the concert, we're going for supper at PizzaHut that we used to go. We haven't went there for 2 months & surprisingly the waiter there still remember us. We thought they didn't remember us but then the moment we enter into the restaurant they greet us, "hi, long time no see.How you two?" and the guy who taking our order "hi, its nice to meet both of you again. So, what you gonna order tonite?"...so, both of us conclude that they remember us because we ate like a dinosour. Of course because when we go there we will order 2 regular pizzas, 2 mushroom soups and garlic bread and what make us monster is we ate all the pizza.hahhahahahaha

#4. I've got my contact lens today. hahaha.it's time for me to slowly make over (hahaha..because next year am 26 and I think I need to think bout myself now). end of 2010, I started with resolution of lossing weight and I manage to do and maintain my ideal weight. Now, I want to start with another phase.sound like a crazy n stupid thing to do. the more stupid is now am having a checklist aka wishlist on all the thing that I want to do in 2012.

#5. no number 5. Now, I should take my bath and going out searching for food....hahhahaha

My November

2011-11-20T10:49:00.002+08:00

Why this November make me smile:
Reason #1 : Lee Seung Gi 5th Album

B4 this am not really addicted of buying an artist album. The only artist that I bought an album so far is Malaysian Group KRU. I love their song since their debut day until now. Now, these trio is one of the strong name in Malaysia. Lets talk about Lee Seung Gi. Finally, got to hear him sing again after last time I heard him during My Girlfriend is Gumiho OST. With assistance of Malaysian Airen that I follow thru FB, I manage to get the copy of his album. I love all the song inside this album until me myself not sure which one is my favourite song. I wish he will come to Malaysia one day.

Reason #2 : Mnet Music Live in Malaysia

I got the ticket. Main reason am going is because of SuperJunior. They are my 3rd Fav korean artist after Lee Seung Gi & BEAST. can't wait for the concert.

REASON # 3: Congratulation to my younger sister

on 17th, my younger sister got her UPSR exam result. She got straight A's for all the subject. Am so happy for her and my parent. This is because, the last person who got Straight A's for UPSR in my family is the eldest daughter (it's me). then the other six is just so-so. and Finally, the youngest break the record. Congrtatulation to her.

REASON # 4: Engagement & Wedding

Ooopss...its not me who getting engaged or marriage. Here are the listing of my friend engagement & married schedule. Congratulation to them and wish them all the best with their new phase in life.

(i) My housemate, Syikin = married on 11/11/2011

(ii) My best friend since kindergarden, primary school, Fitri Shafini = will be getting married on 03/12/2011

(iii)My "office twin" (thats what people call us), Adibah =engange on 10/12/2011.

(iv) My university best friend, Fiera = will get married on 18/12/2011

(v) My classmate during Form 4 & 5, Huzaiman = get married on 13/11/2011

(vi) My schoolmate(kindergarden, primary school) & kampung-mate, Hairi = get married 20/11/2011

that's all under my radar...

and congratulation for my bes friend, Megala for her sister engagement today.

REASON # 5: AM GOING BACK HOME EARLY NOVEMBER

Early November am going back to my hometown. That is the best.hahahhahahaha..Miss my mum cooking and my home sweet home.

Suddenly am feel lazy to type. So, am just stop here.

Life is short...appreciate it before its too late

2011-10-29T09:51:00.000+08:00

DEATH... One word but can bring mix feeling. Some people might be scared of the word, some will be sad, some will be happy, some speechless, some only can wish condolence, for some people, the news will shocked them to death...

6PM Yesterday I got call from home and I already prepared for any news. This is because my family & I already set a standard, for a normal calling, either me or my family will call each other between 8 - 9 pm. If my family call me at other time, it means 2 things..either it is bad news or good news. but for yesterday, am 100% confidence it is a bad news because for the last 2 mths, we only talked about my uncle.So, yesterday, the moment I heard my sister voice(crying voice), I already knew the news.My uncle pass away after a long battle with the cancer. AL-FATIHAH. My condolence also to my friend Huyen (Vietnam).For the past 2 mths I also keep updated with her father condition after I read from her blog. Then this morning, I got news that her father pass away.RIP.

For the last 25 yrs, I am loss many people that I love. But the most sad thing ever is when I loss my cousin in 2002. He is the most best cousin that we had. Everyone in our families + non-families love him so much but God loves him more than us. Then a year after that, I loss my grandpa.In 2008, it is the year that we son't want to remember. We lost many family member.we lost our Grandma(she died on my mum bday), my uncle (mum's brother), my cousin grandma(my dad auntie), my cousin(7 days after my dad auntie), other families member... so many death in the same year really hurt our families.

Movie : In Time
Forget about the loss...Am happen to watch new Justin Timberlake's movie, In Time. It is a very good story. We always heard that "Time is precious", "don't waste time" etc. but did we really take it seriously? This movie open our eyes on how precious the time is. Luckily it just in the movie. What if in the real world, everything we do/buy must be paid with time? Am I willing to pay for my cup of coffee with 3 hrs of my life? Am I willing to pay all my bills with my life? If this really happen am sure am no longer exist in this world right now.In the other view, it is nice to know that we only have a certain limit of time and we know when we will died. Well Done to the movie team for such a good movie.

LIFE IS SHORT...as a human being, we just appreciate what we have. Until now I still can't get the answer why human tend to be greedy, hurt others feeling, backstab each other etc. although they know, at the end of the day, those bad thing they do will effect their future.

End of the update....

What I've learn for the past 25 years of my life

2011-10-09T10:53:00.000+08:00

am surprise with myself this 2 days...yesterday morning am doing a crazy thinking and today morning also my mind also force me to have a thinking exercise. why am too eager to b a thinker? question that I ask to myself with no answer. the only answer I can give is, since am wake up early this morning and watch TV , so, my mind also working so hard...hahhahaha

The Value of Family & Friendship
They are the person that will be by our side when the world againts us. They are the best medicine for all the disease. Although sometime they seems not to care our well being, actually deep inside their heart, they still care for us. People always say Love is Blind. that's true.If we love someone, doesn't mean we need to show it publicly. Just by seeing the person we love happy & healthy is enough.
THANK YOU TO MY FAMILIES & FRIENDS who always being there with me for the past 25 years

What You Give, You Get Back
although sometimes it looks like we are waiting for ages, just believe that all the good deeds that we do will be paid. Am curious why people always betray and doing something bad to the others. Why they didn't think of the consequences in the future. If it not back to them, it will affected their families. I also get hurt when people betray my trust and back stab me. sometimes I almost give up with my life principle (what you give you get back), but thanks to those who always there by my side.

Love Doesn't mean we will be together forever
I talk about Love as general here. Eventhough we love people with full of our heart, we need to be prepared for the separation.I love my grandparent, but I need to face the fact that God loves them more.Al-Fatihah to all people that I love but no longer with me now.As for working environment.You love your job very much but then when the times come, you need to leave your love behind in order to advance your career. I love my hometown & my family, but I need to leave them for my future. I love my friend but sometimes I need to let them go when they are going to start a new life.
Life teach me a lot about love. Love is exist and so do the separation. If we are not destined to be together with the person we love, just tell ourselves that we will be receiving another love. Do not give up on love.

You Yourself is the PROBLEM not others
I always told myself this whenever I was caught in trouble. That's why my life is so simple. Today is the solution of yesterday problem. If we blame others for the trouble we got, let think it carefully again. If we keep blame others, the problem will not be solved ASAP. People always think am crazy when I always say "Sorry" for the mistake made by others. Am not doing it bcoz I want to look good / well manner person in front of others but it really my mistake.Everything will be okay if am doing my best.

THANK YOU
It is a simple word but people feel difficult to say it. Why? Ego..that the best word. although that person only just a toilet cleaner, we need to say thank you to them. am not sure about other people, but I already get used with the word Thank You until recently when I was live in the condo with my friend. I am not even say 1 thank you word to the condo guard. Why? bcoz they are very annoying.the previous security guard I always smile and thankx to them but the new appointed security guard agency piss me off.am not feel guilty of not saying thank you to them.but to others except that security guard, I'll say thank you

need to stop for now coz am going to go to the supermarket to buy some grocery for the next one week.

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My Crazy Thinking on my own life and the Treatment

2011-10-08T10:12:00.000+08:00

Its been a long time since my last update. nothing much to update since my life is full of love (hahaha...love here doesn' mean am in love, but I just receiving to much love from my surrounding)

am just back from my department Education Trip @ ClubMed Cherating yesterday. my body so tired. many thing i've tried from Kayak, volleyball, archery, ping pong, squash etc. Night enjoy the movie + the party time.. it looks like am having a lot of fun until I hurt the whole body (my body told me to let it take a rest). But am a bad person. today am having some fun.am gonna go to watch the movie "The Three Musketeer". Oh, one more thing, today I also want to window shopping for a new smartphone (actually it not call window shopping since I've got one in my mind)

Ok, let's summarize all the update (since I love to lump sum all the update in one update...hahhaha)

FRIENDSHIP
Up and down.sometimes am questioning myself, am I really a good frenz?I love all my BFF but I got some issue here.some of them doesn't know each other (coz, I got BFF from Primary School, Secondary School, University & Working).Hurt one BFF in order to comfort other BFF hurt me very much.when am in that condition I owez questioning myself why am I too close with them. Let they just be a normal friend.but then, I couldn't help myself to close to all of them.

My own solution: Pray to God & read Quran.Everytime when I get hurt/ feel sad towards friendship, I'll back to my family.am not telling the story to them. Its just I will talk to them and asking what are they up to. Thanks to Twitter & FB. as for my mum & dad, I'll call them once in every 3 days.

TOO POSITIVE CHARACTER
am I a normal person? the longest time I can get angry or being a bad person is only 5 Mins. after that, the guilty feeling will haunted me and it will go away after I met the person that I feel angry with and talk to them. why some people have grudge and revenge towards each other for a long time and sometimes take a year & worst case for the rest of their life. Is it because am always thinking that life is simple. I get caught in trouble/ big problem today and the moment I wake up tomorrow morning everything will go well. am I too positive inn everything & trusted people so easily eventhough b4 that that people gave me so much pain.

My Own Solution: I owez told myself "nevermind, everything will be ok". I owez believe, if you do good thing you will get reward(although sometimes it is so painful for a long waiting) and if you do bad thing, you will be cursed for the rest of your life.hahahaha...look, how kind I am as a human being(crazy thinking)

LOVE
Best question ever.But I owez got the best answer. Yeah, I fall in love with....my FAMILY, foods, books, etc. then those who asking will yell at me & told me that's not what they asking for. Actually am already boring with these kind of question. who don't want to be loved and fall in love. It's all about time. When the time come, I will find my true love. for some people it is a crazy thing when I told them, my heart will told me that i am in love & am still waiting for my true love. they will told me don't "jual mahal" or "you must search for it not just waiting".i have my own dream on how my love should be although for the adult it sound like an impossible fairy tale. but for me, "if I believe in myself & my dream, I will have my own fairy tale." who knows, my love story will be a hit or top headline in the world.(again, crazy thinking in the early morning)

My own treatment : Just life the way I am now. when the time come, I hope everyone happy with my love fairy tales because it will make a top headline in the world.hahahhaha...

HOBBIES
B4 this I owez have a typical hobby that is reading.hahaha..but for the past 5 mths, am start asking myself, what is my hobby.i got mix hobbies. while reading, I will listening to music. while watching TV, I will surf the Internet.While watching muvie, I will busy texting.while window shopping, I will busy analyze people character.I even create a dialog for them. While observing people around me, I will busy reading the books and try to mix the reading with my observation.while listening to music, my mind also start to think the dance step n sometime without my control, I am dance to the song.when i read about cooking, i want to cook.when am read about animal, i want to have pet etc. (another crazy thinking)

My own treatment:Let's just do everything that we want to do. If feel tired, just stop doing that and daydreaming.hahhahahahha...

ALONE
Sometimes, when I give up & loss hope in my life, I am prefer to be alone. When am tired of being too positive, I prefer to be alone.When am having to much fun with all my friend & family, I will find a day to be alone. when i want to watch a movie that i want to watch but my friend didn' like it or no one to accompany me, i will juz watch that muvie alone.window shopping or shopping for my own thing, i prefer to be alone.but if my friend want me to accompany them, I will happily join them. Sometime, when people saw me alone by myself, I owez told them, it is not because am not having any friend to hang out with.It just sometimes I need to be alone.

My own treatment: Let people think what they want to think. am still myself and that people still who they are. Unless if they get paid to think about me, I will ask for my royalty. Am not going to make them rich for think about me while am not getting anything...

OMG....already 10am...need to prepare.am going to watch a movie today. The Three Musketeer...I will update more on my life in another update.hahahhaha

Background Music while typing:
Good Good Time by Koyote
Hello by Huh Gak
Next to you by Chris Brown ft Justin Bieber
Price Tag by Jessie J
Mr Simple by SuperJunior
Ugly + Lonely + I don't care by 2EN1
Berdua Bersatu by Fourteen
Smile by Avril Lavign
Tiga Kata by KRU
Losing My Mind by Lee Seung Gi
Who Say by Selena Gomez
Show Me the Meaning of Being Lonely by BackstreetBoy
I have a Dream + Flying without wing + World of our own + All my Love by Westlife

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2011-07-09T11:56:00.000+08:00

Finally, got time to update my blog...why am I so "rajin" to update my blog? because I just want to upload photo. People say, pix can create many story than words...hahhahahha

010711 - BEAST 1st Asian Fan Meeting @ Sunway Lagoon with Sue

020711 - Date with Girlfriend, Megala @ Sunway Pyramid

080711 - With Cik Diba & all BTD Teams @ Bora Ombak Ampang for En Mad Farewell

That's all. Later if I got idea and time, I will type a long story.hehehhehe

Thank You Herbalife

2011-05-22T15:41:00.002+08:00

Yesterday, I join the Herbalife event at Ritz Carlton. Here's the picture of the food. Actually beside the main lunch and desert (2 above pix), also got Tuna Salad, Asparagus Soup & Bread n butter. Its not about the food actually.

Nothing to update for my blog. So, just want to express my feeling. Now I can smile. hehehe... although I am not loss that much weight (from 60++ to 55kg), but I can get the body shape that I want. I will make sure that I continue to practice healthy life style.

How I did it? Thanks to Herbalife (although it a bit expensive but the result is also expensive) So, it Win-Win situation. When I first using this product, the only objective in my mind is losing weight (everyone will think the same thing also). Its true, I lose my weight and get the shape back. But then, a month after that, i change my objective. Its not really about losing weight, but it totally change how I treat my own health.

1. Drink a lot of water.

First reminder by my coach, drink enough water, min 3 L per day. OMG. 1 L almost kill me, so how come I need to drink min 3L per day. but then, that time I just follow (main reason, i don't want to waste the money that i invested). For the first 2 mths, i really hate it. Why? I need to rush to the toilet every 30mins. but then, after 4 mths, my body already get use to it and it back to normal. Now, instead of going to toilet every 30 mins, I will go to toilet 4 times (between 9-5pm). Plus, its a miracle, now I can drink almost 5L of water between 8-7pm.

2. Changes
Skin : Now, my skin is no longer dry. My body got enough water now. Even during the facial, the girl there say that my skin look even better than before and it looks more glow. (Of course there still got pimple but the pimple only break out during my period.)

Life:No more bad mood or tension (still got once in a blue moon. Usually during period due to imbalance hormon...hahhahaha). I can take everything positively. I enjoy with my life and feel energetic the whole day. Before this, it is difficult for me to wake up in the morning, but now, i feel fresh everytime my alarm clock wake me up.

Health: Less headache and backpain.(only happen during period....again, maybe due to imbalance hormon...hahahhaha).

That's all for the update.....

Song that Answer my question - Goose's Dream by Insooni

2011-04-09T08:44:00.001+08:00

This morning I wake up very early just to refresh myself and clear my mind from all the stupid problem. Last post I am posting about the question that I always asked myself. But this morning while listening to my MP3, one of the song attract my attention. First time I heard that song is through KBS Drama Dream High. Then, I started to search for English lyric translation.

I have a dream,

Even if I'm thrown away or ripped to shreds

Deep in my heart

I have a dream as precious as gem

If by chance, without a reason,

Somebody ridicules me behind my back

I should be patient

I would wait just for that day.

As you always worry,

You say that foolish dreams are poisonous.

Just like a book that tells us about the end of the world

There's the reality that we can't turn back already

Yes I have a dream.
I believe in that dream

Please watch over me

Standing in front of that cold wall called fate

I can firmly face it

One day I will pass over that wall

And be able to fly

As high as the sky

This heavy thing called life can't tie me down

At the end of my life, on the other day that I can smile, let's be together

Yes I have a dream.

I believe in that dream

Please watch over me

Standing in front of that cold wall called fate

I can firmly face it

One day I will pass over that wall

And be able to fly

As high as the sky

This heavy thing called life can't tie me down

At the end of my life, on the other day that I can smile, let's be together

Yes I, I have a dream

I believe in that dream.

Please watch over me

Standing in front of that cold wall called fate.

I can firmly face it

One day I will pass over that wall

And be able to fly

As high as the sky

This heavy thing called life can't tie me down

At the end of my life, on the other day that I can smile, let's be together

Question to myself

2011-04-03T13:04:00.000+08:00

Its 3 April already... first of all, Congrats to my youngest sister for her great achievement in Pre-UPSR Exam. She got 5 As. Hope she maintain it till the end. Happy Birthday to Yu, Qun (2/4): my adopt little sister through World Vision. Hope she enjoy her birthday. My condolence to my Housemate (Shikin) for the loss of her grandpa last Wednesday. Hope she will be okay. the way i wish them look likes they will read this. But, nevermind, as I post earlier, this is one of the medium to express my feeling.

Now its April and so far, my life still okay and I still can handle all the difficulties. Sometimes I lose hope over something or feel demotivated but Thanks to my life principle ,"I love Myself very Much". Why that principle help me? that is because If I am not love myself, who else will love me.hahaha...stupid answer...

can't wait for 30/4/2011. I will be going back to my hometown for holiday. Beside that, this is my first time since 2005, I am celebrating my birthday(3/5) with my family. Really miss my family & my hometown. Last I went back was on early december 2010. Although I am happy to go back home, but I am a bit worried. What should I bring back as a token to my parent and my siblings. For sure they will hope I will bring back something for them.(actually, some of them already texting me to buy something for them)

Lately, few questions disrupt my peaceful life. Thanx to the novel that I read and drama/series/movies that I watched for make me do this deep thinking exercise. But, sometimes I need to think because I never plan properly for my future. The only thing I do is, I will live and enjoy my life to the max today and not to think about what will happen tomorrow.here are the question that difficult for me to answer. Even the exam question during study time more easier than this.
1. What I want in my life? What I want to achieve?
2. Who I want to be in the next 3 years? Who will be by my side to give a support?
3. Will I be the same person as today in the future? Will the environment change my characteristics?
4. Will I be able to put 100% trust on people as per today? Will I be able to act like nothing happen when I know people backstabbed me as per today?
5. Did I already do the best as a human, daughter, sisters, friend and stranger?
6. Is it okay to be selfish in order to achieve our own dream? (this one is really difficult for me because I am afraid of hurting people feeling especially those that I love. even sometime i told myself those people will understand why am doing that, but deep inside my heart i feel guilty and ends up give up that dreamt because I am afraid people will get hurt)
7. and final question : When will I get married? ...

Is it my strength or my weaknesses when I always put people feeling on top of everything that I will do? Sometime, when i had to hurt their feeling, i really feel guilty and feel useless. but i need to act normal in front of them so that i will look strong and firm with my decision. the only thing i can say is sorry although i know it is not enough. when this situation happen, i will sit inside my room without doing nothing and just think about my action. is it ok or is it hurt these people so much?

now, i feel guilty with my stomach because it already sang a hungry song since 30mins ago....so, lunch time.....

Just an update

2011-03-27T12:25:00.002+08:00

Its time to update my blog…(sound like I have regular reader who waiting for my update. But nevermind, at least I got some place to let go all the heavy feeling before I start something new)…Summary of this week activities (like doing the weekly report)

1. Why people change?

While browsing through Facebook (to know any update from all my families & friends), I was shocked with my sister new profile picture. I thought it just she only wants to show the picture but actually it is total change of her. Not because I am that good person but I disappointed with her. I call my mum and told her about her new appearance and my mum shocked also but she accepted it because she already knows this would happen. When I told this to one of my friend, my friend told that I am jealous with my sis because she more beautiful than me. Yes, I admit that she beautiful but I am not jealous of her. But, I have no right to tell her what is good or bad for her because I know,(although she not mentioning it) she didn’t like me. Why? (not because I am proud of myself but it is true) . This is because my parent trusts me more than they trust her. Anyway, I just can pray for her happiness and hope she do well in her life. We are sisters.

2. Awana Genting

Nice location. We had our Target Setting Discussion at Awana Genting (I already told about it in my previous post). Why I want to story it here? This is because I want to Thanks to Adibah for team up with me doing a sweet thing while in Genting. It is heavy rain outside and the weather was so cold. although our mouth mumbling about the cold weather, but our action is against our mind. We entered SnowWorld. We enjoy our time there around 30 mins.

Other crazy but adventurous thing I do with her is ride the cable car. Yes, this is my first time. Why I said it is crazy and adventurous. It is because, only two of us in the cable car, heavy rain outside and that time is 9:00 PM….So dark. I enjoy it but if next time, there got someone who asked me to ride a cable car at night, I will refuse to do so.

3. Life

A month from now, I will turn 25 years old and I think instead of grow up, now I feel like I am become younger. Why? Because as a lady, it is normal. Who want to get older? Hahahaha….

I got a new hobby now…that is analyze people character. Sometimes inside LRT , while everyone busy talk with friend or reading or listening to music, my mind also work so hard to create a dialog for each person. Then I will smile by myself but people will not call me crazy because that time I was using earphone where actually that earphone not connected to either phone, MP3 or walkman. So crazy.

The second thing that will be asked by people (especially older people)… when are you going to get married? Nice question but when I got that question, the only thing I can do is smile. Standard answer from me, “don’t worry, if no next year, the other year you will received my invitation card” and that answer will keep repeating every year.No time to think about that stuff.

Think need to stop now because it already noon and I’ve yet to take my bath and my stomach already sing a rock song…..

Where am I last Weekend?

2011-03-20T21:49:00.003+08:00

Place for Makan Durian and Telematch

Last Friday evening until this morning, I was at Thistle Hotel at Port Dickson for our division Family Day. So tired (because I am part of the committee) but I enjoy it when I saw everyone smile and enjoy with their family. So sweet for those who came with family. But for the single staff like myself, we just assume that everyone are my family. Now I miss my family. Other picture will coming soon (If I am not affected by Lazy virus.)

Last Wednesday, while having a long bad day in the office, something make me smile and forget all the problem. I got the letter from the child that I was sponsor through World Vision. Let just say, she is my adopted sister. Her name is Yu Qun and she was a year younger than my youngest sister. Although it is just a simple letter but it make me smile. Since April is around the corner, the next day, I write a letter to her and attached together the Birthday Wish Card to her.

That's all the update for this week. I am sleepy now and really need help. Tomorrow until Wednesday I will out again. This time for my department Target Setting for financial year 2011. Last year we had it at Corus Hotel. This year, it will be conducted at Awana Genting. Tomorrow night, I will go to Genting with Adibah.
Need to stop now because I haven't packed my stuff....but I am sleepy....

Life Story

2011-03-12T23:41:00.001+08:00

Finally I got time to update my blog again. Not because I am lazy to type but it because I have no idea what to type.

First of all, I would like to say my condolence to all the Japanese for what had happen yesterday. Japan was hit by earthquake and Tsunami. When I saw the news in TV, I can’t help my tears to come out and I straight away call my mum just to say Hi. I am a kind of person who will always fall for deep thinking when saw, heard or experience something that attract my attention. The natural disaster that was occurred in Japan yesterday also made me became a thinker. The natural disaster is unexpected and can happen anytime. Sometime I always think what if when this kind of incident happens and I was alone or far away from my family? What if it happens to my family and I was not there with them? Am I mentally and physically prepared to face it?... Just by watching the video from the news make me feel like crying, how does the feeling of the victims.

Story No.1 : Holiday in Melaka at the end of February (Wani’s wedding)

Actually I can call it one Malaysia Vacation. Me, Yee and Mega represent one Malaysia. Sorry to Wani because three of us steal the attention during the “Akad Nikah” night. We were there with her and sat next to her. Initially, three of us not aware about it until the photographer voice out about 1 Malaysia. It is not completed actually. Fiera (closest friend to Wani compared to three of us) and Leen not there with us. After the Akad Nikah (without eating the meal) , we went to Jonker Street and take our dinbreak(short term for Dinner Breakfast) at about 1 am at McDonald. It remind of our McDonald agreement in 2008 in Perak. A new arrangement has been set where Fiera will be next, followed by Leen, Yee, Mega and finally me.

Thanks to the bride & groom for sponsoring our accommodation. What a nice and luxury villa.

But, I think it is a trademark for those who go for travelling with me. Even, I am not a driver and I am also not the one who gave the direction, it always end up we are loss. What to do, it is just natural and I can’t avoid it. But, it creates more sweet and precious moment.

Story No.2 : Hai Dkny and Luxmi

While typing story number 1, I just remember that this story should come first. But, then I am very lazy to give direction to my mouse, so I just let it be. One afternoon, very shocked got a message from Dkny informing that she was in KL for Technology exhibition at KL Convec. So, I just call Yee and then three of us having lunch together at Kenny Rogers KL Convec. So excited that day. Last time we met was during our convocation in 2009.

Then, 2 weeks after that, I met Luxmi, coursemate aka housemate during internship. That day, me and Yee went to Burger King for our lunch and while passed through Auntie Annie stall, I told Yee that I saw a familiar face and confidently I hold her hand and then it is true, she is Luxmi. We had a short chit chat because she was with her friend.

Story No.3: Hikayat Merong Mahawangsa

Congratulation to the production team for such great movie. I watched the movie on its first day premier at TGV Wangsa Walk with Suliana. Two thumbs up for the movie. The scripts are very good and meaningful especially the scene where Merong Mahawangsa talked to his team about the objective of their mission. I love the Archimedes Principal that was shown by Merong. Although I hope the hero will be alive (at the end of the movie, Merong died) but, I still love the ending. It doesn’t mean that all hero should live longer. Now, waiting for KRU Studio next horror movie…”Karak”

Story No 4: February 2011 is the most hateful month in my life so far

In this month, I felt demotivated a hundred times. My confidence level drops a hundred times. This is first time in my life I am thinking of giving up on my work a number of time per day. This is also first time in my life I am not even trying to comfort myself by being positive and believe in my life policy. I gain 2 kgs due to those things. I really hate this month. Thanks God, at the end of the month, I got a weekend vacation to Wani’s Wedding with Mega and Yee. But then, 2 weeks after that, I still experience the same thing. Now, I am in recovering phase.

Story No 5: Hasliana getting Married and among her friend, I am the first person she told the date of her wedding (for sure because I need to book for the flight ticket)

Around, 7:10 pm today, I got a message from her telling me to book a ticket and fly back to my hometown in Sarawak at the end of May 2011. Congratulation to her. I’ll look for the available and cheapest flight ticket. I will do my best to attend her wedding I think I should plan a trip to her wedding with Jama, Syidah, Nisa and Hamisa soon. Can’t wait to meet them. Maybe, it will be our reunion.

Suddenly, my finger told me that they are tired. And my brain also told me that it is time to stop. So empty after let go of the uneasy feeling. This is one of the recovering phase methods for everything that happen in story 4.

Will be continued later for another stories……

Background music: no background music because I am typing this while watching TV but I don’t know what I am watching because the only sentence that I saw on TV Screen is, “ Service Unavailable”…

Once Again Friendship, Loyalty and Faith Touch My Feeling

2011-02-05T10:33:00.000+08:00

While Waiting for my favourite show 1 night 2 Days…I just play around with the TV Remote..finally, the movie that was aired in HBO Channel attract my attention. The synopsis is interesting so I decide to watched it. Nice story with nice music background. During the last one hour, I start to look for tissue. So sad and automatically I cry although the characters in the movie not crying. At the end of the movie, it turns out that this movie was based on the true story about a dog named Hachi

Movie Summary

An Akita puppy followed a professor went back to his house. At first, the professor and his family don’t want to take this puppy but then they adopted it as part of their family. The puppy develops a strong relationship with the professor. Every Morning he follows his master to the station ( in the better human word, sent him off to work), then every evening he waited for his master. Everyone at the nearby area amaze with their relationship and it already a norm for them watching that dog waiting for his master. But then, one day, his master died and that the starting point that make me cry (even when typing this I also feel like crying-already cry). Hachi waited for him at the station until the last train but his master never returned. After his master death, the daughter take an ownership to take care of Hachi but then later she let Hachi decide by himself what should he do. It turned out that Hachi went to the station and wait for the master until the last train. Thanks to the neighborhood and the passerby for feed him and look after him. His story becomes popular. For 9 years he waited for his master to returned until he become an old dog but still waiting for his master. (at this moment of time, I feel a bit angry, why don’t anyone bring him to his master grave and showed it to him that his master already died. But then, when I think logically, he just a dog. His not an human that will easily understand all the thing. The only thing he understand is he sent off his master to the station in the morning and he never returned.) During the last moment of Hachi life, he dreamt that he met his master and his master asked him to follow him (this part makes me feel release because finally he died. Not because am happy his dying but I can’t take to cry anymore seeing his suffered waiting for his master to return.)

TRUE STORY

At the end of the story, I found out that this is based on true story happened in Japan. The Japanese people also installed a statue in front of the Shibuya Station as a symbol of the loyalty of the dog towards its owner.

Hachiko was brought to Tokyo in 1924 by Professor named Hidesamuro Ueno. Every morning, he will sent off his master and wait for him to came home at 4 o’clock everyday. When his master died, he still faithfully waiting for him at the same time everyday with hope that his master will come back and this last for 9 years. Finally he died in 1935. What a great relationship

MY SUMMARY

This story make me thing and started asking myself (another deep thinking activity). How long would people able to wait if their loved one didn’t come back one day? One thing for sure, as a normal human being, people will think that that person probably run away from them. After watched the movie, I straight away called my home and told them that I miss home. Then I started to think about my friend and how much I miss all of them.

Can I be this loyal and faithful? Hachi just a dog and his doing great job as man best friend. And I am a human and know how to think. But, up to this time, I am still loyal with all people that I care of. Thanks Hachi for such an inspiring character.

1 NIGHT 2 DAYS

After one hour crying (no tissue so I use towel to wipe off my tears-luckily watched the movie alone), its time for me to have a light entertainment. My favourite show was on the air. This time the episode is the second part of the Foreign worker special. So sweet seeing all the MC take care their new friend and concerned about their religion and customs. If Hachiko movie shared about the loved between human and animal, this show shared how unique the thing called friendship. Only those who believed and understand the rules of friendship will experienced the happy moment. They didn’t even know each other + come from different country with different language + different religion & belief but still they manage to get along together. So sweet.

That is not the thing that I want to highlight here. This show causes me to think about curry chicken. I think, the last time I ate curry chicken was early December 2010 when I went off for holiday in my hometown. Miss curry chicken. After the show finished, I checked my kitchen. There got chicken in the fridge, they got curry, got coconut milk, and all the ingredient for the chicken curry are available there except the potato. But, its not a big deal since potato is just an additional. So, my Saturday lunch will be a chicken curry. Hehehehe.

Think, should stop here coz as I said, I love myself very much and my fingers already told me its already tired. Thanks to my typing partner for today. OST From the Movie Hachiko. That make me more sad.

MY FAVOURITE ACTIVITY TO KILL TIME WHEN I’M ALONE

2011-01-30T09:29:00.000+08:00

Sometime I enjoy being lonely. Yesterday, I purposely being lonely and not plan anything for my weekend. So, in order to kill time, I’m doing my favourite activity that is watching people and make a conclusion based on the situation. So, after settled all the morning activities, I went out.

On the way to LRT Station

Scene: Shoppers busy opening their shop while talking to their shop neighbor. The passer by just look at them and sometimes they exchange smiles and say hi like they already known for a long time. If they already become friend, they will stop for a while and have a brief chit chat session. Actually, 90% of them didn’t know each other. The only connection between them is they always saw each other everyday and 90% of the passer by live at that area. After almost 2 years living in this area, I also knew 25% of these people name but for the rest we still have can smile to each other and say hi. I still remember last December when I went back to my hometown for a week. A week after that, while on the way back to my condo, some of them asked me, “Hi, long time no see. Where are you going? How are you?” I am so surprise. I just only smile to them but then they still care for me. Same thing when I want to buy some food from the nearby café. They already know what I will buy (always order the same) although I’m just drop by sometime once in two months

My conclusion: Relationship is unique. It naturally develops inside everybody.

LRT Station: While waiting for LRT

Scene: Although people always busy and sometimes they look like arrogant or selfish, but there still got at least 1% of humanity characteristics. One Chinese guy looks busy reading the documents and at the same time talking to the phone and he walks so fast. About 1 meter in front him, there was an old Malay lady tiredly carries the luggage on the right hand and holds her grandson. Surprisingly, that guy went to her and offers his helps to carry the luggage. Don’t think I’m not willing to help that lady. At that time, I’m not even reached the Touch & Go scanner yet.

My conclusion:

- First Impression is important but then don’t simply jump to conclusion based on the first impression.

- When it comes to help each other, race, religion and difference is not a boundary.

Inside LRT

Scene 1: When stop at Setiawangsa station, one pregnant lady board into the train and also they got young couple and group of primary school kid (I think). The young couple got the seat leaving the preggy lady standing. I can’t offer my seat to her because that times I also standing. Really upset with the stupid couple especially the guy. There got a notice “this seat for pregnant ladies, old people & … “Proud with these school kid. One of them approaches the guy and asked him to give the seat to the lady. But, that guy talked back to him and told him, he already has the seat first and his GF just laugh together with him. It ends up, one old man (he’s blind) stand up and offer the seat to the lady. As a token of appreciation, these kid offer their help holding that man hand in order to keep him balance while standing.

My conclusion: Sometime couple didn’t understand the true meaning of love. The only definition of love they know is “I love u, u love me” and those love only for BF & GF.

Scene 2: When the train stops at KLCC, there were a group of Chinese family boarding but then they were in trouble. None of them can speak English. They look around them which I think they look for Chinese people. Unfortunately there’s no Chinese person there. The father(I think) reach these school kid and write show something to them in hope they can help. But, one of the kids says in English, he didn’t know the place. Since sometimes I love to give direction to people, I offer my help. They gave me the place name (Muzium Negara). Then I make a hand communication to them told them to follow me because I will stop at KL Central and Muzium Negara is near to KL Central. They just nod their head. So, when we reach KL Central, the first thing I do is bring them to Muzium without asking them to take taxi. Although it takes around 15mins walking but then it is save than taking a taxi that will charge them. I still say sorry to them for asking them to walk but then from their reaction, they are not angry with me. ( I understand some Chinese but do not know how to respond back in Chinese. Thanks to my Chinese friend especiall my BFF Yee Chiea Chai). I even showed them the way to Planetarium Negara. Looks like I’m their tourist guide. After say thank you, I leave them having their sweet time at the muzium.

My conclusion: if we are really wanted to help people, language differences are not the barrier. If both not understand each other language, just showed it through action.

KL CENTRAL

This is the nice spot to observe people behavior. I just find one place to sit and start my activity (of course I bring book together with me to avoid people think that I’m crazy sitting there without doing anything.

Scene 1: @ KFC. There are a group of middle age man having a chit chat session. They really close to each other and have a very sweet & nice chit chat. Why they attract my attention? This is because they are from different races and one of them sitting on the wheelchair. They remind me of my friendship.

Conclusion: If you really sincere in friendship, your friendship will last forever.

Scene 2: Departure Hall KLIA Express

Family – The husband keep asking his wife to walk faster while at the same time his wife busy with two kids asking for something. The wife still at the pass scanner whiles the husband already at the escalator and keeps shouting at his wife to be faster.

Couple/ newly married (not sure) – holding hand and smilingly walk towards the ticket counter.

Old couple – wave towards their daughter/ granddaughter (not sure their relationship with the lady). Then, the hubby told something to his wife and wipes the tears.

One guy (not sure either he’s single or already married) – talk with the phone and sometimes laugh.

One single lady – sit quietly at one of the seat while reading book. That’s me. Hahahhahaha

Conclusion: single or to have a life partner? As long as you know the true meaning of family and love, everything will be okay.

The departure hall scenes lead me to the second activity that is deep thinking about my life. Sometime I prefer to be alone but sometimes I love to be with friend (That is sometime difficult to spend time with them due to their dating with their partner).

The deep thinking title of the day: LOVE

Everyone connect through love. Love is universal and not only specific to BF GF relationship. Love can lead to good thing and sometimes it can lead to bad thing. But for me, love is unique.

My definition of love is simple. Love myself first. This is because I believe once I already have 100% love towards myself, only then I will be able to love my God, religion, Families, Friends, Animals, Natures and everyone/everything around me.

My love story in term of BF GF Relationship? I’m not yet started a chapter on it yet. When I told people I want to have a BF, I’m not seriously meant it. It just a sentence in order to join the chit chat with my them. I never think about having a boyfriend at this time. Don’t asked me why because I haven’t have the answer for that. If people told that I’m afraid of having that kind of relationship, I admit it because 60% of me afraid of fall in love. This is due to some love failure experience (broke up, divorce, not meant to be together, died of the lovers) of my friend and some families. All these stuff make me afraid. Since now, I’m happy with my life now, just enjoy my life. But then, sometimes it looks like I’m the love doctor. My friend always come to me with their love problem and asked my view. Although no experience in love, but I do my best to help them. Source of references…… I love reading. So, I just remember anything from my reading that related to their problem.hahahhahaha….

Need to stop now coz my finger told me they are already tired. Hahahahahhahaha… Since I love them, I need to stop now.

Thanks to my typing partner:

- Song by Anuar Zain : Sedetik Lebih

- Song by Justin Bieber : Pray

- Song by 2 AM : Confession of a Friend

- Song from Korean Series : Dream High

- Piano music from Jay Chou Movie : Secret

- Song by Bravo All Star : Let the Music Heal Your Soul

Type of Feeling that I experienced for the past 24 years

2011-01-26T12:43:00.000+08:00

While view the picture of my friend in Facebook, I thought about understand my own feeling and how I deal with it. Such a crazy thinking but I love it. At least I know that I have a feeling.

Type of feeling: Useless & Stupid

When I failed to do something and make people disappoint, that is the time I feel so useless and stupid. Beside that, I will feel useless when people not believe my ability to perform. Actually before entering into working life, I never experience this feeling. This feeling start appear in the list 5 months after I started working.

Solution: Sit quietly and think. After a few minutes, I will listen to music and do some random reading in the Internet until I feel better. The longest time for me to experience this feeling is only 1 hour.

Type of feeling: de-motivated

Like feel like useless, this feeling also started when I started working. I feel de-motivated when people not believe in my capability. I will feel de-motivated when people only recognized me during problem (reason: these people need someone to be blamed). I feel even more de-motivated when people not share or inform me any information /knowledge that related to my work. At the end of the day, when problem arise and it involved me, sometime I need to act stupid just to save people image by telling the person who asking me “ maybe they inform me but I take it for granted”… Its too tired to be like a stupid person.

Solution: Sit quietly and think. After a few minutes, I will listen to music and do some random reading in the Internet until I feel better. Then told myself, why I should hurt my feeling because of these people. I should enjoy my life. Maximum time I can be de-motivated so far is 1 day.

Type of Feeling: Angry

Last time I got 100% feeling of angry is … not sure. Usually when I told people I feel angry, it is not a serious feeling. In fact, I also not sure either I was angry or not because that kind of feeling only last for 1 minutes. This is because I always afraid of the consequences like I will hurt those people feeling; I need to say sorry to them, I will lose them, etc.

Solution: no need solution coz this kind of feeling only happen once in blue moon.

Type of Feeling: Jealous

Hahaha… I always feel jealous every minutes of my life. Even with the little kid who ate ice cream.

Solution: No solution. It just a normal feeling

Type of Feeling: Boring

When I am dealing with boring people, join boring event and do something boring.

Solution: Be alone

Type of Feeling: Go crazy

Suddenly, I just laugh and smile. Don’t know why, suddenly I feel I want to laugh and smile. Sometime, when go outing with my friend, suddenly I can go crazy but the best thing is, they go crazy together with me. I still remember one incident. That time, got a group of handsome & good looking guy ate next to our table. We make a deal and during the first vote, I am the first person to make a move first. The first time ever in my life I approach a guy. With innocence face, I just bring my meal to their table and sit next to one of them. After say, Hi, I just ate my meal. Those guys look at me weirdly. To make thing more interesting, I ate their meal also and loudly calling for my friend name to join us. At first they refuse to come but then they came and join us. But of course, I am the one who ate so “politely” while the others just quiet and smile to each other. After finish the meal, I say thank you to that guy group and leaves my friend there to clean all the mess and say sorry to them.

Solution: No solution because that is one of the way to make myself happy

Type of Feeling: Happy

I feel happy everyday. The happiest feeling is when my parent trusts me in every decision that I make for my life.

Type of Feeling: Sad

Real life sad feeling when something bad happens to my families and friends. Ad hoc sad feeling when I watched series, movie or sad news. The saddest moment in my life is when my very best cousin died in 2002. He’s like a soul of families, friends and people around the neighborhood. Everyone take a long time to recover after his dead. That was the saddest moment in my life.

Solution: Spend more time with families and friends. Best motto: Let go and forget

There are some of feelings that I experience. There are many more but don’t know belong to what type. Hahaha…Want to type more, but now, I’m feeling lazy to type. Can I just speak and the keyboard automatically types it for me???

Who Inspire Me?

2011-01-22T12:23:00.000+08:00

Its weekend and I have no plan in my mind. So, while waiting for the plan to pop-up in my mind, so I take this opportunity to update my blog. Remember about the book, Winning by Jack Welch? Congratulation to me because I am successfully reading it up to page 15 of 359 pages. Well, it is a good achievement for me for this month because as I told before, suddenly I become very lazy reading a book. And finally, on 20/1/2011, I got back the interest of reading. Now, my bookshelf will be full of book again (comics, novels, general knowledge, motivation books as well as religious books). While reading Winning I was also listen to radio and the topic of the day is “Who inspire you?”. Then, it give me an idea to update my blog with the same topic. Here are those people that inspire me.

1. My family

This is the main group of people that inspire me the most. They are the one who always there for me and support me. Although sometime, they annoyed me and bring a big headache for me, but they are the person that I am worried most in my life. I admired both my mum and dad. When I have a deep thinking, I always think that it a huge decision for them to getting married and build a family. They experience many sweet and sour in life but they still do their best for their child. Thanks to them to make me such a person I am today. The biggest happiness they gave me is their trust. They believe in me more than my other siblings. Even, when I made any decision in my life, they not even asked me for second option or asked other family members (my siblings, relatives) to view my decision. They believe 100% in me. It is different for my sibling. That’s why sometimes I am the center of jealousy of my sibling. Each time when my parent not agrees with them they always talk back to them saying why it always green light for me. (Well, am the eldest).

2. Tun Mahathir (ex-PM of Malaysia)

What should I say about him? I was grown up during his era. I respect his view and his leadership. I like his out of the box ideas and his effort to make it real. He leads Malaysia for more than 20 yrs and it is a long journey for him to make Malaysia as it is today. He’s my role model. I always dream of meeting him face to face. Just a smile without words will make me happy. Thanks to God, finally I met him and one sentence from him, “Congratulation & Good Luck for your future life”. That time, only one word from me,”Thank You”. When we met? Hahahahha… He’s my University chancellor that time. And during my Convocation in 2009 and luckily our course session was in the morning and he was there to give me the scroll. That is the precious moment in my life. Finally, I met one of the people that’s inspire me.

3. Oprah Winfrey

I started to know her when I was 13 yrs old. That time I was reading an article about her in school library. These articles make me to know more about her. Since that time I was not that IT type of person, so I just find about her through books in the library and articles. She is the reason why I love reading. After I finish my Form 5 and start my University life, I search more about her. She’s inspiring me. Knowing everything about her taught me to love reading, love people and the nature around me, learn how to share love and happiness with others and many things. I dream of being like her one day. Share joy and happiness with others either we know them or not. While watched her program, I always wish that one day I will able to join others in the studio. I cried; laugh together while watching her program. The most memorable scene is when she makes people wish comes true. Not to mention on her surprise to people. I hope I can meet her in person one day. If that dream comes true, first think I would tell her is “Thank You”. Up till now, I am still holding to that dream.

4. Lee Seung Gi (Korean singer, actor, MC)

His name started to be in my list in 2009. That time, like normal drama fan, I watched his drama Brilliant Legacy and I fall in love with this guy. He’s not that handsome but he’s cool. So, like what I do with Oprah, I started to search about him. (I only do searching about people if I really interested in them. Up to now, only he and Oprah make me crazy to search more about them). Then I started to watch his entertainment program. Since in Malaysia, we only can view KBS Channel, so I am the big fan of his 1 Night 2 days program. Why he inspire me? He always does his best in everything he’s doing. He not complains about being tired, respect all people and always be humble. From the info searching about him, everything about him is positive. Plus, he values education and it always his top priority. I admire and jealous of his time management between his career as a celebrity and a student. He knows how to make people love him and always make sure to pay all the love that he received by do his best in everything. I wish I will meet him one day. Love his latest drama “My Girlfriend is Gumiho”. Seung Gi shi..hwaja fighting!! Saranghae. If I was fortunate to meet him, I want to say “Thank You” to him.

5. 1 Night 2 days member (Kang Hodong, Lee Seuguen, Eun Jiwon, Kim Jong Min, Lee Seung Gi & 2 ex-members [MC Mong and Kim C])

This is new member of the list of people that inspire me. They just got into the list in 2010. They teach me the value of friendship and relationship. I wish I could meet all of them. Like Oprah, these members sometimes touch my heart. I love every episode but their latest episode of foreign workers (although it’s not air in Malaysia yet, but through video cut in the internet, am able to watch it). That episode makes me cried together with them. Thanks to the production team for such an idea. Wish them a year of success and prosperity in 2011. If I was fortunate and lucky enough to meet them, I want to say “Thank You”. I learn many things in life by watching this program. Plus this program also makes me feel that I already visit Korea. Korea is one of my dream countries that I would like to visit. But, I just hold these dreams because, each time when I got time to take leave, I prefer to go back to my hometown and being with my family.

What a long update. But, up till today, that is the list of people that inspire me. But, on top of everything, it is I who inspire me so much. Why? This is because everything comes from my love to me. These people are the one who help me to inspire myself so that I will do better.

Mixed Feeling

2011-01-17T16:32:00.000+08:00

Week 3 2011 and its Monday….

Lately feel demotivated with my work. Actually almost one year got this kind of feeling of demotivated. But not so critical until recently, I feel lost and walking in the tunnel with no exit. Why? Difficult to explain, but sometime I do my best to be as positive as I can and told myself to love my work. Every morning when I woke up, I told myself “I love my work”. Actually, now am doing something that totally different from what I’ve learn during my university time. It is something new to me. I always told myself, in real world, sometimes we will not get what we want. So, be positive and accept what had been given to me. But now, I already come to the maximum limit but I still told myself not to give up. I really can’t force myself to love my job now. I do love the company but I don’t think this job scope suit me well. Feel like to change to other unit but for sure it is not an easy solution.
Bad Dream

Last night I got a bad dream. I only remember 30% of the dream. It’s been long time I haven’t experience any bad dream. But last night was so scary. In the dream, I was holding the list of death people and people that will be death soon. And I also remember that the list was arranged based on who has been died first. I only remember a few name but these name that I remember are still alive. But, I told myself don’t think about it too much coz maybe I was influence by the movie that I watched before I went to sleep.
Peanuts Family

Suddenly, starting last Friday night is so addicted with Peanuts and anything that related to peanut. Yesterday, I ate total of 4 packets (180kg) of peanut of Tong Garden Brand. Today, after lunch, I also buy another 2 packets of peanut. Is it normal? Last time I have this crazy addictive is with Ice-cream. In one night I can ate between 5-6 cones of ice cream. So crazy. Hope this addictive with peanut will stop today. I won’t ruin my happy healthy eating life. Now, I am so happy losing 5kg (60kg-55kg). I can even wear ‘s’ size now.

Book Assignment : WINNING by Jack Welch

Remember last post about this book? Hahaha…update from me. I haven’t read it. It is nicely placed next to my pillow. No idea when I will start reading it.

Reading Assignment : "Winning" by Jack Welch with Suzy Welch

2011-01-13T16:40:00.002+08:00

Today I got reading assignment. My company got a program called Mentor Mentee. For our today meeting, my Mentor gave me one book to read. The picture above already gave an answer of the title and the author.
- Total page : 360.
-Table of contents: the contents look interesting
-when should I start ? : don't know but what i know, I will meet my mentor again after 2 mths..before this am so excited when see books but lately it seems my interests change. Even the "Ujang" magazine also I can't even finish reading half of it in a month.what happen to me? Now I am more interested in surfing internet and hang around with friend.
Nevermind...goodluck for me...maybe I can read it in LRT.
Will post an update about this book once complete reading it

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2011

2011-01-12T12:27:00.000+08:00

OMG… Now it’s already 2011. It seems long time haven’t type something on my blog. So, here my summary for the last 12 days of January 2011

01.01.11 – New Year Day
So funny. This year I stayed at home on New Year. Great achievement because since I finished my secondary school, 1 Jan every year is the day for outing. Surprisingly, I’m kind of enjoying it. This is because I need to do some deep thinking for my future life plan. End of the day, no result/ output because the so “deep thinking” activities worked together with Movie marathon. While re-arrange the furniture in my room, a group of VCD attract my attention and the funny thing is, I’ve yet to complete watching all the Movie VCD.

Out with Megala + Damping Malam

Finally, after almost 4 months, we met again. So many story to share and the winner of the best story is Megala’s story. What is the story? Its only between 2 of us. I love the first sentence coming out from her that day. “Wow, Rok…You lose weight”.It’s true, I lost 5 kg from my weight 4 months ago… so happy to hear that and due to that, we have a bet to lose more weight and meet again after 3 months with the new look. I told her that I will not let her to beat me.

After having a lunch, we go for movie, Damping Malam. I give 3 1/2 rating over 5 for this movie. The ending is so sad. After movie, we continue our chit chat until our goodbye. We’ll meet again after 3 months. But, we still communicate to each other. You’re so sweet Meg.

Good News: Friends Getting Married in February
Congratulation to Wani. She will get married by end of February 2011. Wish her a happy life. Now, I need to get Mega to go together to the wedding. Wish can go together with others too (Fiera, Leen, Siti, Yee)

Another marriage couple will be Yanti (friend that I met during my internship). Congratulation to her. Now, waiting for 2 more cards from my internship friend (Zati & Yani). Yuzi & Yuen already settled down last year. I wish both Zati & Yani will meet a guy that will love them till the end of their live.

Out with Sue + Gulliver’s Travel + POPULAR Bookstore
Hahaha… last weekend, lepak with Sue at Wangsa Walk. So bad, Dieba can’t join us because she’s in Melaka visiting her grandma. But both of us still enjoy. After having lunch at Popeye Restaurant, we went for a movie, Gulliver’s Travel. Nice Movie. After that, we lepak at POPULAR Bookstore almost 2 hrs and a half. We are crazy for kid’s book. It reminds us of our school memories. There got Siri 3 Penyiasat, Siri 5 Penyiasat, Siri Salma etc. Hahaha… While she busy searching and reading those books, I also busy searching and reading Conan & Doraemon. Funny thing is, we read these books at the store, then we buy the book. Reason: to keep as collection. When I think about it, it almost 1 month I haven’t read novel. Now, I’m crazy for comics & kid’s book.

2010 Blog update begin

2010-06-09T12:06:00.002+08:00

Last update was september last year...Oh man, almost 9 mth haven't update my blog...What to do..even got FB but it seem only sometimes I update my FB....really attack by lazy virus...hahahhaha
Suddenly thinking of updating my blog since very "FREE" (Got so many thing to do but feel tired looking at it). Let just summarize what had happen to me since the last 9 month (sound like meeting conclusion.....hahahhaha)

1.Work
Now, almost 1 yr 4 mth i've been in working life. Feeling? experience? can't tell how i really feel.sometimes happy and sometime not happy with my job. but life must go on either we like it or not.Working life teach me many thing on knowing people and their characteristic. everyday, i've learnt new thing and meet new people. the heaven feeling is during weekend and holiday. for sure we need to think about work but since it is holiday, so holiday mood is 70% higher than working mood.hahhahahaha

2. Life
Almost 1 yrs n 4 mths i've been living in KL also.huhuhuhuhu.After 4 and 1/2 years of study in Perak, think can get job in my hometown.what to do...just accept it.actually, although sometime I complaint a lot on the expensive KL but still told myself to spend a few years here before deciding going back to my hometown.most of my friend in peninsular.once i went back over the south chinese sea, it will be difficult for me to meet them. Even living in KL also sometimes it difficult for us to meet, can you imagine how we will meet once i am going back to my hometown.
Until now, I still love and enjoy my life although sometime miss my family a lot. Last time i went back to my hometown was early february 2010. when I calculate it, almost 4 mths I never go back to my hometown. This coming weekend I will back to my hometown but only for attending my friend wedding.i just take one day leave on monday.actually, no feeling of take a long leave and going back to my hometown at this time being especially this june or july coz that time is my friend married time. just want to escape from the most famous question in the world by people other than my parent. " your friend already get married. How bout u?"....hate this kind of question and luckily got sporting mum and dad.hahahhahahahhaha
need to pamper and enjoy myself to the max......

3. Friend
still ok with my friend in fact i've met many friend since working. My relationship with my schoolmate friend, university friend, internship friend and working friend is ok.it become more ok with FB.all the news about them can be found thru FB.so happy knowing they live a happy life.

4.others
- this weekend will be back to my hometown...yea yea yea....miss my family n hometown

-sometimes feel stress with my work....but it will gone once I enter my house coz I left it outside my house...hahahhaha...before this I feel destress once enter the LRT but lately LRT owez got problem and this contribute to more stressfull feeling....hahahhaha...once I enter my house, i told myself, say goodbye to all the stress and work...no stress + work allowed to enter into my house unless with approval(if really urgent to complete that work)....

-now really worried with my weight....need to work out to loss weight but how? so worried about it...it keep gaining instead of losing.really want to lose weight...hahahhahaha

thats all for this time......nothing to update so far coz my life is same like before. nothing change only my age...hahhahahahhaha

Finally My Blog Updated

2009-09-23T22:29:00.003+08:00

Finally, I manage to find time to update my blog. It been quite a long time I haven't update my blog. This is because I couldn't find time to update my blog since last August.

My Convocation

Finally after 4 and half year study, on 16 August 2009, I was officially graduated. hahhaha. So happy because this is the time that I had dreamt since I know what is a dream. When I first enter school, my aim is to go to university and got the scroll. And now, it is for real. I'm very happy because my parent there to share this happy moment although a bit sad coz got no flower for me for my convocation. But nevermind, as long as my parent there.

Fasting Month (Puasa)

A week after my convocation, all the Muslim around the world celebrate Month of Ramadhan. We all fasting for the whole 1 month. The sweet memories is almost for the whole month, I cooked my own meals.hehehhe...Actually, my cooking skill is not that bad coz me and my housemate still alive.hahahhahhaha

Independent Day

Last 31 August, Malaysia celebrate it 52nd Merdeka Celebration with the theme 1 Malaysia. No big parade like the previous years due to fasting month and H1N1 Virus. Plan of celebrate the Merdeka in Kuala Lumpur, but then when I visit MAS website, there got Merdeka Promotion. Promotion? Cheaper ? with MAS? For sure I will grab it and that is what I do. I went back to my hometown.hahahhaha..Thank you Malaysian Airlines for the promo plus I prefer flying back to my hometown with MAS.hehehhehe.

Hari Raya Aidilfitri

Today is the fourth day of Hari Raya Aidilfitri. Well everyone still visiting and wish each other.hehehhe.This year is different from the previous year of Hari Raya because this year I need to give "duit raya" to people. Oh Man....but I'm very happy doing it. Well Sharing is caring

Need to stop since I heard car n motorcycle coming and Im sure the destination is our house. O Man, someone already coming.

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You Are Not Alone

2009-07-23T21:27:00.002+08:00

Hahahaha....juz borrow MJ's song title coz got no suitable title for this post. Plus, now I was lonely in my house.but not really lonely coz got TV and Internet. Actually, I'm owez alone by myself in the house.hehehehhehehe.......

Finally got time to update my blog.hehehehe....

1. Man. U vs Malaysia

Wat a very sweet games.Actually, I'm not really into football but I know a bit about it.Since last week got nothing to do, I just follow my friends to Bukit Jalil for football time.Not because really fanatic with Man United but just want to make my brothers jealous of me since they are Man. United fans.Really happy when I heard they yelled at me on the phone. hahahahha...I was in the stadium with my friend and they only watched it thru television.hehehehe.....by the way...I enjoy the match last saturday but can't watched the next match on monday.

2.Fever

so bad.last tuesday, I got fever for the second time but this time is worst than before.So bad because I need to take MC for 2 days.really hate it coz I hate to take medicine.before this, I don't care about see a doctor or take a medicine when i was got a fever.but currently I become concern with all these things because of H1N1 virus.this virus scared me a lot.hahahahhaha.thanks to all my friend for gave me support even thru sms.hehehheheehehhe

3.HARRY POTTER 6 vs SKRIP 7707

Can't find time to watch Harry Potter.Last week end up with malay movie skrip 7707.my comment?juz nice.....but i still want to watch Harry Potter but need to find frenz who are Harry Potter Fan....

4.The Sister's Keeper by Jodi Picoult

This is a sad novel.Even they made a movie for this movie and the movie version was acted by Cameron Diaz.the ending of the book make me cries.it is a sad story.thank to my friend for introducing me this book.hahahhahahahha.....

got nothing else to type plus the drama in the TV was so interesting.....

stop here.......................................................

Thinking of You

2009-07-11T20:32:00.002+08:00

Hahahaha...what a sweet title...."Thinking of you"......nothing special with that title because now I was listening on Thinking of you song by Katy Perry.Nice song huhu..

July coming....anyway first of all HAPPY JULY BIRTHDAY to my friend....Seila(4th July), Yee Chiea Chai(12 July), dyg Norfaezah-Eppy(11 July) and to those who celebrate their birthday in July. Happy birthday.May God Bless you.....

Story No. 1 : Meet my sister

Last week, finally I met my family member although only one.My sister went back to her campus in Trgganu but then she wanted to meet me at KLIA(I know the main reason: she want me to treat her.....).Nevermind, before she got what she wants, I asked her to bring some stuff from my hometown.hehehehhe.

Story No.2: Happy

So happy, my ex-roommate finally got the job.same as my friend Fiera n Leen.Congratulation to them.So happy can go out lunch together with chiea chai...hehehehhe.During officetime, am not boring anymore coz got Nadirah who owez BUZZ me....hehehehehhe...so happy

Story No.3:Brother

Can't wait to meet my brother, Hisham.It been almost 11 months haven't met him.He will be back from Indonesia next weekend.So happy.And to express my happiness, I book a flight ticket for weekend going back home on 31July......Luckily that time got cheap ticket from MAS and it is more cheaper than AIRASIA.it cost me around 100++ for return ticket(KL-Kuching and Kuching-KL).so, don't want to miss this opportunity.grab the deal and fly back to Sarawak end of this month

Story No.4: Boyfriend???/

I've been asked the same question.statistic 5 question per week for last month.And for sure they really knew the answer.hahhahahhaha....thank for their concern on raising the issue.hehehhehe.before that CONGRATULATION to my PIPERS member Liana for her wedding today and Siti Fatimah for her wedding next month.Can't wait for another friend wedding.hehehhehe.

Almost 09:00pm...no wonder so hungry.need to grab something from kitchen to eat and shutdown my PC and take a rest.hehehehehhe.

Story Telling Time

2009-06-25T20:10:00.004+08:00

Hello again....

Finally I manage to update my blog after a week. hahahaha....

Last Sunday, hang out with Zati and Yani. We had our lunch at Nandos.So happy we met each other.But still got a few members not in.Like Yuzi, Yuen, Yanti and Seila.Hopefully in the next meeting, we can meet each other.After having a very nice lunch, we went to The Curve.Hahahahha...but it is raining when we reach there.We went to IKEA and having a great time there.Don't know what else to type for this section because all the time, me and Zati always bullied Yani.sorry ya Yani.anyway, you're cool.hahhahaha

TRANSFORMERS 2

Hahahahha...finally, the movie that I was waiting for.Yesterday, I watched it together with staff from my department. It is some sort of department movie day. wHAT to say..this second muvie is very great than the first one. Two thumbs up.hahhaha...so enjoy.love bumblebee and the two twins autobots.

after a movie, I accompanied my housemate to LCCT Terminal to fetch her friend. Initially the flight from Yogyakarta supposed to arrive around 8 something and our plan is, when we reach LCCT, her friend already there. But, well Airasia always got one more trademark instead of low air fare.it is synonim with the word delay. Her flight was delayed.Instead of 6pm, the flight was delayed to 8pm something.we wait at the LCCT for quite a long time.I'm ok with waiting but then with the current H1N1(Swine flu) situation, airport become a scary place for me.Most of the people use mask.

What else should I type?This is why I hate update my blog.If i'm so lazy, got so many idea inside my mind.but when I'm very excited to type, everything fly away.hahahhaha...

Everything about refresh myself

2009-06-14T18:01:00.005+08:00

Hahaha....it seems long time I haven't write anything for my blog.So, I will told everything that happen to me for the last two weeks

Trip to Johor

Last week,(5/5/09), I followed my housemate, Shikin, went back to her hometown in Johor. Nice journey. At the first sight on he way to her house, I felt boring coz there's nothing only the palm tree along the road plus the journey take a long time.But after a few times pass by the same road, I changed my mind. Actually, it is a nice scenario. It make our mind relax n refresh just by looking at the tree along the road.Thankx to Shikin family for welcoming me to their house.Nice house and got so many flower outside their house.And when looked at the flowers, it remind me of my mom. She love gardening.If got extra time, she will look after her flower. Thank again to her family for everything.

Movie: Hannah Montana The Movie & Drag me to Hell

Last wednesday, I watched Hannah Montana The Movie with Azrin, Shikin,Sha and Izyan.Thank to them for inviting me to join them. It is an enjoyable movie coz I no need to think. I just went there, sit relax then enjoy the movie. Love all the song such as Best of the Both World, Hoe Down Throw Down and The Climb. But the best song is Hoe Down Throw Down coz it make me feel I want to join the dancing.so enjoy.

Yester day, I went for shopping with my housemate, Ain at Berjaya Times Square and Jalan Tunku Abdul Rahman. Before that we were having our movie. Initial plan we wanted to watch 17 again(becoz of Zac Efron). But then it was sold out for the show at 1:45. At the same time, there were promo for Drag me to Hell.So, we decided to watch that movie although Ain was afraid of the horror movie.But then I enjoy the movie. It make me feel disgusting, mad, angry, laugh and creepy.Nice movie to watch coz it make you scream because there are some unexpected scene when the demon suddenly appeared.

Jennylyn Mercado - P.S. I Love You - La Vendetta Theme Song

Finally I managed to download this song. I don't really know the meaning of the song coz it was in Philiphines but then I really love the song.First I heard this song when I was watching, La Vendetta, the first Philiphines thriller series. It is a sad movies and it make me feel confuse to make a guess who is the real killer coz everyone seem to have a potential to be a killer. Really love this song and I can make a summarize that this song is about a relationship and love.

Shopping

As I mention earlier, yesterday I went to shop.Actually, it is Ain who want to shop for Baju Kurung but it ends up, I bought a pair of sandal for myself at the Princess and for sure, each time when sent for shopping, I will buy a novel.Hahahaha...gone my money for this week...huhuhuhuhu

Happy Father's Day

Today is a father's day and I want to wish HAPPY FATHER'S DAY to my dad and all the father in this world.As for my dad, you're the BEST father in my life.

GOOD NEWS

this week I got good news. Finally Leen n my rumet during study, Yee Chiea Chai got a job.Thank God.I'm so happy for them

Yesterday, one of my PIPE'S friend, Sikin got married in Seremban. Congratulation to her.

Last week, finally, I can trace back my kindergarden n primary school friend, Fitri Shafini. Now she's working in Putra Jaya and I'm looking foward to meet her soon.

Yani, friend who I met during internship will be coming to KL this coming week. She told me that she will meet me, Zati and Yuzi.Can't wait for her

My brother who study in Indonesia will be coming home for a holiday on July until early September. So happy. Now I will plan the date so that I can meet him.Miss him.hahahhaha

Think that all for this time.No idea what to write again.hahahahha.feel hungry lor...

Movie for today:Syurga Cinta + Night at the museum 2

2009-05-23T22:27:00.003+08:00

Today is movie marathon day for me...I watched 2 movie in one day...Syurga Cinta and Night at the Museum 2...this is my frens idea and as long as everyone enjoy it,it's ok.plus we got nothing to do.Luckily both muvie are nice to watch.

Compare between these two movies, all of us prefer Syurga Cinta.The storyline is simple but interesting to watch.Credit to all the characters especially haziq tom tom bak.His character makes everyone laugh especially when he deal with his brother.Got many funny scene but it is not the empty funny scene.There got some advice and reminder for us to relook back at ourselves.Love the part that told about "Jodoh" or soulmate.
"Jodoh" have 3 categories

Jodoh that was decide by syaitan = couple and make something that not right in the religion perspectives until the lady got pregnant then the couple get married

Jodoh that was decide by Jin = guy whose love not response by the lady, then he uses black magic to make the lady love and attract to him, then they got married

Jodoh that was decide by God = both(guy and lady) have something inside their heart when they see each other for the first sight, then the guy propose the lady then married and while married, follow the religion rules, they will be happily ever after

Love the proposal part.so sweet and unique.

P/S : I love the house that was used for this movie...so luxury, big and rich...but I just can dream

As for Night at the museum 2, it's ok and for me it a bit better than the 1st film.This muvie make us laugh and we enjoy watching it.Love the war part..so funny....

Oh ya..want to share something about the novels I read.Very bad, before this, the only novel hat make me cry when read it was...forgot the title....but now, this one novel make me cry till the last.the title is Andai Itu TakdirNya. that is a very nice novel and if i'm not mistaken that novel got highest demand from the reader until it was printed many time.the storyline was very sad and dramatic.Poor the main character.But she is very patient to handle all the problem.

I think, I need to stop now because my finger very busy typing until I'm not sure which one to type.my YM and GTalk keep pop up and need response plus my sister busy sms me.anyway, next time I will continue with more stories...

NOW.......

2009-05-20T21:26:00.003+08:00

NOW....
I'm really miss my family. don't know why. Maybe because before this, when I was far away from my family, I knew that in a year I got a long holiday during the semester break to be together with them. Now, I already became a working person and need to plan properly when I should went back to my hometown. Every morning when I woke up, I always wish that I will received a call from my family member telling that they will come here to visit me.But, it is just only a wish.The most happy moment in my life is when I can talk to my family.Really miss all the time that I spent together with them.

NOW....
I really need to control my money very well. Living in KL involved high cost.But the most thing that I hate is all the expenditure belong to foods. Don't know how to control when it come to food.If anything, I still can control but then when involved food, i'm really loss.That make me feel angry. Why food more expensive than other thing?? Now I need to spend approximately RM15/day only for "makan".(just a random planning, of course in some situation that RM15 will increase.Got so many thing need to be paid.House rent, utilities(water + electric bill), astro bill,phone bill,internet bill,LRT Pass, etc...Sometimes I make a joke with my housemate. If everything become worst and difficult for us, better we get married quickly so that everything will be handled by our husband...hahahha...stupid joke I think.

NOW...
B4 this only my friend asked me this bonus question, but now it like a virus.Last saturday during the AF show my auntie sms me and ask about my status. Even my mom also become "who want to be a millionaire" host.This is because of my sister. Last week, her boyfriend bravely came and visit our house.Luckily my dad not at home that time.Only my mum. My brothers told me that the guy quite OK but then I think he was regret for bravely came to our house. He's so nervous and not talk much in front of my mother(as what had been told by my busy body brothers).hahaha...actually my sister also surprise when he suddenly appear in front of our house.so bad i'm not there at that time. I can tease him.hahahha...but then it will be another story for me when everyone will ask me when is my time.Supposely I'm the one bcoz i'm the eldest but then the younger take over first.hahahha...let them be.

NOW....
While writing this blog, I was listening to the music...hahaha..song in my playing list tonight were, Fall for you(secondhand serenade), I go(Aizat), Angle(Atilia),Raja Jatuh Cinta(Numata),Right Now(Akon ft Kat Deluna),Bencinta(Faizal Tahir),treat me right(BSB),A little too not over(David Archuletta),No ordinary love(Jennifer love hewitt),it's over(Jesse McCartney),Thinking of You(Katy Perry),my life would suck without you(kelly clarkson), love story(taylor swift),kiss me thru the phone(soulja boy),batas waktu(the titans)....that's all. so by the end of my posting i can finish listen to all these songs.hahahha.

NOW....
I feel sleepy and tired.huhuhu...well, everyone know what the meaning of that signal.hahahaha....
got no idea to write lor...just the normal day to day routine.nothing interesting.

Oh Man!!!
I forgot, I need to call my mum tonight, but its already late and for sure she already went to sleep. Nevermind lor...tomorrow morning I'll call her....
huhhuhu

Angel & Demon

2009-05-14T23:50:00.005+08:00

Well the above picture are the picture that can describe my happiness in my last post...hahhaa

This evening I got a chance to watch the new film by the da vinci code producer, "Angle & Demon". Actually I was so excited to watch this movie because based on the storyline in the novel is very great.after watched the movies I can say this movie is nice to watch but for those who already read the novel, please don't expect it will be the same as the storyline in the novel.but then it still maintain the main story plot in the novel just that for certain scene it is not really following the novel version.actually, before watched this movie, I never expect that much because before this got so many movie that was adaptation from the novel.Anyway, I love this movie.In certain scene, I can feel the situation.A few moment after exit the cinema hall, I straight away message my friend, Ina to watch this movie.hahaha

It is May, and this mean it is semester break for some university student.most of my friend was in final year and already went back to sarawak either for holiday or find a suitable job there.leave me alone here(actually not that alone...hahaha)...Just now, I browse my facebook and feel surprised with one news.My schooltime friend,Hazelyn will be getting married on 3 June,2 days after Gawai celebration. I'm not sure whether its true or just a rumour.anyway, i wish congratulation to her...everyone surprised with that news.nevermind, her time already come.now wait for my time..

New age New Memories

2009-05-12T22:21:00.003+08:00

hahaha.... 3 mei 2009...no need calculator becz it just a simple mathematic calculation....my age plus one....that mean i'm getting "younger"...hahaha

after a long time, finally i got time to update my blog.the most important reason is my frenz asked me what happen to my blog?is it still alive?...thank frenz...my blog still alive but the owner was not in good condition.I was caught with the "lazy virus" + "no idea virus"...(lame reason)

anyway....let me conclude what happen to me for the last 5mths in a simple sentence...hahaha

Alhamdulillah...finally I got job.yeay so happy...what make me happy to the maximum is when i saw my family smile heard the news that i got job.their happiness and blessing is more important for me than anything else. Now I'm happily working in one of the biggest multinational company in Malaysia.

NEW LIFE

Bukan benda baru tinggal menyewa bersama kawan2.bezanya this time it for the whole working period.dulu hanya 8 bulan jer.skrg smuanya berbeza berbanding time intern dulu.skrg memang menguji sy py management skill especially yg melibatkan duit.don't know why, now i'm addicted to food, shopping(lebih kpd window shopping jer), movie n berjalan2.sometimes, if member busy x dapat temankan, i prefer to go by myself.enjoy jer bla buat smua tue.hilang smua probs(macamlah pernah ada masalah)...tp mmg fresh lah after buat smua tue.

FAMOUS QUESTION

"Bila nak kahwin?" itulah salam perkenalan setiap kali jumpa member lama.kdg2 rimas jugak coz mereka sendiri pun tau, aku mana ada boyfriend.sepatutnya aku yg ty mereka that kind of question coz mereka dah lama couple.takkanlah aku just nak main kahwin jer ikut suka hati.but i just anggap soalan tue macam password utk setiap kali bertemu.syok jugak bla org ty.reason:coz aku boleh kenakan mereka balik ... mereka lebih lama couple dr aku so mereka patut dulu.my standard answer to their question : tunggu smua my frenz kawen baru i kawen...nice ar that jawapan.

TEATER MAHSURI

On 30 april 2009, first time in my life tgk teater kat Istana Budaya.itu salah satu dream aku.thanks to Laili n Wani for inviting me and the others for joining us.Nice teater but the most sweet memories is bla dapat ambik gambar ngan Hans Isaac...so hensem n macho...taklehlah nak upload coz something wrong wif my PC...xleh nak upload gambar...

Rasanya tu jer kot utk setakat nie....ngantuk dah...esok nak kerja....ada masa kite citer lagi...lagipun skrg nie xder benda menarik yg berlaku in my life....yg i tau...skrg byk habiskan duit utk makan jer

HAPPY NEW YEAR

2009-01-08T14:59:00.003+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2009...GOODBYE 2008

Finally I got time to update my blog.Lama dah rasanya tak update blog. Reason?No reason.Maybe because got nothing to say and so enjoy my life to the maximum this time.hahaha.Oklah, since now I got time to update my blog, here I will tell all the stories and the experiences that I had gain since my flight arrived in Kuching International Airport on 21 November 2008.

Sampai je kat rumah pada 21hb tue saya trus bersiap utk ke rumah cousin saya.esok harinya die nak kahwin.so itulah the first activity yg saya buat sebaik sahaja sampai.tp actually, letih jugak sebenarnya sepanjang november and december.Almaklumlah school holiday and the famous event is wedding reception.Believe it or not sometimes in one day, we received until 5 wedding reception invitation cards. Kiranya, setiap ahad adalah hari makan sedunia.itu belum lagi makanan yg orang kasi kat adik2 saya yg buat kerja katering sambilan untuk majlis tertentu.makanan yg diberi kat mereka mmg banyak gile.conclusionnya, setiap sabtu dan ahad dalam bulan december adalh hari makan free.seronoknye makan nasi minyak.hahahaha

tamat jer bulan december, bulan januari pun datang.itulah masanya budak2 sekolah busy nak beli barang2 sekolah.tension tengok adik2 busy nak beli kasut,bag,buku2 n segala macam barang yg berkaitan dengan sekolah.rindu plak nak masuk sekolah.yelah, sekolah adalh tempat yg paling best.kini bla dah hbs belajar rindu balik nak sekolah.tahun nie Helmi dapat masuk sekolah asrama.sunyi jgk bla die takde kat rumah.yelah, dulu masa dia ada kat rumah dielah "houseboy" kami org adik-beradik.asal ada apa2 barang nak buat sikit mesti nama helmi yg glamor.terasa jugak bila die takde.selain kami, kucing kesayangannya, Momo pun rindukannya jugak.yelah Momolah yg dikepit setiap malam.bla nak tidur jer cari Momo dulu.Momo pun satu,if takde helmi bukannya nak tidur.tp sayang,minggu nie Momo demam.demam rindu.tapi esok oklah tue coz esok helmi balik bermalam.tak sabar nak dgr cerita n loyar buruknya.trademark helmi, MU.asal bola jer MU.tensen gak kdg2 bla ada perlawanan MU, jgn harap kami nak tgk TV.die dah siap awal2 ngan baju,seluar n cap MU die.fanatik sgt.

tahun nie Nizam dah masuk form 3 n die pun kene sekolah sesi pagi.so pagi2 kat rumah juz tggl i n jiji jer.tp jiji?no komen.biasalah budak lelaki.sementara tgg SPM nie die kata nak cari kerja tp apa yg i tgk sampai arini bukan kerja tp melepak.or mungkin itulah kerja yg dia maksudkan.tp td die bgtau kat my parent die dpat kerja jd housecleaning kat sebuah hotel kat Kuching atas bantuan kawan die.Alhamdulillah.tapi i jgk yg boring pagi2.bapak kerja n mak plak sometimes pergi ke kebun nenasnya.i jadi security guard.selalunya tak saBAR nak tgg jam 130 coz time tue semua adik2 dah balik sekolah.keri n nizam dulu balik then baru izzati.

skrg nie juz tgg tawaran utk bekerja.duduk lama2 kat rumah boring jugak rupa2nya.tp heran jugak, camne member lain yg dah tamat belajar sejak bulan 7,8,9 boleh thn duduk tanam anggur kat rumah. I mmg tak tahan.boring beb.

OH MAn...kene stop sekarang coz hujan n kilat sekarang n my mum dah mula membebel suruh stop.
c in the next update.

Finally...

2008-11-21T01:50:00.007+08:00

Finally, hari yang ditunggu2 datang jugak.tepat jam 1130 saya siapkan my very2 last exam paper as a student.then, i'm no longer student.hahaha.2 thn tadika + 6 thn primary school + 5 thn secondary school + 41/2 thn universiti=cukuplah.dah tak larat dah.otak pun dah nak meletup.

Usually bila start cuti semester semestinya sayalah org yg lewat balik antara smua kawan2 saya.but for this time, i'm the early one.actually nak jugak spend masa utk enjoy ngan member2 lain tapi nak jugak balik awal coz cousin i kahwin n saya xnak terlepas tgk majlis kahwin dia.why?because dialah satu2nya girl dalam family dia.sekurang2nya bglah support skit dgn dtg kat majlis kahwin die.lagipun bukan org lain,family sendiri. At the time, my other cousin ada convocation kat putrajaya. dia bawak satu family datang KL tgk die punya convo.akhirnya dia dpt buktikan wpun dah tua, still boleh belajar juak.congrats to her n sorry coz x dpat dtg untuk the best day in her life.so difficult to make a decision actually.half of myself nak balik awal n half lagi nak stay sekejap sama ngan member.

today, i habiskan masa sebaiknya ngan member2.malam mereka datang bilik.THANK to Leen,Fiera,mega,wani,aimi,anisa,cikun,sha,azrin n smua yg sms i n gtalk i(sorry coz not mention all your name but really appreciate all the wish.sorry coz xdpt nak jumpa you all face to face coz i kene bertolak jam 6 pg).thank to you all wpun some of you ada misi nak buat i menangis.but really sorry coz i can't cry.dah habis energy nak nangis.dah puas dah sedih before hari ini coz nak prepare sendiri agar tak menangis utk last day.reason?i prefer the last moment spend ngan kawan2 dalam suasana happy2 n ceria.really hate tears n people cry coz i look bad when i'm sad.i dah mula rasa sedih since ahad lepas lagi but then nasib baik my rumet tidak perasan coz die ingat i tgk muvie sedih.actually i tak tengok apa2 muvie pun.dengar lagu then suddenly rasa sedih plak.teringat kat saat2 bersama semua org.dulu time sekolah ada jugak perpisahan camni tapi tak sesedih perpisahan ini.reason?coz kami smua dari negeri yg berlainan then peluang untuk bertemu susah sekali.tak macam kawan2 sekolah.even semua belajar kat tempat lain2 but then at the end of the day still balik kat tempat yg sama n still can see each other.so sad right now but my sad mood dah kene kacau ngan rumet.die baru balik dari kuar ngan kawan2 die.

Bila belek2 semua lagu2 yg ada dalam simpanan, ada beberapa lagu yang buat saya tak tahan then terus sedih.kat sini i pastekan lirik lagu tersebut and the rest of my feeling this time can be describe through the lyric of these songs.

SEMUA TENTANG KITA-PETER PAN
================================
Waktu terasa semakin berlalu
Tinggalkan cerita tentang kita
Akan tiada lagi kini tawamu
Tuk hapuskan semua sepi di hati

Teringat di saat kita tertawa bersama
Ceritakan semua tentang kita

Reff:

Ada cerita tentang aku dan dia
Dan kita bersama saat dulu kala
Ada cerita tentang masa yang indah
Saat kita berduka saat kita tertawa

BUKAN BINTANG BIASA
============================================
Once upon a time ada sebuah bintang
Yang bersinar terang di hatimu
Ku akan datang lagi menjemputmu dengan cinta
Kan kubagikan semua bintangku
Kumiliki bintang, bukan bintang biasa
Ku bisa hapuskan semua dukamu
Ku tak akan menghilang, slalu ada di hatimu
Memberi bintang hanya untuk cinta

Reff
Dan yang terbaik selamanya bersama
Akan kubagikan bintangku demi cintamu
And when you keep on believing
Thousand ones can be sees by running
The miracles can do things though can’t do
Kumiliki bintang, bukan bintang biasa
Ku bisa hapuskan semua dukamu
Ku tak akan menghilang, slalu ada di hatimu
Memberi bintang hanya untuk cinta
Dan yang terbaik selamanya bersama
Akan kubagikan bintangku demi cintamu
And when you keep on believing
Thousand ones can be sees by running
The miracles can do things though can do
Dan yang terbaik selamanya bersama
Akan kubagikan bintangku demi cintamu
And when you keep on believing
Thousand ones can be sees by running
The miracles can do things though can’t do
The miracles can do things though can’t do

Feel like to write something

2008-11-13T21:20:00.002+08:00

What an idiot title for this post...actually suddenly I feel like to write something today.Maybe because of pressure for the Business and Cyber Law paper tomorrow.I think I become more weird.Everyone busy reviewing and struggle for tomorrow but what am I doing?Business and Cyber Law is the very "handsome and susah dipikat" subject for this semester.This is not my opinion only but just mewakili perasaan member2 yg lain.Banyak sgt law yg kene baca.sometimes terfikir plak if i can create my own law...but maybe untuk beberapa tahun akan datang n bukan esok hari coz esok is my final exam.oh man!!! really headache to think about Contract Act, Company n Partnership Law,law of tort, computer crime act and digital signature act.

Finally my 4 years n a half almost reach to the end.like what had been posted in my last post, this mean the ending and the beginning.siap ada member yg dah buat countdown lagi.my last paper is on 20 november and after that i'm FREE. Plan awal nak balik on the next day friday 21 november since got nothing to do again here.Everyone including my roommate seem have their own farewell plan with their "cik abang".I don't want to be left alone in my room with the "fastest internet connection in the world" so its better for me to pack up everything and fly back to my hometown and meet my family.what a common plan...

Farewell with friends?well tomorrow nite after the BCL, we will go out for our farewell.Place n activities?not plan yet coz everyone busy with exam.Me n Megala plan to do this and that but then need to cancel that plan coz we afraid that Fiera (sorry fiera coz takut awk xnak ke tempat tue jer) will not agree with the place that we plan to go. So just wait until tomorrow evening then me n mega draft our plan.that is my farewell with my friend since foundation(fiera,wani,yee,leen n mega).how about my vietnamese frenz, Dieu n Huyen.and others as well.i love all of them.

Last Sunday, I received a bad news.one of my family members(my uncle) passed away.I make an analogy that I had a bad luck with letter M & S come together.Last semester (in same year), a a nite before my Strategic Management(SM) paper, My grandma passed away and this semester, a day before Malaysian Studies (MS) paper, my uncle passed away.cannot blame the fate because as a human, we must be prepared for death and any news regarding the death.

Today,my brother,Helmi received his UPSR result.Congratulation for him eventhough he only got 2A 3B but I'm not expecting high target for him because I know his level but still I hope he will succeed for his future.And Good Luck for my other brother,GG, for his SPM.die nie adik lelaki I yg paling bermasalah selain Keri.but still i love them coz walaupun kadang2 bergaduh sampai nak mampus ngan mereka dua nie, tapi at the end of the day, I am still the important person for them especially if they want something that they can only get through me.

So sad last saturday watching my favourite series Ghost Whisperer.Last week episode for the new season 4 make me sad and make me cry.My favourite actor, Jim, Melinda husband dies.I love this series not only because of the supernatural stories about the person who can communicate with the death but also the husband wife loving couple relationship between Jim and Melinda.what will happen next???Jim cannot die.Love him.Last nite I watched the new episode of House new season 5.love last nite episode because House got some unexplain feeling finally...its maybe love feeling.Its difficult to watch him with these facial expression and feeling.Love you Dr House.Although his not that handsome, but i love his character.

OH MY GOD!!!already 10.00pm.tomorrow paper start at 9.00 am.need to stop right now to review back my Business and Cyber Law.GOODLUCK 4 ME N OTHER FRENZ TOMORROW.

The End or The Beginning

2008-10-31T09:45:00.002+08:00

Wah!!! finally i got time to update my blog.it is not because the "lazy virus" or "slow internet connection virus" but very busy.But now I'm free (at least for this moment b4 final exam)....

THE END

I only have less than a month in UTP.After 4 years, finally the day that I had been waiting for knock my door.happy or sad?can't explain my feeling right now.for this time being, my heart say,she happy but for sure later on she will say she very sad.many bad n sweet memories and experience i learnt here.

24/10- Free from FYP (only presentation) but still feel release.FYP make my life busy and that word always appear each time i do some other work. But now,no need to think about it.anyway, FYP also brought many sweet memories.Everyone work together and support each other.With this FYP thing, it seems like everyone become care about each other even before this we are not that close.Besides that, we can learn new thing from each other because everone have different project with different programming style.so now i can say that FYP not that bad.it also good even it make my life miserable.
27/10-ICTBIS gathering...not everyone able to come together since that day also Deepavali Holiday.so enjoy and refreshing..but the bad thing is, I slept the whole evening after went back from the gathering.

so many thing happen for the last 4 years here. sometimes hope the time moves faster but sometimes hope tomorrow never comes.but it is normal."setiap pertemuan pasti ada perpisahan"....so this is the 4th time for me to wish goodbye n goodluck to my frenz.1st..during kindergarten, then primary school, followed by secondary school n now university.but its good actually coz if no goodbye, we will not know how important that person in our life.never mind, we can set a target later on;when should we meet again.

The Beginning

the end of student life mean the new beginning of another stage in my life.my future?until now, i'm not sure what i want to do next.the only thing in my head now is short time planning that is finish my final exam.but after that, what should i do?no future planning.don't know why....i still remember when i was a kid..i have plan many thing for my life.but when i grow up, that excitement become low until finally i don't have any plan on what to do.

the next stage of my life is also involved the new beginning for new friendship.but at the same time, need to retain the current friendship so that we get more friend and enlarge our love loop.

actually i'm really worry about the new beginning.this is because, in this new stage of my life, i need to earn money on my own and this is the time i need to work not only for myself but for my family.my father will be retired soon and i think this is the time for me to take a responsibility to take care of my family since i'm the eldest.feel so scared actually becoz i'm not sure if i can take this big responsibility.but then still so excited when think about it.

think that all for this time coz feel so hungry.need to search for something that can be eat.

Mix Everything

2008-10-10T09:15:00.005+08:00

First of All, Selamat Hari Raya AidilFitri

This morning I feel like to update my blog.so here I will mix all the stories and experience for the last few weeks until last nite.hahaha

Raya Preparation

So tired. I went back to my hometown 4 days be4 Hari Raya.well, I already expected that all my beloved brothers will be happy bcoz they are free from any housework.my two sisters?..the younger one can be escape bcoz she know nothing except being happy.but the other one, she only work according to her mood. If she wants to do it, she will do it.but if not,nothing to say.Once I stepped into my house, my brothers started to told me what had been done by them and what they left for me.So bad bcoz my task is 8 over 10 of their tasks. Anyway, I "LOVE" them.

KEK LAPIS

hahaha..compulsory thing for Hari Raya in Sarawak. This year I only baked two kek lapis.The second one I baked on Hari Raya nite.Everyone busy with fireworks and "mercun", I was in the kitchen for my Kek Lapis. Here I attached the picture of some KeK.

HARI RAYA

Selamat Hari Raya.this year not all our family member celebrate it together. My brother (the one after me) not going back to celebrate it. He was studying in Indonesia.everyday he called us everyday until we feel boring with him. But what to do.we must understand his feeling.hahaha.this year Hari rAya very tiring.on the third day of hari raya, we need to buy again the ingredients for kek lapis.our cake finish on second day of hari raya.not all but 4 cakes.but we still not feeling good if we just serve a few to our guest.

FYP

Nothing to comment under this topic.can't wait to finish it and remove it from my mind

Wani Birthday

Last nite, I went out with Mega, Fiera, Wani and Yee to celebrate Wani Birthday. first we plan to go to Pizza Hut but then fiera got briefing until 9:30pm.so we went to Ikan Bakar Lumut and celebrate her birthday there. Hope she enjoy our celebration for her.hahaha.

TODAY!!!!!

Back to normal student life with assignments....

Suatu pagi yg sunyi.......

2008-09-15T05:33:00.003+08:00

akhirnya ada jgk masa untuk update blog nie.seblm nie ada jer masa tapi biasalah time tue terkena virus "MALAS" ,virus "NO IDEA" n virus "SLOW INTERNET CONNECTION"..tp paginie virus tue dah dapat di "remove" tp xtahu berapa lama.hahaha..merepek pagi2 nie..
arini dah 15 hari berpuasa rupanya tp x terasa plak coz maybe week b4 this very busy with assignmnt, test,progress report,FYP n etc. sampai xperasan masa berjalan dgn pantas.okaylah..sekarang time untuk update blog.

Last week is the most busy and important week in my life for 2008.Why?my second youngest brother Helmi sat for his UPSR,my first brother Hisyam started his lectures in Indonesia and I got PETRONAS interview on Friday. First, let we talk about Helmi. My mum very worried with him since a week b4 UPSR he doesn't look like someone who will take any test. When my mum asked him to study n review back all the thing that he learnt, he has his own answer scheme for such question "cikgu madah iboh blajar agik.kelak stress susah.mun otak dah tensen,sik apat jawab soalan kelak...[our teacher said, don't study too hard or it will make us stress.if we are tension, we can't manage to answer the question]"...not only my mum, even when my aunty asked him, that his answer.like a tape recording.But what make me n other sibling feeling like to kill him was when we wished him for good luck, he told my mum, he felt like a popular person.all sis n bros called him and wish him goodluck.luckily we are far away from home.if not, we will samck him.
okay..move to my bro Hisyam.Last Tuesday was his first lecture session in one of University in Indonesia.The next morning, he called my mum and told her that he had a difficulties there during first session. He seem having difficulties in understanding the Indonesia language used by people there.but then he tried his best to solve this problem.One more thing, this is first time in his life celebrating Fasting Month at other country and far away from home.Actually compare to him, me and other family members miss him so much during this fasting month and the coming hari raya.but when he called home, we just not showed it to him.during fasting month, he is like a second chef in our house if my mum very busy. This is because in our family, only my mum and all my 5 brothers love cooking but the girls including me, the first child hate cooking.my mum always told me that I'm the eldest and should learn how to cook.but the problem is i hate cooking but i love eating.so now all my 5 brothers love cooking so let i'm just be the princess.hahaha..i miss the time when they all cooks something and all 8 of us shared it.ok..continue with my bro Hisyam[hopefully he will not read this blog]....we will miss him during this coming raya coz he not able to back home due to the expensive flight ticket.usually a few day before raya, he was the one who decorate and do house cleaning. we can't help him becoz, he already warned us not to interrupt in his business.if we touched anything that he needs for cleaning and decoration, he will stop his job and not continued it.so for this year, its all depend to the us [did not have any magic touching in decoration]...every raya everyone who came into my house impressed with his touch and this make us jealous of him.but this year....well, actually I should be happy because this is the time i can show my talent...hahahhaha
Next,my interview.i don't know how to describe it.either ok or not ok.but i think its ok because i do not have any sad or bad feeling.what i remember is after i done with the interview, i went back to my room with happy face then i slept for almost 5 hours.everyone know what does that mean?????

Saturday coming...
the night before that, I got sms from mega asking me for joining her to Ipoh for PC Fair.well that is my weaknesses.if someone asking me going out during weekend, i always say YES as long as we come back before 6pm.but still limit to term and condition.hahhaha..the one who asked me must be my friend and same attitude like me.ok..lets continue.We took a bus from UTP to Medan Kid, then from Medan Kid, we took another bus to Stadium Indera Mulia.got so many people.we spend almost one hour there.then aftr that we took bus to Ipoh Parade for shopping time.not really shopping becoz Mega the one who do all the shopping while I'm just do window shopping.I love to see nice n sweet thing but for me to buy these thing is difficult.reason:i will think the reason why i must buy that thing and did i really need that thing.another reason is i don't want to make myself feel guilty for using my money since i can save that money for future usage.but then, sometimes i will feel regret of not buying the thing that i wanted.nevermind, for this time being let just save the money.plus i got 7 more sibling who are still studying and for sure my dad need to use a large amount of money to support them.but since i got a sponsorship, let just use it wisely only for my study and help my sibling in also if got some extra.well, sometimes, i always looking back to my past where at that time I just only see my friend's parent buy everything that their child wanted.that time i alway wish that i was born into a rich family.but then i'm still happy with my family although we are not that rich becoz my father still can support our school.love you dad n u also mum.
O Man!!! "LAZY" virus start to attack again because i haven't on the "FIREWALL".what should i do? ok..let just stop here before I was attacked by the "NO IDEA" virus.hihihihi

~I FALL IN LoVe With.....

2008-09-07T09:34:00.004+08:00

Tengah bersemangat and busy menaip report utk Corp Communication nyer group assignment, tetiba satu SMS masuk.wow!its from my frenz.kandungan SMS die..."define love in your own word".tertanya2 jgk kenapa die hantar soalan bonus tanpa hadiah tue.then i just reply without answering the question.sebenarnya itu soalan dr love partner die utk die.dia xder idea nak jawab apaso die susahkan kawan2 dia lah.tp sy begitu malas nak balas explain panjang2 kat die, i pun bgtaulah kat die...Love is universal....then i suruh die huraikan sendirilah coz die bercinta so die sendiri yg tau maksud LOVE.Dia punyalah geram then BUZZ me in my YM for my full explanation.tp itu x membantu die coz i cdgkan die baca novel cinta or tgk movie/series cinta or perhatikan org2 disekeliling dia then dia akan jumpa jawapan utk soalan dia.dia still x puas hati so i just decide utk die spy tgk definition from the other friends yg dia sms.
lepas jer habis layan dia, i pun teruskan report CC i.then baru i perasan, assgmt i pun ada kaitan dgn love.arggghhhh....apasal pgnie semuanya dlm mood LOVE.after subuh my mum called and baru i realize yg i dah 6 hari tak call rumah.aT the end of conversation,i cakap kat mak i, kirim salam sayang rindu kat semua family.Sayang? still ada kaitan dgn love.so bla fikir semua nie, i dpt idea nakupdatekan blog i n gunakan love sebagai main topik.why?Because I fall in love now...with whom???? just read through the following post

I FALL IN LOVE WITH ........

My God, my Believe

I fall in love with this everyday and everytime.lebih2 lagi time bulan puasa nie.i taknak cakap banyak ttg cinta terhadap my first love nie coz my love cannot be express infront of public.

My family

I fall in love with my family.they are my strengths, weaknesess and they are everything in my life.this is because family relationship is something that was born in nature and we cannot deny the existence of this relationship.my family is my priority among others thing.i will feel the pain if one of them especially my parent get hurt.hmmmm....now im thinking of my family and our time together.when i was a child i always felt jealous with other frenz who come from a rich family.but as i grew up, then i realize something,as long as we live in happiness n not hurting others, we also can become a rich family.during our free time, me together with my other 7 siblings sit together in one room and then make a dream to become a rich people and build a big house.that activities always been done when our parent not home and sometimes we talked about it in front of our parent.Sometimes when we had a fight, our house condition is like an earthquake but then a few days later we still can laugh at each other because everyone look so funny when avoiding each other.That why I fall in love with my family

My friends

I fall in love with my friends.although sometimes we not satisfied with each other and even had an argument with each other but still we are friend and still need each other to complete our life.Friend is like my second family because they are the one that close to me after my family.luckily i'm still in contact with my friends from the kindergarden time until now.although not all but still we still maintain our relationship until now.last year, many of my friend getting married.sometimes when we accidently met somewhere else, we try our best to recognize or remember at least name and when our first meeting. that is the beauty of friend that makes me fall in love with my friends

Myself

I fall in love with myself.why?because sometimes there is no answer for why....

Foods

This is the best part.I fall in love with all the delicious food as long as it is halal.among all the foods, i'm dying falling in love with my mums cooking plus my brothers cooking since i'm very bad in cooking.that's why i appreciate food because i know i can't cook these foods.although these food looks nice and delicious but then if my eyes catch a "sardin", so my priority is sardin.hahahahha.chocolate and ice-cream is my favourite.

Nature and Environment

why?because i grew up by witnessing the beautiful nature and environment.if i have an opportunity to help saving the environment, i would love to do it

Peace and harmony

inilah elemen yg semakin pupus kat muka bumi nie.kemusnahan di mana2 n ramai org yg tak bersalah terseksa.apa salah mereka.the powerful people think that they are powerful and can do what they want without concern about peace and live of others.mereka senanglah.lepas menyusahkan hidup org, mereka sekeluarga still can enjoy their life,having parties tp org yg terlibat dlm konspirasi jahat mereka n mangsa2 konspirasi jahat mereka hidup susah.org mcam nie patut mati coz mereka x diperlukan kat dunia nie.Kdg2 rasa nak suruh mereka uji dulu konspirasi jahat tue ke atas diri mereka sendiri sblm mereka buat kat org lain.igt nyawa n kehidupan org tue patung yg takde perasaan ker.uishhh... gerammm...so time nie sokonglah lagu "where is the love"

my belongings and properties

I love my belonging and properties because some of it is a gifts from people to me and some of it i get it with my own effort.when i look at these things, it makes me fall in love with them because they remind me about the relationship, sincerity,beauty,life and hardworking

Money

Sometimes I fall in love with money but this love is not last forever because I only fall in love with money for some reason and purpose.BUT I owez kept in mind that money cannot buy LOVE.

....... there's a lot of thing that make me fall in love.That is my answer when my friend asked me did i fall in love.when i met the old friend, the most famous bonus question without award and prize i get is..."are you still single?".my answer is simple.i have so many thing to be loved and no time for the love between girl n boy.my family and myself is everything for this time....

OH NOOOO!!!!!!I still got many thing to do..My CC report,FYP report n application,CE assignmt,Malaysian studies assignment..then i got a BCL n MS test....

see...that is why i say I have no time for love between girl n boy.ok i stop here, my phone calling and its my mum again...

Beautiful Sky Art

2008-08-24T12:57:00.007+08:00

so beautiful. The above picture was taken on 22/08/08 at 7.27pm at UTP Convo Square.That time, I was on my way back to my hostel with my friend after having a dinner at Convofair place.The sky view at that time are very nice and beautiful, so I snap a picture.

A few days before that, on 16/08/08, I was captured by the beautiful of UTP sky.That night is the fullmoon nite.The two pictures I posted above show the fullmoon process in the sky.These picture was taken from my room window view.So nice and beautiful.

The above picture was taken on 13/08/08 on 6.25pm from my room window also a view of UTP sky.hihihihihi

What is FRIEND?

2008-08-21T14:19:00.003+08:00

When mention about FRIENDS,everyone start to think about their friend.Some of them might also start to count how many friend they have since their childhood time.Everyone must have friend at least one in their entire life.Sometimes I asked myself, did I really understand what is the meaning of FRIEND?Do I really have a good FRIENDSHIP with my friends?Why people need friend in their life? why we being a friend for so many people at the same time? what is the real rules in friendship?All these question comes into my mind.

Why I choose to post this topic? Because sometimes I don't know what to do and when I don't know what to do, I alway think about this kind of silly question.SometimesI asked myself,why should I care about all those thing.Even sometimes I really crazy and I asked myself,who is the first person who introduced "A,B,C" AS a letter,who is the first personthat introduced the number, who is the first person that tell the others that the 'tree' is the tree, etc...But it is not wrong to create curiosity in our mind right.Anyway, lets go back to the main topic that is FRIEND.Because I love to visit my "Uncle Google", I asked "him" to explain me the meaning of FRIEND.Below here I attached some meaning that attract my attention that can be shared with everyone.

I'm not simply put the quotes below just for fun. Here, I post the quotes that reflect my thinking about FRIENDSHIP. I just don't know how to describe it with my own words so I need help from these quotes to explain to everyone on what I understand about FRIENDSHIP.
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"True friendship is like sound health; the value of it is seldom known until it be lost." - Charles Caleb Colton
"My friends are my estate."- Emily Dickinson
"Don't walk in front of me, I may not follow.Don't walk behind me, I may not lead.Walk beside me and be my friend." - Albert Camus (also attributed to Maimonidies). Sent by clovers
"Friendship is unnecessary, like philosophy, like art... It has no survival value; rather is one of those things that give value to survival." - C. S. Lewis
"The better part of one's life consists of his friendships." - Abraham Lincoln
"Friendship: a building contract you sign with laughter and break with tears."
"Anybody can sympathise with the sufferings of a friend, but it requires a very fine nature to sympathise with a friend's success." - Oscar Wilde
"If you judge people, you have no time to love them." - Mother Teresa
"Without friends no one would choose to live, though he had all other goods." - Artistotle
"Friendship is always a sweet responsibilty, never an oppourtunity." - Kahil Gibran
"Friendship that flows from the heart cannot be frozen by adversity, as the water that flows from the spring cannogt congeal in winter." - James Fenimore Cooper
"Best friends are like diamonds, precious and rareFalse friends are like leaves, found everywhere."- Anoymous
"If all my friends were to jump off a bridge, I wouldn't jump with them, I'd be at the bottom to catch them"
"Everyone hears what you say. Friends listen to what you say. Best friends listen to what you don't say."
"How do you know you've found your best friend. When you are ready to talk to them about anything, even though they know everything about you already."
"A world without a friend, what would it be? It would be like a world without water, something you need. Friends are like glass, once broken, they are hard to fix. Keep your friends, as you would keep your water."
"A friend will be there for you when things are good...but a TRUE friend will be there for you when things are good and also when things are very bad...and just when it feels like you will never smile again...she can put a smile on your face with just with a hug!"
"Have no friends not equal to yourself."- Confucious (551 - 497 BC) Chinese philosopher.
"To like and dislike the same things, that is indeed true friendship."- Sallust (86 - 334 BC) Roman historian
"Friendship with oneself is all-important because without it one cannot be friends with anyone else in the world."- Eleanor Roosevelt
"A true friend stabs you in the front."- Oscar Wilde
"The most beautiful thing we can experience is the mysterious, it is the true sourse of art, science, and friendship."- Albert Einstien
"Never shall I forget the days I spent with you. Continue to be my friend, as you will always find me yours."- Ludwig van Beethoven
"Walking with a friend in the dark is better than walking alone in the light."- Helen Keller
"In the end, we will remember not the words of our enemies, but the silence of our friends." - Martin Luther King Jr.
"A friend in need is a friend indeed."- Latin Proverb
"Life without a friend is like death without a witness."- Spanish Proverb
"THERE ARE MANY TYPES OF SHIPS. THERE ARE WOODEN SHIPS ,PLASTIC SHIPS, AND METAL SHIPS. BUT THE BEST AND MOST IMPORTAINT TYPES OF SHIPS ARE FRIENDSHIPS."- OLD IRISH QUOTE
" A friend is one to whom one may pour out all the contents of one's heart, chaff and grain together, knowing that the gentlest of hands will take and sift it, keep what is worth keeping and with a breath of kindness blow the rest away."- Arabian Proverb
"It is better to be in chains with friends , than to be in a garden with strangers." -Persian Proverb

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******That's all the quotes I can use to describe my understanding on FRIENDSHIP.What can I summarized here is everyone need friends in their life.No one want to be lonely because when we have friend, at least we have a partner to share our happiness and sadness. Even sometimes, the beginning of the ENEMY is from the FRIEND relationship.someone will not be someone else ENEMY unless there are friend before.********

Summary of the week II

2008-08-16T11:01:00.007+08:00

This month(generally) and this week(specifically) is the busy week. Many things happen but not in my life but in my surrounding. This situation make me think a lot (although I should more worried about my study and final year project).Sometimes I asked myself, Why I must concern about what happen around me? Then there is no answer for that question instead of I'm still thinking and concern about all these thing.

1. Olympic Games in Beijing 2008

Yesterday I watched the Badminton semifinal match between our Malaysian player,Lee Chong Wei and Korean player Lee Hyun Ill.it is the unforgettable memory for all Malaysian.Since 1956 Malaysia join the Olympic Games, we only got 1 silver(badminton-"beregu"-1996) and 2 bronze(badminton-"beregu(1992) and individual(1996)).that is the best achievement by Malaysian athletes so far. After that, Olympic Games 2000 and 2004, Malaysian didn't won any medal.but yesterday, all Malaysian proud of Lee Chong Wei.He manages to make himself go to the final that is tomorrow.This mean he conform the Silver medal for Malaysia but there is still the chance for Malaysia to win Gold medal for olympic and if he manage to win it, he is the BEST and break the record for Malaysia.But, in the middle of the happiness still got some Malaysian hope he lose.WHY? Because the Malaysian government already announce that whoever athlete bring back GOLD Medal will be given RM 1 million as an incentive.Those people think that is the stupid decision because it will waste the people money. But for me, I think it is the right decision.

REASON: Malaysia want Gold medal in Olympic and it is something that everybody will do in order to motivate people to perform well.Imagine that those disagreed people participate in a competition where our country really want to win it for a long time then the government motivated them by giving a great big incentive,for sure they will grab the chance.In this matter, I hope people dont think negative way.Just bring along the spirit "MALAYSIA BOLEH". Beside that, I'm sure that Lee Chong Wei not doing this for the sake of becoming the instant Millionnaire.For the sport person or someone that participate in the competition, what they want is to WIN and perform the best they can.There is no issue that they really want the incentives.No one play for become a loser. Eceryone want to WIN and Chong Wei has proof it that he want to WIN and get his own satisfaction with his performance.Anyway Wish him good luck for tomorrow match."MALAYSIA BOLEH" Spirit must comes first.

2. UiTM issues

This is the popular issue for this week.The Selangor MB want to oepn 10% quota for non-bumiputera to become UiTM students and this issue get a fast feedback from evryone in this country.All UiTM student around Malaysia do the demonstration in order to show their feeling.They said that UiTM is for bumiputera and it will become like that forever.I always keep myself up tp date with this issue because i love to hear feedback from diferent perspectives.In my own opinion there is pro and con with that announcement by Selangor MB and I'm sure he has his own reason for making that kind of announcement.Of course my first impression when I heard about that news, I'm not agree with it. But when I think again and review the comment from other people through the news i watched from TV and read from local newspaper, I think it is not a bad decision.Sometimes people need to think outside the box.i agree that UiTM is for Bumiputera but sometimes we need to make our life more challenging.if the bumi's know that there always a place for them to study, they will not think about competition.they must realize that sometimes something that we own will be taken by others and before that happen we must be prepared to face it.in this case, i think they just accept the news and what they can do is prove to the others that the Bumi's still can perform well although there were non-bumi's compete with them.Sometimes competition is the best way to measure our real performance.

thats only my opinion regarding this issues and im sure that this issue will be settled as soon as possible because the main objective of going to university is to study and gain as many knowledge as we can, NOT to make ourselves involved in these kind of issue that everyone not sure when it will be ended.

3. MERDEKA

August is the most precious month for Malaysia. 31 August 1957 is the date where we are free.This year, Malaysia is 51 years old and it has achieve a lot since that day.This is MERDEKA MONTH but i'm very sad with the current situation.Everyone busy with politic issue here and there, criminal case,demonstration until they forget that they must make a reflection for this month.they must stop all these thing and work together to appreciate this month.Even until now, I haven't seen any advertisement that remind all the Malaysian that this is MERDEKA MONTH and everyone should celebrate it. I'm very sad. Although I'm not really know well about my country history but what I know is the effort that make by the elders to free the country from the British colonization.I think everyone should read back the history book and study well about the country history.sometimes I asked myself, can I survived if I was born during the British,Japan or communist time.Heard the stories from the elders and read the book already make me feel fear and scare.Luckily I was born after merdeka.Actually sometimes I felt very bad when i'm not appreciate the peace and freedom of my country.its like i'm not appreciate the effort of the elders (those who work hard for independent of Malaya).Anyway, for this 51years of independence, i hope that Malaysia more success.

4. My student Life

Arrrgggghhhh.....the normal situation as like other students.got assignment, test, project and friend issues.but I can handle it for this time being since its become my routine now.I always told myself that everything is depend on myself.if i can manage myself well, i can do it.but if i fail to manage myself, that mean i fail in my life.so why should the word TENSION comes into my mind.I should be happy because i got a chance to experience all these.

OH....my stomach already sing a song.time for lunch.hihihihi

What is Love???

2008-08-03T10:55:00.002+08:00

Last Tuesday is the last episode for drama series "SinDarEla".The drama is ok and i like the ending of the story because it different from the normal ending of Malay drama where the hero must be together with the heroin.Of course when we watched love story drama or movie, we want the ending to be happily ever after and think that the hero meant to be together with the heroin.Frankly speaking, first I'm very upset with the ending where the heroin not choose anyone but when I think again and relate it to reality life, I think this kind of ending usually happen in the real life.Here I paste the the heroin monolog at the end of the story.After read these monolog, I start to think that not all lovers meant to be together for the whole life.The phrase "live happily ever after" just a tagline for a fairytale.Life is not worth it if there is no obstacle and hurt.Sometime we need to experience to be hurt before we find happiness.but there is no guarantee or warranty that the happiness will last forever.

Dalam hidup cinta boleh datang dan pergi
ketawa kerananya
senyum kerananya
menangis semahunya
sakit

Bermula dengan persahabatan
segelintir pula cuma sedar bila ia hilang
semata-mata untuk rasa dihargai
ada yang percaya cintanya untuk selamanya

for some of us
finally we realized that life is not a fairytale
we need to start over

demi sebuah impian
tak salah untuk kita berkorban
bila mana hati kita rapuh
menghadapi realiti
nangis...nangis semahunya
tapi jangan biarkn hati kita terus rebah

sejauh mana kita kenal hati budi seseorang
kita tetap tak boleh buat penilaian

in life
we have to learn to let go
and keep on moving
the more you wait
the more time you missed

bermula dengan hati, angan dan mimpi
sebesar mana pun kedudukan kita
segagah prinsip
mampu goyah
because of love
because we are human beings
mudah lemas bila cintanya lemah
kita harus kuatkan hati
percaya naluri
just admit it!
lafazkan cintaku mahukan dia.....

dalam kehidupan kita
cinta tak semestinya bersatu
terutamanya cinta pertama

2008-07-31T20:41:00.007+08:00

feel like long time haven't update my blog.Not because i forgot that i have a blog but because i feel lazy to write plus the network connection from my room is not that good.anyway, today almost two weeks i'm back to my campus life for sure as a student.nothing different except now i was in final year and final semester.got few more month to go before i complete my study in this university.my next pit stop after this?I don't want to think about it first because i'm scared to draw and color my future life.Before this I love to plan everything for my future but after seeing many failure in future life of other people that close to me, that make me scared of thinking about my future.but what i'm still believe until now is I want to change my life as well as my family life.I want my family get a better life than before.Actually I'm proud of my parent.They not get well education as other that were in the same age as them.Their highest education was primary six but they have their own ambition but as people always said "we just plan,God will do the others".When I was a little kid, i hate when people said like that because that means that person do not want to try their best to make their plan become real.but now i understand, it doesn't mean that person not put their effort but sometimes God have something for us.That's why until now I limit any thinking about my future plan.I just do what i want to do today in hoping that there got one more chance for me tomorrow.

Forget about the nonsense talking above.lets see the picture below:

Last weekend, I went to Pangkor with four of my friend,Wani, Fiera,Megala n Siti Fatimah.We enjoy our weekend there and release all the tense before we were attack by another "Tension Virus". I love the scenario there and feel peace and harmony there. The first picture is the Ferry Terminal in Lumut. Then the nice stone architecture that resemble the head of the crocodile in Coral Island and the last one is the "ikan paus" head.So amaze with the God creation.Just look at the picture for a moment and think.

Oh Man!!I forgot that tonight i want to call my mum.so i stop here and continue some other time

June's Notez

2008-07-20T12:59:00.007+08:00

LOSS

before holiday, my grandmother(mother of my mother) pass away.50+ day after that(during holiday) the other grandmother(my father's mother sibling) pass away.Then 7 days after that my cousin ,Abg Jefri who live in Kedah pass away. this year is a big loss in our family.Hopefully there's no more loss in our family because we can't stand it anymore.We know that we only a human and it is God work but we pray for the best in our family.

NEW BORN

iN the early June, my cousin, Norafidah got a baby girl.She was the same age like me but she build her family early than me.Her baby was named after two her favourite character in a local telenovella that was aired in TV3, Spa Q.So the baby was named Qistina Aleya.

MONEY

Many thing can be related to money until people create a phrase "No Money No Talk"
what so good about money?I agree people need money but sometimes money can be a biggest enemy in human life.anything can happen because of money.Some people say that money is more powerful than relationship n love.In other word Money can buy love.But that love is not an everlasting love.
I really hate to hear that some people broke their family ties because of money.Siblings fight each other because of money.really hate to hear that.this problem will continue until when me myself dont know.I really hate it.I agree that people cannot live without money but they must make sure that they will not be control by MONEY.Let us control MONEY not Money control us.Why this become my subtopic?Because, my family also faced the bad experience with the person who was controlled by money and until now the problem is not solved although we treats these STUPID Person like usual.Now they live happily with other people money n forget about those people.before this, when they was in difficult situation,they like a street and dirty cat come beg for money but once they get the money, they deny everything.Really hate these kind of STUPID N GREEDY people.Just leave it to God.We juz pray for their happiness so that they can live "HAPPILY EVER AFTER" so that they will not come to us like a dirty street cat.

Think that all for today...feel very boring...

End of Semester

2008-05-30T18:34:00.002+08:00

Finally, 1130 am mission complete for semester January 2008.Actually the test finish on 12 but i dont know what to write in my answer booklet so I juz finish everything and raise my hand to get attention from invigilators and then ..... YEAAAAAAA finish paper.(today test is quite hard but the holiday mood is in the air...so just forget about it and wait for the result).

I will be going back to my hometown tomorrow and my flight is at 8:50 at nite.nevermind, as long as i can reach my home sweet home.actually not really miss my home, just miss my family and my mum cooking.here in UTP everyday eating chicken and im very scared what if one day i turn to be a chicken.can't imagine it.

today the whole evening, i packed my stuff and say goodbye and happy holiday to my friends.very lazy to pack but need to do it.luckily my roommate not in the room the whole evening.she going to visit her SV regarding her FYP.

FYP?OMG..my semester break this time is not like before.I need to complete my FYP project.Next semester is my final year final semester in UTP and i need to complete my FYP during the semester break so that i can feel a bit release next semester.

nothing else to write.just now i feel regret for packing my stuff the whole evening.tonite got nothing to do.so boring.my roommate will going out again.anyway HAPPY HOLIDAY

My Notez II

2008-05-25T16:36:00.002+08:00

Today is a boring day.nothing to do.4 more days for my last paper and 5 more days to go back home.can't wait for that day.miss my family very much.

Sat-24/5/08
thanx Leen for your idea of went out from UTP life yesterday.hahahha.thanx also to mega and yee for joining us.i really enjoy yesterday.we watched movie, eating, window + real shopping make me feel refresh.the movie also nice.fourth sequel of Indiana Jones.enjoy watching this movie and what make it very special is because i watched it with my friends.hahahhaha

today
nothing to do.just stay in my room + sleeping n eating.what a boring life.study?ya, i should study because i got one more paper to go.but wait a minute, it is weekend and we must rest.hahhaha

nothing to write actually,just want to waste my time.

Sweet n Sour During Exam Week

2008-05-14T21:35:00.002+08:00

This week I started final exam.so nervous but I must do my best.hehehe.but this semester many thing happen.got sweet,got sour but luckily I still can stand it.

During study week
Monday 5/5/08 i got a called from my mum told me that my only grandmother was sent to the hospital due to health problem.Feel sad because I'm unable to visit her.She lives next to our house and for the last 22 years I grew up in front of her.i always joke n play around with her and sometimes get angry with her when sometimes she looks annoying.but she was my best grandma because she the only grandma i have.what i can do is just pray for her.

Few days later, my friend Zuraini(Dkny) lost her beloved father.her father passed away.she very sad.final exam is just around the corner and this thing happen.feel sorry for her and hope she will be a strong person.

11/05/08
HAPPY MOTHER DAY.so happy wish my mum happy mother day.my grandma still in hospital and her health condition still bad and not change at all.i called my aunt to wish her happy birthday and at the same time she was with my grandma.

12/05/08
Around 9pm i got a sms from my sister told me that my grandma passed away. i don't believe it since the day before my mum say she still ok.i tried my best to control myself from crying since the next day i got a final exam paper for SM.then slowly i started to cry. i think the time that i spent together with her.my house next to her house and i always saw her and i love her although sometimes she make me angry but its ok.now i lost her.since my form 1 until now,when i went back home during holiday,she will came to our house and asked me about my life.after she felt satisfied with my answer, then she went back home.when my parent went out for some function at night, she will came to our house to accompany me and my sibblings.(actually we are the one who look after her since a few minutes she entered our house, when we gave pillow and mattress to her, she will sleep leave us watching TV and take care of ourselves).so funny huh.when my parent came back, we asked her to stay, she refused.the same goes during day time.she always come and asked whether we already had our lunch or not.after heard about her dead, i felt very bad.other cousin that lives far away from her home and rarely come and visit her(only during raya) came to gave their last respect to her.But me?i lives next to her since a baby.i can't visit her when she was badly sick because i got final presentation and test around the corner. i always pray that she will be okay so that i still manage to see her.its just a dream and hope.God loves her.i felt bad.i can't manage myself to see her for the last respect.from my sister i know all the aunty,uncle and other cousins came except one person that is me.the last time i saw her during my midsemester break in the early of march.i don't expect that is the last advice i got from her.before went back to UTP, she always advice me-jaga dirik bait2 kat tempat org.berkawan ngan org yg betul.(take care of yourself n be friend to the right people)-when i think back, the last midsem break, they got one more addition advice from her-iboh di ingat gilak org kat sitok.belajar bait.(don't remember us here to much.study)-she never told that to me before.the only person that always gave that advice is my aunt...

13/05/08
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY MUM.i think this year is the very bad birthday to her.early in the morning i wish her but in sad tone.i knew she cried.she mention to me.her birthday present this year is to big and even she can't accept it.i knew her feeling.she loss her mother on her birthday night and today, instead of celebrating her birthday, it turns out to be buried her mother soul.I know my mum is a strong person.i dont know how to comfort her since im far away from her.i knew she sad and hurt very much.she the one who always deals with my grandma.take care her welfare and now my grandma died.the daytime,she on duty to take care of my grandma.and a few moments after she came home, my aunt who on duty that night called her to tell that my grandma passed away.she very sad.her birthday she got such a big present.mum, be strong ok.

14/5/08
today got no paper.my next paper is on saturday.i followed my friend mega went to Ipoh.this time it is more sweet memories for me.i can't believe it that i manage to go to Ipoh by bus.hahahaha.what a nice experience.both of us enjoy ourselves shopping and watch movie: Speed Racer.the funny thing is, only four person including us who watch that movie.but it is a nice movie because i love a car race.hahahaha.
went back to UTP miss my family but i know if i called home,no one will entertain me for the seven day after my grandma death.they busy with tahlil and prayer for my grandma.beside that, i don't like to hear my mum sad voice.she try to be normal but i knew she still sad.but i miss my family.i sms my sister and she told me,my mum and her sibling still feel sad.nevermind, maybe after one or two more day i will called her.

that all for this time.

mY nEW aGE

2008-05-05T15:35:00.002+08:00

Last Saturday, 3/5/2008 is my birthday.Happy Bday to me.hahaha.This year Birthday very meaningful for me.The last time I have a sweet birthday surprise was in 2005.Most of coursemate girl celebrate it with me.Thanx to Wani that time.This year I really2 thanx to everyone for their wish and surprise.

The nite b4 bday==2/5/08
Fiera n Wani asked me to join them for dinner.Then around 10:30 we went to Ipoh Parade.The plan is to play bowling but it full.Then we went to Jusco for bowling also but it nearly closed.Then check for midnite movie but it full also.Lastly we loiter around Jusco.Then at 12 am, i got present from them.It is a bracelet.so sweet and surprise.I haven't tought they will gave that kind of present to me.For me, by cheering me up that nite is more than enough because the whole day I feel bad after bad performance.that bracelet is like a bonus for me.Thanx you too.

after 12am 3/5/08
my phone keep vibrate to announce there are sms coming in.my finger feel numb replying them but it's ok.really appreciate them for remember my birthday.thanx all of them.then 1 am i got phone call from my siblings.they wish me, their older sister happy birthday.so touching n feel funny.usually only me remember their bday date but that nite...feel so touching but cannot cry.hahhaha

morning 3/5/08
my bday is more meaningful when two important person in my life called me for their wish.Thanx Emak n thanx Bapak.Actually they want to wish me after 5:30pm because I was born on 3/5 at 5:30pm.but they afraid i will not happy the whole day so they wish me morning.so sweet my parent.then the whole day i received the wish from my long time frens n new frens.thanx again you all.

nite 3/5/08
around 11pm my roommate went out from the room and found a card under our room door.It's from my ex-housemate during my internship.Thanx to Seila,Luxmi,Stella,Elvina n Ling Hui.I don't know what time they put it under my door but it is a sweet card from them. So surprise.Luckily haven't have any heart disease.then around 11:55 and above still got sms from others.all of them compete each other to be the last person to wish me happy birthday.Thanx everyone

sunday 4/5/08
the biggest and enjoyfull surprise is again from my ex-housemate with collaboration with my roommate,Yee and Yi Chen.Birthday cake from them.really feel good this year.so sweet.really surprise.First time in my life, I got cake for my Birthday.First time in my life I blow candle for my birthday.Really feel touching but still cannot cry.thanx everyone for making my birthday this year a sweet memories.

But as like the olders said, if they got good thing, there also followed by bad things. This morning I got a called from my mum told me that my only grandmother was sent to the hospital last night.Until now I still don't have any update on her current condition but I pray for her to get well soon.When heard about that news, feel like to went back home immediately but I can't.Tomorrow i got my FYP Presentation as well as SM project presentation.I just only can pray for her.

That all for this time.

Happy Birthday

2008-04-15T23:28:00.000+08:00

15 April is my cousin,Norafidah bday.but like the past 9 years, i still doesn't have chance to wish her.i don't know why,among all my cousins i only care about her.maybe because we growed up together until at the age of 12.then after finish our primary school, i got an offer to continue my study in boarding school n left her behind.then a few month after that, her family move to Kuching then we lost contact until I was form 4 when i decided to go to daily school.my mum told me she engaged.first i was surprised because that time she just 16 but then i think back that I should happy for her.I really missed her.

during our childhood time we share everything together.I still remember during our kindergarden time, both of us help the teacher to clean up the class early in morning and after class.then in primary school we also stick together although we are in different class.we went back home together, run from our class to bus station to catch the last bus and went to canteen with other friend.in term of study,i only can discuss our homework together but sometimes she don't want to finish her work and play.i know that time she hate study but she enjoy come to school.i always remind her to do her work but she only take note on it if she felt boring to hear the same word from me.

It is lie if we're not quarel.sometimes we disagree with something and we will shout at each other.but the next day we will be like a sister again.forgot to tell.both of us are the eldest in our family but compare to her,i'm very lucky(not to show off but its true).sometimes i saw her cried under manggo tree in front of our house.its very painful when heard her scream when her mum or dad scold her and beat her.(it is normal during our time when mum n dad beat us with hanger or 'rotan').but then she recover by herself.i can't help because that time i afraid of my parent.i still remember one day her father tied her at their house pillar.she cry and shout but then i can't help her and i can see her from my house window.her dad very fierce and even my mum threat to do the same to me if i help her.but that is a history.beside those bad memories we enjoy much during that age.

today, my 10 times miss happy birthday wish to her.i heard she got married last year.then i haven't heard any news from her even i can't contact her number.actually all our family members do not know the current condition of her family.after move to kuching, my uncle rarely comes to visit us and we also rarely visit them.her house doesn't have phone and even her family do not know where she lives with her husband.I really miss her.hope she has a happy life and her husband loves her like her family loves her.i want to wish her HAPPY BIRTHDAY.the reason is because she is my very best cousin.Beside her I also love one more cousin but he died in 2002 in accident then since then i loss someone that i can trust to keep my secret.why not other cousin?maybe because i only knew them at the minimum age of 12years old and then we not really often met each other.i also got one more cousin at my mum side that same age like me n norafidah but i can't get along with them because they only look for people with high class level while i'm just a middle level for them.even their family not really like the other family member that they think not at the same level with them.but i don't care because i know they look high class outside but they not live a happy life.they hide it but i knew it cause i know all their family secret.

Hope next year i got chance to wish and spend more time with my best cousin.if nothing happen, i will finish my study at the end of this year.i really want to see her and talk to her like we did during our childhood.

16 April, my best friend during primary school birthday.She is Nur Juliana bt Azlan.same like norafidah, i also miss a chance to wish her Happy birthday,include this year it is 10 years.last time i saw her during our last day of primary school.then during secondary school, we separate for the same reason like Norafidah case.but i still remember her until now and try searching for her.miss the time together.

18 April, my best roommate during secondary school birthday.Rasyidah.she now in UITM SA
26 April,my best roomate during secondary school birthday.Sofia Maggie.for three continious week is our birthday week.week 1,syidah,week 2 sofia n week 3 my birthday.that make three of us unique as a roommate that time.

30 April,my friend that i knew since foundation year birthday.She is Fiera and now she is my room neighbour.hahahahha.she now busy with her work same like me but she is more clever n hardworking than me.

so many people birthday in April.i Got few more date n name to write but forgot their real bday date.hehehhe.....

better stop now since very lazy to type.

busy n stress time

2008-04-10T13:24:00.002+08:00

Things need to be done before end of April

SM, HRM, KMT,ADBS Project
SM Assignment
FYP Seminar,Interim Report, Final Presentation
Test 2: HRM,ADBS,SM

Arrgggg....very2 busy n tension.dunno which one to be settle first.all these work make me feel like vormitting.why always gave work during last minutes times...i admit that sometimes it student fault for doing everything last minutes but we still know how to manage our time.but this time, i feel like i want to run away from everything. I really2 hate it.because if i hate all this tension and busy thing, it end up i become more lazy to do anything.arghhhhh....two more weeks to go before final exam n we still busy with all these projects, assignment n presentation.

1 Litre of Tears

2008-04-01T21:06:00.001+08:00

"If I were a flower, then now I would be a bud.
I shall treasure the beginning of my youth without any regrets.
This disease, why did it choose me?
Fate. It can't be put into words.
I want to make a time machine and go back in time.
If it wasn't for this disease,not only I could enjoy falling in love but I alsowouldn’t have to rely on anyone and live by myself.
I really don't want to say things such as 'I want to go back to how things were before.
'I recognize how I am right now, and I will continue to live on.
Therefore I definitely won't run away.
That's what I’ll do.
Definitely, always.
Even if it's like that, I still want to stay here.
because this is the place where I am.
If you look up at the sky after falling down the blue sky is also todaystretching limitlessly and smiles at me...
I'm alive.
People shouldn’t dwell on the past.
It's enough to try your best in all that you're doing now.
Reality is too cruel, too brutal.
I don’t even have the right to dream.
As i think about the future, the tears will come out again."

that is some of the part of diary written by Aya Ikeuchi. This proved her courage and positive attitude towards an uncertain future when suffering such an illness, spinocerebellar ataxia. It such a sad story. Actually I already watched this Japanese drama in 2006 after i heard about a positive review towards this drama.beside that, I also interested with something that taken from the real life. 1 Litre of Tears.This is based on the true story of the girl who still not lose hope with life eventhough she knews that she has not much time to live.To my surprise, this is the first drama series that make me cry since the first episode and the last episode is even worse.i never thought i will cry that serious.

why i choose this as my blog topics?
suddenly when i was busy doing my assignment i heard the drama theme song from my friend PC.then it automatically remind me of this drama.b4 this i always get mad and tense when faced many workload.then i realize, it is not that much since i still can have an opportunity to finish it.each work given will have a solution.but what if i faced a situation where there is no solution n it involved our life.even a small thing we cannot handle, how we will handle the big thing that involved life and death.this make me think again.i should be grateful with my life and enjoy it no matter how hard it is.when i read many times the sentence that i paste above, it gave me a spirit.

it make me think if i was in her place, will i be that strong?will i write these kind of sentence and inspire people not to give up in life? what a wonderful girl she is.she knows her conditions but she still want to live like a normal people.her family also very good.they gave support to her.make her laugh and happy until at the end of her life.

2008-03-31T21:24:00.000+08:00

What a lazy day.long time haven't update my blog.don't know why.maybe because lately i had been infected by some kind of disease that is not available in the medical dictionary...."malas yg terlampau"......hahahha..so dangerous the virus in this era...even the ancestor will become confuse when heard about that kind of virus...ok..here my notes for tonite

tonite i got time to write something on my blog since this evening i had attack a new virus..."kerajinan yg terlampau" after listening the song "Hanya di Mercu" by Ayu OIAM2.why?because suddenly the lyric attract my attention.donno why today because i already listen to this song many time ....

student life?
starting from thursday evening, i felt release after complete my "1st world war=>test n quiz". but on thursday also is the starting date for the "2nd world war=>SM assignment".actually it is simple task that is interview a company.but what make it my 2nd world war is we must find a big company that have a workers more than 100(branch not include...need the main office n headquarter).then we need to interview them n the project presentation is on the first week of may.i really hate it.not less than a month n where we should search for a big company in a small ipoh town.but wat to do.i'm a student n must bear to take this responsibility.4get about that 2nd worldwar.here i also got a "universe war=>FYP"...arrrrrggggghhhh...really headache.got so many report n i hate writing report without completing the project. so stressful but each time i'm stress new virus attack me that is "overhappiness".anyway that is the reality of student life.got sweet,sour,hot,salty n so many taste.

current issues?
today one issue in newspaper attract my attention.its about Suffiah Yusuf, a malaysian girl who entered an Oxford University at the age of 13 becoz she genius in mathematic.its not a news that can be proud of.After read about it, now i think i must be grateful because i'm just a normal people.wat a tragedy.when people heard about her ability, they will imagine her bright future life.but now, her life is a tragedy.after run away from oxford at the age of 15,then married at the early age of 19 n now the latest new about her is she advertise her "body service" via internet.what a shame.i can't imagine how her family felt when they read about her.wat a sad story.before this when i was in school, i was jealous of her because she got a place in one of the famous university in the world at young age.but she not really appreciate this opportunity.i feel sorry for her.its all end up like this.i just hope she will realize that she cannot do like that because she got talent and she should use it properly.

Others
1. miss my family.so relief after call my family.

2. this thursday got data mining quiz

3.now i addicted to korean series.last korean series i watched was the sad sonata in 2006.then i stop watched korean series because i addicted to english,indonesian n philiphines series.then i addicted back to korean series after watching coffee prince.then surprisingly now i also add malay series as one of my favourite collection.it all starting with dunia baru season one.but not really addicted like korean n english.the best malay series for me at this time are manjalara(even i hate the ending),sindarela,Bella and mostly the series that air on TV3.it is a good improvement for malaysian program.even Jangan Pandang Belakang film went to singapore and philiphines.keep it up guys.if u all produce good local product, I will support it....but if i addicted more to outside product, don't be mad k.

think need to stop now.why? because i need to finish my FYP progress report.need to submit it tomorrow.before the "kemalasan melamapau" virus attack me, better i prepare the antibodi for it.

here the song

Hanya Di Mercu

Mimpi dan harapan bagaikan duri yg mencengkam
tak pernah terluahkan hanyalah di hati tersimpan
terpendam
keterbatasan diriku menjadi penghalang

sampai bila aku bertanya sampai bila
ku harus mencoba
bila lagi resah hatiku bila lagi
aku harus berani
lalu ku bangkit tegak berdiri
mengatur langkahku terus mendaki
cita2ku di mercu

mimpi dan harapan
cita-cita yang tinggi
menjulang
seandainya ku biar cita2 di hati tersimpan terpendam
keterbatasan tak akan menjadi penghalang

sampai bila aku bertanya sampai bila
ku harus mencoba
bila lagi resah hatiku bila lagi
aku harus berani
lalu ku bangkit tegak berdiri
mengatur langkahku terus mendaki
cita2ku di mercu

aku mencari kekuatan dalam kelemahan
aku temui kejayaan dalam keberanian

sampai bila aku bertanya sampai bilaku harus mencobabila lagi resah hatiku bila lagiaku harus beranilalu ku bangkit tegak berdirimengatur langkahku terus mendakicita2ku di mercu

MY NOTEZ!!!

2008-03-25T16:12:00.002+08:00

Long time havent write something in my blog.I was busy with assignment and test.today i manage to steal a time to update a blog since i feel i want to explode due to many workload.finish one work another work come in.before this i blame myself for being someone that always waste a time and do these work during last minutes time.but recently i realise that it is not my fault.some task that given by a lecturer need time for me to understand it and some task need me to ask my lovely uncle google and aunty Yahoo! to help me search for the references.of course uncle Google and Aunty Yahoo! not help me much.now i was busy with my HRM assignment.I type the 'interview and HRM' keyword.uncle Google give me an advance answer.it good but the problem is some of the answer not related to what i want.this make me feel like to shout out.i really hate when people asked me to search for article because it takes time and always end up with nothing.i think uncle google and aunty Yahoo! should work hard to improve their searching performance.

FYP?
what a nightmare.recently i feel very lazy to do my FYP.i hate to write a report before i complete my work.but for this FYP got so many report to be done like preliminary report, progress report, interim report and final report.then also got seminar 1 n 2 n the final presentation.i really hate all these process.sometimes i feel like to see the lecturers and tell them why done they let us to complete our project first then we can write a report.i think proposal and final report is enough.no need for progress or something that sound like that.busy with FYP also busy with other courses.of course when we mention it to those that really love work they will said my time management is fail but if we think another way,it is not my time management problem.i need to go to the class,do assignment,class exercises,course project,test n FYP.so many reason huh...but still i feel very lazy to do my FYP.

LIFE?
student life is a normal life.wake up in the morning, prepare to class,eating, sleeping,assignment,test and stay up at nite is a normal for everyone who have a student title.i love to become a student but when it come to assignment, i really hate it.of course assignment is good to test our knowledge level but if there are so many assignment in one time, i can't take it.when i was during in the school i love to sit in the class and listen to the teacher but now i feel very boring.come to the lecture will be fun if the lecturers know how to teach but sometimes lecture hour is like a nightmare for me.so boring and sometimes i feel sleepy during class but still can control myself not to sleep.

current issues?
not really care about the current issues.reason?because each time watch news or read newspaper, it always talk about plotics.what a boring issues.why those people owez not satisfies.if it already settle juz let it be n please give those people to show their performance.if they perform bad then we can shout out our opinion.but what to do.human always not satisfies with everything and have a high PHD(PERASAAN HASAD DENGKI).

holiday!!!

2008-03-18T10:20:00.002+08:00

today is my third day in UTP after mid semester break.what a busy day[actually it is my own fault...].i haven't touch anything that related to my academic during my holiday[well,holiday is holiday].when I reached UTP on sunday evening, I started to make myself busy because on monday nite i got test.so many thing to do..KMT?SM?ADBS?FYP? all need my attention.i'm very lazy to do it.hehehe..forget about those thing.just wanna share my one week holiday story....

so happy going back home.really miss my home n my mum cooking.when i reached home, i straightly went to the kitchen and search for food.it is around 10pm at nite.i ate a lot because my mum cook my favourite dishes that is "sambal belacan" and "sardin goreng".hehehe.after finish eating, i sat in the living room with my siblings n cousin and we have a chat until 2 am.just a nonsense chat.two cousin stayed with us during this one week school holiday.actually their reason were to stay at my grandma house but actually it is their lovely aunty house.both of them are boy.that mean during the holiday i have 7 brothers instead of 5.it make me n my mum very headache.morning they waste their time in front of TV n PC.afternoon after lunch they slept or sometimes make a stupid joke.evening around 5pm went to football field n went home around 7pm.8.30 pm -10 they had a kompang practise[there will be a wedding ceremony at the nearby area].then 1030 until 12 or 1 am went to either futsal court or badminton court or sepak takraw court.so active but very lazy.they know i was there to help my mum do a cleaning, wash clothes and everything.sometimes i want to kick them but what to do they are my brothers.my youngest sister?no comment.all she know is nagging.bla bla bla...

there are two big hypermarket open in Kuching.before this Kuching only have supermarket.i grab this opportunity to explore these hypermarket since i love window shopping.the Boulevard n the spring.but there only a few no. of shop open since it is new.hahahha.

most of my time i just spent in my home.watch tv n just relax at my home n play around with my siblings n cats.very lazy to walk around since my frenz busy with their lecture.but it is good so i can save my money.hahahaha.

think need to stop first since i must do my work

I NEED HOLIDAY

2008-03-04T13:10:00.003+08:00

this week is the busy,stress n happy week. all mix up together and can be cook together either i can boil it or fry it or make soup.what will be the taste...hahahha..that is the nice and sweet idea from the 'bengong' people like me for this time.

TEST????
test?hahaha..officially this week I should have 3 test but during the last minutes time, HRM test will be postpone after midsemester break.should I happy or not?why?because after midsemester also got KMT and SM test.whatever with these thing because all of it need to read and memories and that is the most thing I want to avoid.what to do..Im a student and must accept all these thing...yesterday I have ADBS test and I don't know either I should laugh or cry for myself. I thought it is only one page test but when the last 3 minutes the lecturer asked who managed to answer until question 5 then i realize that there two more question at the back.OMG!!!what should i do? these nothing I can do except just be surprised because there nothing can be done during that 3 minutes. I feel like crying but at the same time i feel like to laugh.which one should i do? so i choose to laugh. This morning I heard many more student doesnt realize the back question and complaint it to the lecturer.Luckily Im not crying yesterday coz it will waste my energy.well we must show our happy face....

TASKS?????
many work to do.I really hate when it comes to search for information from Internet?why?sometimes uncle Google and Auntie Yahoo dont want to help.we type this keyword,it display other thing that also related to that keyword.i really hate it.

FYP????
tomorrow my seminar.dont know why i feel so relax although I know it will bring mark for me.maybe because my natural personality that dont want to be nervous, if not many stupid thing will be done by me.goodluck for myself.i already prepared the slides since last week.so excited rite....

Internship result????
tomorrow i will get my internship result...so scared but hope got good news tomorrow.goodluck for myself again....

holiday?????
this friday i will be going to my hometown for one week midsem break...so happy.miss my mum...i will use the holiday time to relax n prepared my mind n myself for workload after midsem break

need to stop first coz need to prepare to next class....

summary of the week

2008-02-24T23:54:00.003+08:00

Last week is the very busy and happy week for me...

BUSY?>>>>>Assignment here and there. got FYP preliminary report to be completed as well as the class schedule. what to do...it is normal student life.

HAPPY?>>>After a busy weekdays, finally in weekend can rest for the whole day on saturday although there got many more assignment to be done. What to do....it is weekend and my policy is there's no work on saturday except if it MUST BE DONE ON THAT DAY

two more week to go before I'm going back for my Mid Semester break. Until today, I haven't buy flight ticket yet coz the valid reason I have is there is no MAS ofice in Perak. Buy online? I do not have credit card and actually none of my family members have credit card because we're not that rich to have a credit card. But Air Asia can buy online ticket through CIMB account but I still choose to flight with MAS.why? because .... let it be my own reason after my first experience with Air Asia.well sometimes we must be a loyal customer..(valid reason rite).but this year I take a risk to buy the ticket on spot although I knew that time is school holiday. Anyway, that is who I am when deal with the flight ticket. Either always change the flight date or buy the ticket onspot.actually it is a bad habit but i like to do it.(maybe because I'm used to it since there is no MAS office in Perak)

I am already 21 years old and actually this year I am 22 and regarding to Malaysia law, those who age 21 n above must register as a voter. But the problem is I haven't register not because I'm lazy to register but I do not know the procedure plus I haven't know everything about all these. Too bad. If not, I can vote for this year 12 edition Malaysia election since on that day, I was already in my hometown. But if I was registered also I still FAILED to do these thing because I know nothing. so bad citizen huh. anyway...my word for all voters out there...vote for the best...hahhahahha...(now i'm thinking..why i must include this in my blog)....

That all for last week. Tomorrow I have class at 8 am.too early n too lazy.why?because tomorrow is monday...hahahaha...the beginning of the week.Hopefully tomorrow week is more better than last week. But as I already know by myself, there will be a lot more of assignment + quizes + test and the most important is my FYP1 Seminar 1. now I feel worried when thinking about it.But I still can't help myself to become more serious towards these thing.WHY? if i'm too serious, it will create tension situation and I really hate myself when tension. I feel like a useless person.

So what I know is now I must enjoy and appreciate my time well and at the same time complete all my task...don't let the TENSION thing enter into my comfort zone.hahahahhaha

feel tired n sleepy.why?because now it is 12:23 Am............

Bad News N Good News!!!

2008-02-17T21:08:00.001+08:00

Which one should come first. Bad News or Good News?Usually people will say,"ok bad news....then what is good news"...But for me both give same feeling.Why?Well every people have their own opinion about this two terms.Hahaha..forget it.As long as my life still happy and stay calm, I dont care either it is a bad new or good new..Hehehe

Bad New......I still not finalized yet with the topic for my Final Year Project. Everyone busy with their preliminary report that was due last friday..

Good New.....Yesterday when I was brush my teeth I got a topic. So today I'm busy with my preliminary report.But still afraid what if my topic not approved.That another story.Wait for tomorrow response from my supervisor.Hope she approved it since I feel like dying thinking the topic because each topic that cross my mind already taken by others.

Bad New....Due date for two assignment is around a corner but I have no feeling to complete it since very worried thinking about my FYP. Both is reading subject and I'm very bad when come to read the book with the fact.I'm very bad in memorizing thing unless if it is in the visual form...Oh Man!!!Assignment Due date!!!!!

Good New....I think I manage to complete one assignment tonight because when I read back the question, it is a straightforward question. I just need to find the page number in the book and gotcha...the answer of that question.The other assignment...still got 3 more days to go.

Bad New...starting from next week, my week will full with the quiz and assignments. But the most important one is the test.Oh Man!!!!many more to read and review

Good New....Test mean the mid semester break is around the corner.time for going back home.Miss my home very much.

Bad New....Tomorrow got replacement class at nite. I really hate night class because it hard for me to concentrate on what the lecturer teach in front. At the end of the day, I ended up talk with my frenz n feel pity for the lecturer in front because everyone will loss their focus after 15 minutes class started

Good New....Although it is a replacement nite class but I'm happy to attend it because I like the way the lecturer teach us.She will not make us boring.

I think its enough for my bad new and good new...it is balance for me.I believe on one thing...when we receive Bad New in the morning, we will receive Good New in the evening and vice versa.

Dunia Baru the Movie n Ungu Karmila

2008-02-09T20:25:00.000+08:00

After 2 days being lonely in my room, today I went out to Ipoh with my fren Nurleen. First thing in my head Dunia Baru the Movie...hahahhaha.I love the series.Next week is it last episode for season three.So we went to TGV Kinta City to watch the movie. Today is my first time eva in my life saw the cinema full for Malay movie.(already expected since it is one of the popular series in TV3).Actually in my mind i want to watch 3 movies(Dunia Baru, cj7 and kung fu dunk) but nevermind.

Many thing can be learned when watching Dunia Baru. This movie tell me about

Friendship --- Frenz owez be by our side no matter what happen to us.Frenz understand each other well.(when Anizah leave the letter to Opie, all her frenz knew that letter is not really written by Anizah and they suspect that something bad happen to her)
Relationship---husband wife relationship>>both should understand and respect each other no matter what happen.
moral values -- help each other(although he busy kidnapping people...Fazley still willing to help the old man and sent him to the hospital)------respect others(Adif wants her girlfren, Erika to be nice to his frenz opie although he himself know it is impossible).......we must take good care of our belongings when we were in public place(remind by suzana when her frenz told that their belonging had been stolen)
Caring----shown by Madihah.although she pregnant, she still want to help her frenz although her husband doesn't agree with her action and she keep remind them to inform her if got anything happen.
Work together---shown by all the character. Although they always not agree with each other but they still work together and complete their mission.

Ungu Karmila By Ramli Awang Murshid

today i buy 1 novel written by one of Malaysian writer, Ramli Awang Murshid. It is a nice novel.it is a combination of love and thriller novel.The story is revolved around the haunted villa.Actually that villa is a symbol of love between husband (Arif) and Wife(Karmila). Everything change when one tragedy happen and then the villa became a haunted villa.it is a nice novel and the writer write the cronology very well and make reader to read until the last page to know the whole story.

From the novel I learn more about pressure/stress and the symptoms(physical and mental) as well as schizofrenia disease. Beside that i have been introduced to one new disease that is sinestesia(spelling in Malay).It is a disease that related to neurology research.

Before this im very shame when people laugh at me when i told them i love to read novel but now im not feel that way again.at least i read novel for nothing. instead of being one of my entertainment medium, i also can gain extra knowledge. At the end of the page, the author will put their references and some brief information about new term(related to disease,career,general info,job description etc.).Not all novel is really a love novel...hehehhe

Feel sleepy now.the whole day went out.hehehehe

~ada apa dengan weekend~

2008-02-04T11:03:00.000+08:00

Last weekend, my frenz asked me to join them to have fun at Bukit Merah Laketown in Taiping. What a wonderful saturday.Feel so relax.Went out from UTP at least for one day and have fun is something that very nice n sweet especially when do it with our frenz. Thanx to megala, fiera and wani for invited me to join three of you and make that day a wonderful day.

Why duck picture? Because ducks look so sweet.We reach there around 1030 something and i think that is the time for ducks to go swimming. So cute watching them walk in a group with a "quack quack " sound while those that already in the water sound like people laughing. So sweet...

We enjoy our day at waterpark until 3pm.Before this we plan to go to Pulau Orang Utan and ecopark but seems we really enjoy our day at waterpark, so we cancel our plan. I love to watch people come with their family. really miss my family this time. When i was a kid, my family haven't bring me to this kind of place.I understand our situation that time. But now, I have frenz and i was in people state, i think i should go to this kind of place.

Back from Bukit Merah, we went to Ipoh Parade and our main target is BOWLING. i dont know how to play bowling. This is my first experience but it is a sweet memory to be remembered.hahhaha.at the beginning im very shame when my ball owez not reach the target but a few minutes later it become something funny. So nice.At least I experienced playing bowling.hehhehehe

Sunday? everything become normal student life again. wake up, take bath,breakfast,waiting for lunch n dinner, review notes and prepare for monday class. but it is ok. Sometime we must accept that our life is not for enjoy.sometimes we need to sacrifice our happiness and enjoy time for our future.hehehheh

Second Week Dilemma

2008-01-30T13:55:00.000+08:00

This week is my second week in UTP...This week a bit busy than last week.I need to think of the suitable topic to propose as my Final Year Project. What a headache for me.I'm very bad in generate idea. Finally I managed to submit my proposal yesterday. Now waiting for the confirmation either my toping accepted or being rejected.But I hope it will be accepted because I'm very lazy to think about other topic.

CLASS????Today my class is very unique.First class is 8AM-10AM and next class 8PM-10PM..so today my class is the starter class and finishing class.Both are general studies subject. Human Resource Management & Strategic Management..OH MAN!!!it is a reading subject. Nevermind as a student I must accept what had been arrange for me.

Internship Result??? Haven't got yet.Don't know when..

FRIENDSTER???? after a long time haven't touch my friendster finally I login my friendster today. so good to know my long lost frenz condition. They very happy with their life and partner for sure.Me??? oh I'm very happy with my life as a student now.Really misz all my frenz.

Last week I spend my time to download and watch Hindi movie entitled Tara Rum Pum starred by Saif Ali Khan and Rani Mukherjee. It is a nice story.Its all about life.There are some time we are at the top of the world but sometime we need to accept that not everytime we will be on the top. We need to prepare for that time. If we do not have enough strength, we will loose.I love the storyline on how the character deal with the situations and how other characters support each other.They always be together no matter in what situation.

Sharlinie still Missing...
I hope Sharlinie will be fine and for those who kidnap her please send her back home. Poor her family. Today is her birthday.I keep pray and still has hope that she will be ok and return home safely.I don't want the same tragedy like what Happen to Nurin last year repeat again.For the culprit that kidnap her,please return her back...She belong to her family not yours.

Oh Man!!!I got my HRM assignment to do and need to submit by tomorrow morning. I must do it now because tonite i got class and HRM class is 9AM tomorrow.

c ya in another post

GoodBye Intern....Welcome Study

2008-01-23T11:23:00.000+08:00

Today is my third day in UTP for the new semester as the Final Year 1st semester student. That mean it already 1 week 3 days I left my internship life. hehehe...

it is so nice to meet again all my friends and we shared all our experiences that we had gained during our internship.But at the same time I miss all my frenz that i knew during my internship period.Miss them. Thanks them for the sweet gifts.

First day in UTP.....
i went to UTP on friday. together with the other housemate, we take 12pm bus from Kelana Jaya LRT station to Ipoh.It is a very2 tired day for 5 of us. but we help each other to settle everything.then after that, everything become normal again like the life before we start our internship.

First class in UTP.....
What a busy and headache day.timetable problem????it is normal since my first year first semester and it seems like a tradition here.come to class and the main topic is timetable.but this semester i'm not worried about my timetable.Final Year project!!!!

Today.....
today is holiday and I need to spend my time to think about the topic that I should propose for my final year project.hehehhehe....

that all for this time....

BBB (Bukan Bintang Biasa) - Bukan Bintang Biasa

2008-01-07T14:56:00.000+08:00

Last weekend I watched one Indonesian Movie that is Bukan Bintang Biasa. It is a nice movie to watch.The most important is I like the all the song especially the theme song. There got something with the lyric that attract my attention. This song is all about friendship n love. When I listening to the song, I remember my frenz.Miss all the time together with them. Miss u all my frenz.

BBB (Bukan Bintang Biasa) - Bukan Bintang Biasa

once upon a time
ada sebuah bintang
yang bersinar terang di hatimu
ku akan datang lagi
menjemputmu dengan cinta
kan kubagikan semua bintangku

kumiliki bintang
bukan bintang biasa
ku bisa hapuskan semua dukamu
ku tak akan menghilang
slalu ada di hatimu
memberi bintang hanya untuk cinta

dan yang terbaik selamanya bersama
akan kubagikan bintang
ku demi cintamu
and when you keep on believing
thousand ones can be sees by running
the miracles can do things though can't do

kumiliki bintang
bukan bintang biasa
ku bisa hapuskan semua dukamu
ku tak akan menghilang
slalu ada di hatimu
memberi bintang hanya untuk cinta

dan yang terbaik selamanya bersama
akan kubagikan bintangku demi cintamu
and when you keep on believing
thousand ones can be sees by running
the miracles can do things though can do

dan yang terbaik selamanya bersama
akan kubagikan bintangku demi cintamu
and when you keep on believing
thousand ones can be sees by running
the miracles can do things though can't do

the miracles can do things though can't do

GOODBYE 2007... WELCOME 2008

2008-01-02T11:08:00.000+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE....GOODBYE 2007.....WELCOME 2008

This year first time ever in my life I celebrate my new year in Kuala Lumpur with my housemate; Luxmi, Seila, Elvina, Ling Hui and Estella...But i'm still looking forward to celebrate new year with other frenz. Thanx to Seila frenz from Cambodia for going together with us. Thanx ya guys coz your appearance protect us from the crowd public and the most important thing is thanx for bring umbrella together.

All six of us leave office around 6:30 pm and went to level 2 KLCC to have our last dinner for 2007. After 1 hours and a half there we walk around then we move to the KLCC Park around 9pm. The most popular activity that nite is take photo while walking.Luckily one of Seila frenz bring camera. Then we went to the concert area and stay there for about less than 30minutes before we walked back to the park.

At the park, we seat there for a while and talking to each others. Thanx to a foreigner couple(dont know which country they came from) for let us play around with their baby. That baby boy so cute n sweet.After 1 hours there we move to the big screen and find a place to seat.We seat there and create a game by ourselves to waste our time. We are in our own world and doesn't care about people around us. They just pass by and look at us coz we make a big circle,play a game and laugh together.

Unfortunately, 30 minutes to midnite the rain fall. bUT it doesn't make everyone there gave up.there still standing waiting waiting for the midnite. and when the time reach midnite at the maxis tower clock, the firework show began and everyone shout "HAPPY NEW YEAR"

we need to leave the place after 5 minutes firework show because we need to catch the LRT. Everyone seems to be hurry coz they don't want to stuck at the station due to the jam inside the LRT station. We managed to get into the empty LRT. Here I want to thanx to the security and the Rapid KL staff for their good n great jobs. They keep remind public to be careful since the road is slippery due to the rain.Thanx to them.

When reach at Kelana Jaya station, we took taxi to our condo. Finally we reach home safely.

PRE-New Year Party 8 A605===Hahahahaha

2007-12-31T09:36:00.000+08:00

Last Nite is the special nite for us. After almost 7 months together, last nite we o sit together n enjoy a small party for pre- new year 2008. The main activity of that nite is gifts exchange but for sure must have food so that it will be more enjoyable.hahaha...so juz look at the opposite picture. That is the only foods available coz we all run out of money because we already use that money to buy presents.Each of us need to prepare 5 presents.

Anyway, we all still happy coz the important thing is our happiness not the food.hahaha..Thanx to Seila for her nice and sweet ice-cream.We enjoy eating it and that is my favourite flavour.

I will miss this moment. 30 / 12 / 2007...

Tonite we o have plan for the new year countdown. We will celebrated it in KLCC. Why KLCC?because we can straigtly go there after work(we work in KLCC...hehehe), it is safe than other place n LRT station oso near there. hahaha

Don't know what else to write...

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2008

byE Bye 2007

Enchanted OST - So Close by Jon McLaughlin

2007-12-27T08:22:00.000+08:00

Few week ago I watched ENCHANTED with my lovely housemate and I like to hear one of the song especially during the ball. So close by Jon McLaughlin.Then I started to search for that song.On Monday I managed to get that song. Here the lyric

SO CLOSE - Jon McLaughlin

You’re in my arms
And all the world is calm
The music playing on for only two
So close together
And when I’m with you
So close to feeling alive

A life goes by Romantic dreams will stop
So I bid mine goodbye and never knew
So close was waiting, waiting here with you
And now forever I know
All that I wanted to hold you
So close

So close to reaching that famous happy end
Almost believing this was not pretend
And now you’re beside me and look how far we’ve come
So far we are so close

How could I face the faceless days
If I should lose you now?
We’re so close
To reaching that famous happy end
And almost believing this was not pretend
Let’s go on dreaming for we know we are
So close
So close
And still so far

~Alvin n the Chipmunks~

2007-12-24T11:41:00.000+08:00

What a nice movie to watch.

this movie remind me of my childhood life. Alvin n the chipmunks is one of my favourite cartoon. I love their voice when they sing and their characteristic especially the naugthy Alvin. Among three of them, I love Theodore. He's so sweet n cute in this movie. thanx to my frenz for sponsoring the movie ticket for me eventhough they let me watch the movie alone coz they don't want me to be boring follow them shopping. Anyway I'm really appreciate it coz got free ticket but even after I finish the movie they still not buy anything. They told me that they don't know which one to choose since all the clothes look nice.I only feel pity for their boyfrenz coz need to accompany them go here n there.

~HARI RAYA AIDILADHA~

2007-12-20T09:51:00.000+08:00

HELLO EVERYONE

Today is Hari Raya Aidiladha and this is first time in my life celebrate it without my family...really2 miss them.Now Im in Seremban celebrate it in my fren house.But the celebration here is different from my place.In my hometown in Sarawak, first day of Aidil adha is like first day of Aidilfitri. After morning prayer they got makan2 at the mosque.every home must hantar makanan ke masjid then everyone will eat. after that they got sembelih kambing, lembu or sapi...evening we go to relatives house n spend time with them..

but here in peninsular is different. my fren told me that only those live in pantai timur area have a big celebration of hari raya aidil adha.so this morning after raya prayer, the life become normal.theres no different from the usual day.

really miss home....

MISS HOME

2007-12-17T08:07:00.000+08:00

I havent be back to home for almost2 month n now im really2 miss my home
this year is the first time in my life, i will not celebrate HARI RAYA HAJI at home..I want to go back but I can't.miss home...but I will celebrate my Raya at my friend house in Seremban. Actually it also good because if im going back home, I can't feel the feeling of celebrating Hari Raya Haji far away from my family...

I have 3 weeks 4 days to go to finish my internship training. Can't wait to go back to campus life.hehehe.

now is "BANJIR" season. Pahang, Kelantan, Johor, Terengganu got banjir.poor people.they need to leave their house then need to sleep in the other place and share with hundreds of people. Then during that time, they think about their loss and everything. But there's nothing we can do because it is a natural disaster and we cant prevent or avoid it.

ASIAN IDOL
Finally the title goes to Singapore Idol...but Jac also perform her very best. But I think the winner of the Asian Idol can be a controversy. Even the jury themselves never mention about this singapore guys as their prediction on who will win....
anyway congaratulation to him

November

2007-11-13T15:31:00.000+08:00

Hahahaha....Finally I managed to open my blog...Before this i got problem to open it so that why haven't have any new post from me

Got so many thing in my mind but im very lazy to write...
2 more months to go before I'm finished my Internship training...That mean 2 more months left before I started again my life as a student...before this I thought being a student is boring but after during this internship I realize that the working life is more boring than study...maybe we can make an online survey to poll which one is better: work or study?

This month is the exam month for Malaysia's Universities either it is government universities or private universities...so good i don't need to sit for exam this semester...so nice

CONGRATULATION MALAYSIA

2007-10-10T08:15:00.039+08:00

Selamat Hari Raya

everywhere I go this week, I heard this song..feel so excited.My flight will be on Friday, 12/10/2007 at 6:30pm. so I will reached Sarawak at 8:15 like that.and when i reached at arrival hall or outside Kuching International Airport, I will heard the RAYA TAKBIR. i really can't wait for Friday. My sister will be back tomorrow.

Today, all Malaysian newspaper put the same headline. It is about our first Malaysian astronout, Dr Sheikh Muszaphar Shukor. He will go where no Malaysian either poor or rich has gone before and he will make his name a history as the first Malaysian in space. For Malaysian it is a great prize for 50th Merdeka and precious moment and story to be tell to the next generation. If 50 years ago, our ancestor fight for the independence but this year, we as a Malaysian proud to have someone to join other country to go to the space.

HARI RAYA COUNTDOWN

2007-10-08T13:19:00.000+08:00

Got 4 days to go for Hari Raya Aidilfitri...really can't wait..This week gonna be the busy week for the Police especially Police Traffic and the bus driver. And those who going back by Flight, KLIA or other airport will be busy with people....Everyone only have one destination;HOMETOWN

Juz wanna share about my weekend. Last week I went for my Hari Raya shopping at Jalan Tun Abdul Rahman;the most busy place went come to festive season.Although Malaysian are advice to do the early preparation but most of them still love to do all these preparation during the last minutes.Their reason only one :"Last Minutes baru syokk..baru ada rasa nak raya"...I really agree with them.You know why?
"Because the during the last minutes shopping and preparation, people can feel that the Hari Raya is around the corner. Furthermore, the price also cheap for some stuffs and there also got discount". I dont think about the price or discount and so on.What I like about the last minutes preparation is the people attitude and reaction. I like to sit at one place and see the movement of the people.It is a nice scenario for me.

CONFIDENCE~TRUST~HOPE

2007-10-04T10:42:00.000+08:00

Yesterday I got email from my frenz that tell about these three words n what it means in our daily life...Here are the situation that can be related to that Three Words

CONFIDENCE: Once all village people decided to pray for rain. On the day of prayer all people gathered and only one boy came with an umbrella.... That's Confidence..

TRUST: Trust should be like the feeling of a one year old baby when you throw him in the air; he laughs.....because he knows you will catch him.... That's Trust..

HOPE: Every night we go to bed, we have no assurance to get up alive in the next morning but still we have plans for the coming day....
That's Hope..

so, the real message from that situation is:
KEEP CONFIDENCE...!! TRUST OTHERS.....!! NEVER LOSE HOPE......!!

Accident During Festive Season

2007-10-01T12:10:00.000+08:00

It is about 11 days left for Hari Raya to come...so happy

Here juz wanna share about the normal issue during Hari Raya...Every year 3 or 2 weeks b4 Raya..accident become the main news in television...Like this year..in 3 days got 13 died in different accident time but at the same place. As usual the main factor is the driver attitude. Their careless not cause the death but also the sadness to those who still alive. Can u imagine, in their happiness waiting for Hari Raya then suddenly the new come that bring the bad news for them. The family members that they waiting for died because of the road accident... so sad

Here I just want to remind you all to be careful while you're on the road
drive carefully k

SELAMAT BERPUASA
TAMBAHKAN AMAL IBADAH UTK 10 MALAM TERAKHIR RAMADHAN

2007-09-28T15:05:00.000+08:00

THE CONSEQUENCES OF THE TECHNOLOGY

Below here i want to show to you what will happen if people really addicted with the

technology

Even the cat also refuse to eat the real mouse....

what should we do?

Can you imagine if these kind situation really happen in the operation room?....

actually got so many picture i got so juz wanna share this three with u all

Nurin Jazlin Case

2007-09-28T12:00:00.000+08:00

What a tragic case....
I believe most of people feel sad + angry...me myself also feel sad. When saw the news on TV about her, without any signal,my tears drop down...It is a sad story. After 20+ day gone missing n her parent keep praying for her safety, then one day the police called them to identify the child body inside the bag. For sure that is the difficult moment for them.Even for other Malaysian also felt the same way as them. When the DNA test prove that the body in the bag is Nurin....can u all imagine her families feeling...

The missing child found although it found in the tragic way.Now all of us pray n hope that the killer will be caught soon and get the punishment for what he/she did to Nurin..

Here I want to asked all of you to spend 1 minute to pray for Nurins....
AL-FATIHAH

My First

2007-09-27T11:24:00.000+08:00

This is my first time to do a blog
I have so many free time so i want to do something that can full fill my time
most of my frenz have their own blog....so why dont i try to create one